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Please do not ask me if I am okay. I am about to break down and I do not know when I may recover. Why do my fears constantly fight for freedom? Please do not tell me everything is going to be alright. This is all my doing, and I am in too deep now. Please do not ask me what I desire, I cannot remember grateful, and noting will suffice. Please do not ask me to smile, it hurts to much to pretend. Please do not ask me if i need a friend, they went extinct a long time ago. Please...just leave, self pity is the numb I am all too accustomed to, and your company is painfully obvious. Why do I hate those more fortunate than myself? Is it everyday for the rest of my life I will need you rather then want you? I want to be my only company...I want to share everything I care about with my thoughts. Why have the warm embrace from someone else, it fails every time. When I look in the mirror, I see nothing, hollow. I am a set of wet logs on the forrest floor that cannot flare up when lit by a flame. One thing you must promise, is to never give up.... not on me, no matter how hard I try to push you away. When I come alive, I will need you there with the rest of them...hold on...please.

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XxLadyDarkRaynexX
08:34 Oct 19 2008

aww darlin, I must stay I have been in that place,half a dozen times, but when you find the one that when you push them away and they just grab you and hold you tight and tell you that no matter what they won't let go, you lose those old doubts.

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