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Embrace....
00:46 Jun 17 2005
Times Read: 538

I love the night

how the shadows fall all around

forming a cocoon about us

that cloaks the world in darkness

But there we lie

as lovers lie

holding one another tight

It's a small pocket of happiness

in a world so wracked with pain

It's one small place where love still grows

in the boundless garden of hate

So as we drift into our dreams

and listen as our heartbeats become one

we each bask in our warming glow

and leave the cold world to die

Meaning Of Love...
21:59 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 548

What do you know about love?

I've touched its perfect face

I've held it tight in my arms

and kissed it to sleep each night

What can you know about love?

If you can hate something so perfect

something so beautiful

something so real

that it brings me to my knees

When I see them walking hand in hand

with bright smiles across their faces

and a look of pure joy in their eyes

I know they've touched the same love I hold

and I could never deny anyone I loved

anyone I cared about

such a perfect union of souls

Some people spend their entire lives

up until their dying breath

looking for something this beautiful

searching for something this wonderful

and that's why I could never

not in a thousand lifetimes

stand between my love and her happiness.

I could never tell her who she is

or that what she's feeling is wrong.

But there you stand

soaking in the pouring rain

shaking your head violently

disgusted by some invisible shame

What do you know about love?

How can you touch love

when your heart is filled with fear and hate?

If you understood love

even grasped the meaning of the word

you'd know it takes a million different forms

each as perfect as the last

and though I can't hate you through all my pity

when I see the pain you cause

the tears you bring

and the misery you create

I break down and cry.

Because I know then

that you'll never know the meaning of love

the true meaning of love.

But yet, in your ignorance

in your blindness and hate

you crush something so perfect

so beautiful

that it still brings me to my knees

and for that I'll never forgive you

though I'll always pity you

as you wallow in your sea of pain.

I hate you...
21:50 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 549

I said "I love you" today

I tried hard to make you believe it

I tried hard to believe it myself

But the truth is that I hate you my love

I hate you now

and I hated you when I said it

When I look into your eyes

all that I can see

is a string of broken promises

lies stacked upon lies

things that you wanted to do but never tried

and the countless missed opportunities created by

the millions of precious moments I'll never get back

Yes, I hate you

I hate who you are

I hate what you've made me

and most of all I hate what we've become

Even if I could love you

and all of your cruel ways

I could never love what we've become

a sickening, rotten display of denial

a putrid example of naivete run amok

and a horrid case of idealism gone too far

I don't love you

but I love who you were supposed to be

I love what I thought you were

but you never understood yourself

you never make an attempt to understand me

and now no one

not even the Gods above

can understand us

So why, why do I say I love you?

Is it a reflex

or perhaps just words uttered in fear?

No, my love, I say I love you because they are just words to me

words like any other in the language

the only difference is that they're the ones you want to hear

and until you want to hear others

I'll repeat them to you again and again and again

just because I've lost the will to fight

I've lost the heart to argue

and I truly don't care enough to speak the truth

If that's your idea of love

then I hope you enjoy it

It's the way you made me

the way you taught me

the way you groomed me

and I hope you enjoy your "I love yous"

because I know you've worked so hard for them

and even though they're shallow and wasted

they're just like the love we share

I think even you can agree

that they're the perfect words for you

even if they're words just like

any other words in the language.

Anger
21:46 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 550

Whisper to God your prayers

to keep away the nightmares

Then dare to look inside

in that place where you hide



So wipe away the tears

and tell me all your fears

to compare them all to mine

you'll watch me cross the line



Show me the wrists that you slit

and tell me about your pit

then look deep into my eyes

and see where real pain lies



I know you can't compare

with my evil stare

So silence to all your lies

I'm deaf to all your cries



For you I can't feel

because your pain's not real

You may think you're dead

but it's all inside your head



Let time remove your tears

and get yourself away from here

because it's you that I seek

to feed the small & weak

It's now things turn bleak...

Dark Mirror
21:43 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 551

I've looked into a mirror

and scared myself to death

my eyes are so cold and evil

it's hard to draw a breath



I know that my pain is deep

so deep down inside

that there is not a single soul

no one for me to hide



My friends all say they care

and that they understand

but when I'm going through the valleys

I walk alone through this land



The days are darker than death

and take all of their time

and spend it all crushing me

what is this evil crime?



But the truth will be known

albeit when I'm gone

because my days are numbered

just like the words of a song



But until that day arrives

the mirror will be a sight

my eyes so cold, hollow

and black as the darkest night



So when we meet one day

don't sympathize over me

inside I've already died

so please just leave me be...



Leave me be....

Trail Of Tears
21:41 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 552

I see it all

so clearly

the past

the future

the present

I see the blood and sweat

the pain and agony

the tortured betrayal

I've survived,

prevailed

through days of torment

and nights of angst

but for what?

what does it amount to?

it amounts to an old man

dying alone

counting the bumps in the ceiling

as death slowly enters

no faces of those I've loved

no one to hold my hand

and say it'll be alright

nothing to comfort me

in my silent solitude

nothing is left

but an empty shell

to be burried like the others

that and a trail of tears

spanning decades

flowing into a waterfall

at my feet

it'd be beautiful

if it wasn't so sad

but it's all that remain

of the struggle I won

only to lose in the end

One Heart.
21:40 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 553

It’s like standing in the middle of a field

with no trees

no animals

no one

Though the grass is green and lush

Though the sky is blue

the air is warm

smelling of sweet scents

and life is good

It’s empty

hollow

every sound I make echoes

off invisible walls

It’s lonely here

lonely without you

it only takes one person

to fill this vast space

one body to warm

the coldest nights

one pair of eyes and hands

to remind me it’s all ok

it’s ok to be alone

it’s ok to cry

It only takes one heart

to fill this space with joy

as long as that heart is yours love

only if it’s yours

Every night....
21:38 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 554

Every night I lay there

alone in the darkness

etching into the wall

some magical symbol

ripped from ancient lore

It's a spell of love

and a curse of fate

Because it's fate my love

that made this bed cold

and my arms so empty

the hands that trace this symbol

into this wall shrouded in the darkness

should be strumming your hair

and pulling you tight

but not tonight my dear

nor the next so it seems

Because the spell I cast

upon this damnable wall

will not see light of day

until another night

another night like this

in which I can hold you close

and whisper softly to you

the words that I want to say

and the words that you want to hear

If I Died Tommorrow...
21:23 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 555

There would be a wake, an empty wake

of which few souls would dare partake

There would be tears, some useless tears,

from those I've met through all the years

There would be talk, a lot of talk

some talks of waste and my cut stalk

That is, if I died tomorrow...



I would lay in coffin black

with handles brass as if to fend

off some invisible attack

I'd lay so still but feel no pain

my eyes stay closed, not seeing the light

I shall never lose but never gain

That is, if I died tomorrow...



There would be a stone, a lifeless stone

over this grave I call my own

There would be grass, beautiful grass

who's beauty I could not try to surpass

There would be trees, tremendous trees

who soar to heights that only a bird sees

That is, if I died tomorrow...

It Ends Like This MY Friend...
21:19 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 556

We've loved

we've lost

we now know who we are

a different view

now keeps us apart

it ends like this my friend

We've grown

we've changed

we now see who we are

as tears now fill my eyes so deep

it ends like this my friend

We've laughed

we've cried

we now feel who we are

but the memories

now fade away

it ends like this my friend

We've danced

we've sang

we now hear who we are

but the song is hushed

as the music dies

it ends like this my friend

You shall be missed

dear friend of mine

your mark now left

but I have a different

trail to blaze

so it ends like this my friend

Longing....
21:13 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 557

All I wanted was to hear you say

that you loved me and wouldn't sway

but your words came from far away

to remind me I'll be alone today



All I wanted was to see you

All I wanted was to be with you

All I needed was to reach you

I had all I needed to complete you



But holding your heart I'll be strong

humming the bars of the same old song

it feels so good it can't be wrong

But every day now seems so long



I want to hold you so I can say

I can feel your touch every day

It's a strange caress from ghostly hands

scratching my skin like grains of sand



I don't know what I would do if you were here

except whisper to you my dear

that for you I would gladly die

and carry your words to where I lie



But I'm left longing for the kiss

from the girl who's touch I miss

If I could I'd take your hand

and walk you through the shadow land



and when we came through the other side

I'd make a spot for you to hide

and there on the edge of darkness we'd complete

the circle that was meant to be

Sea Of Souls
21:12 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 558

If I stand here silent

at any time of day

I can hear the hounds calling

calling me away

You see just beyond my realm

there's an endless sea of black

it's filled with drowning souls

but to them I turn my back

Their cries truly pierce my ears

and beat within my heart

Because I know their pain too well

and we're not that far apart

But I leave them there to cry

screaming from the pain

I know that many are dying

dying all in vain

But I can't go back to help them

because they'll pull me in

Instead I just freeze my heart

and ignore the screaming men

By the time they start drowning

I simply do not care

My escape was permanent

from that sea of black despair

So now it's onward that I walk

into the endless night

I leave the screams behind me

because it's not my fight

Maybe I'm cold and evil

but my fight still roars within

and if I turn back now

I know I'll drown again

So please forgive me

you poor souls in that hell

I simply can not help you

I'm just an empty shell...

Angel...
21:11 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 559

I combed the earth in desire

Now gasping for breath my life is dire

I see the end I see the fire

the flames drown out the singing choir

Below the cloud that heaven brings

Lays a child of senseless things

But now I have to ask you why

there's not an angel as I die...



I lived my life all for my own

Now in death a toppled throne

Now the light's no longer shown

And in the fire I am thrown

Now the night falls long at last

I see so clearly my horrid past

All I can do is stay and cry

because there's not an angel in the sky...



I know in time the tears will pass

I lay there encased inside my brass

My soul is empty, turned to glass

My body gone now feeds the grass

The earth is now my hellish home

It's now the place I'm doomed to roam

But now I see your lie

I'm not an angel when I die...

Repetition
21:07 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 560

Open up the wounds

let the heartache flow again

watch me turn to my addictions

and let temptation be my guide

I'll quell the pain with thoughts of lust

drown the tears in temporary joys

as I'm tripping up the stairs of life

falling on every step I climb

It's a blind charge through endless repetition

running into doors I've closed

with a history of lies

I can't do the things I love anymore

I only love one thing now

and it calls to me

at times like these

like a lover lost in the night

it finds me with open arms

and pulls me aside

Am I strong enough to win this fight?

Can I do this all again?

As my strength cracks and breaks

I see how I've lied to myself

about the twisted merry-go-round I'm riding

and how long I can hold on

before I'm hurled aside for good

Because even though there's determination

lurking within my eyes

I can still feel myself fading

disappearing within my mind

There is no exit from this place

There is no victory to be found

Just another day of trials

another day to watch myself grow weak

It's just my fate

and the cross I bear

watching life turn around

spinning with the hands of the clock

opening up everything that was old

memories I tried to forget

become new again

and I'm sliding

as I’m racing to the end

holding on as strong

as my shattered will allows

waiting until I finally slip

and drift into nothingness

losing myself for good

and forever ending

this senseless repetition

Distant Heartbeat.
15:55 Jun 15 2005
Times Read: 561






Knowing that you are so far away

I hug the air around me tight

In my mind dreaming it's you

I opened my heart as I opened my mouth

To kiss your sweet red lips

Sometimes I breathe deep

In hopes of catching your scent

Sometimes I can my love

Sometimes I smell your hair

The same as sometimes I hear your laugh

Though they are but echoes fading

Fading into the darkness of my mind

Still they boom and echo

Deep within a hollow heart

Filling it with love that few have felt

Though many have dreamt

I belong to you love

As you belong to me

But until the next time I hold you

Until the next time I kiss you

Until the next time I'm with you

When I need you, I'll close my eyes

And hold you tight

Tight, Tight Tighter

Until I can feel your heartbeat in my hands

Trapt Angel
19:15 Jun 09 2005
Times Read: 562






I build walls:

Walls that protect,

Walls that shield,

Walls that say i shall not yeild

Or reveal

Who i am or how i feel.



I build walls:

Walls that hide,

Walls that cover whats inside,

Walls that stare or smile or look away,

Silent lies,

Walls that even block my eyes

From the tears i might have cried.



I build walls:

Walls that never let me

Truly touch

Those i love so very much.

Walls that need to fall!

Walls meant to be fortresses

Are prisons after all....

False Witness...
15:23 Jun 01 2005
Times Read: 566




Those who know nothing amuse themselves with the infatuation that we are society's downfall... that they are the humane and we are the the scum.. they please themselves with false accusations and pointing fingers at us while we are pittied by those who follow... we are lost in the mainstream of the media and brought to the simplest joy of knowing that we are not alone... and so i shall say this... those who know nothing should hold their tounge until they know the truth... The truth and the life that we live...

Alone...
15:18 Jun 01 2005
Times Read: 567






Once you lose all hope, trust,anger, and happiness, you become like we who are no one. You shall be forever lost and cold. No pain nor remorse shall you feel. You will be a dark soul that will be forever alone...