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Treasures From my Heart
19:42 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 740
Speachless, is what I am when I think of us.
Truly Amazed, is what I am when I look into your sparkling Eyes.
Joyfull, is what I am when I see your Bright Smile.
Blissfull, is what I am when I run my hand across your Angelic essence.
Mighty Warrior, is what I am when I stand at your side.
Teady Bear, is what I am when you need comforting.
Wings to Fly, is what I am when you need uplifting.
Sonic Boom, is what I am when walls get in your way.
Heaven's Light, is what I am when the Darkness comes clouding around you.
Chilled Breeze, is what I am when you need Refreshing Freedom.
Cosmic Radiance, is what I am when your Love engoulfs me.
Silent Whisper, is what I am Deep in your Soul.
Invisible, is what I would be without you.
Inspirational Love, is what You are in all that I am.
Everything, is what I am when I give myself to you.
Eternity, is what We have when holding eachothers Hearts.
All This and More, comes from that place above words.
Heaven, is the place Time stood still so that I may gather those treasures in a way for you to Embrace.
All that I am, and All that you are,
As two, we swim through the Stars,
As one, the Stars swim among us.
This I know when I breathe in your Essence and our Journey has just started
I give you this to Remaness......................
You still
Hav'nt seen anything yet!
When givin the Chance,
I will Love you Beyond the reaches of Space and Time!
By Jason ... (Valkrean Dragoon)
Timeline
19:41 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 741
With blood in my tears
Crying out after all these years
Day after day, I fight this war with blood in my tears
A battle against all my pain and all my fears
Somedays I curl up to die, others are filled with chears
Pushed and pulled in every direction I fight
I still fight this battle, with no end in sight
I hope and I pray for guidance each night
I hold on with all my strength, I pray with all my might
With blood in my tears, my heart burst into flight
In the vast Universe I feel at home, with Darkness and Light
Reality hits, and its gravity slams me into the ground
Twisted and torn, beaten and bruised, without warning, without a sound
This battle I fight myself, pound for pound
Bodies scattered around, ripped and bleeding aspects of my life
With blood in my tears I sit and cry atop of the mound
In all my sarrows and fears, I begin to drown
With no Hope, with no sight of Promise around
So lost, so scared and alone, my searching with nothing found
Through my blood stained eyes, I try to find my way that is blured
I see a light form in the distance, I welcome it, even though it hurts
An Angel reaches out, takes my hand, it's calming and soothing so I follow her.
I lose my grip, I lost my sight
Through Heaven and Hell I fight
With all I have, with all my might
Day in and day out, throughout each night
I battle on through the Brokeness and Fright
The taste of Hope and Promise lingured in my soul
Driving me, guiding me back to an unknown home
I needed this, the power grew strong, Heaven nor Hell could stop me
Again, so lost, torn with lonesome fear, for Heaven nor Hell were my enemies
I have always been my only enemy, and tonight we shall unite
Tomorrow brings Promise of Hope, It's my time now to Fly..
By Dark Angel, Jason..... 8-28-08
Tortured Thoughts
19:39 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 742
AHH,Another explosion in my brain
All the shit pile is driving me insane
All this loathing,suffering & pain
All this fucking shit remains the same
Still my twisted,destorted mind is to blame
I hate going on in this hell tormented game
My rage quitely racing more powerful than the locomotive train
Loneliness,is it reality or a dream
God Damn,I just want to scream
Just beat me down & rip out my spleen
So,Lost & confiused,Twisted & Torn
I should have never been born
Living this Fucked up life bein scorned
Fuck me,Fuck me,What am I,Who am I
Mother Fuckers bring me up & wont let me Die
I should rip out their hearts,Take a Bite,& spit it in their eye
OHH shit,Im so Fucked up,I cant even cry
Why has my life been One Master Fucked Lie
Daily thoughts,Every hour contaplaiting Suicide
Suicide,AHH,many times tried
Many times succeeded & revived
When shall my sanity return
If this continues every thing shall burn
Then those Fuckers will surely learn
Sometimes these things run through my head & I start to become concerned
Concerned,what the hell is my problem. (conclusion pending)
Jason.....10/9/00
Scrambled Egg
19:38 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 743
Death is drawing near
And,this time I have no fear
But,at this point,what of the ones I dear.
I'm so fucked up,I cant even shed a tear.
I ask myself again,why the fuck am I here
Again death is drawing near.But,what death?
Death of sanity? Death of life? Or,the death,for my rebirth?
Or,am I already dead?
All this cyclones in my head
So many things,that can't be said
Am I needed?....live or dead?
All this goes on in my bed.
And still,no tear can shed
There are so many times I've bled
Maybe,thats why,my powers fled
If this maddness gets the best of me,everything will be Red...Blood Red
AHH Blood,the secret to life,the maker of death
The sweet smell Rolling off my breath
A higher high than any meth
Such confusion in my head
Besides,what is the meaning of dead?
I dont think it even excist.
BY Jason...2/25/96
Mass Confiusion
19:37 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 744
I'm surrounded by death,day by day
Day by day'I'm living death Death,living in me.
The light,makes it hard to see Knowing,any day now,I could flee.
Each day now,seems like an eternity.
As the confusion strikes the mind And your lost,endlessly in space
Wondering were to go,or what to do.
Were to go,keep going on through On through,to the other side.
What to do,thats up to you.
Through my mind,is mass distruction This world is full of disturbing coruption.
Everything,striking the mind at once,couses frustration.
The mind, filled with so much creation,is quite the sensation.
The voice in my head,is giving me,the killing sensation.
The curse in me,leaves my life empty Empty,of love,compassion,
but,filled with.....envious hate.
Envious hate,since I connot fit on this planet.
Cannot fit on this planet,since I'm not the same But,I will have this world
to.....rule again.
BY Jason.......6/5/94
Deminted Dementions PT.1
19:36 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 745
I feel cold & empty
It feels as if,there's nothing in me
I open my eyes,so I can see
I see a reflection,of my face.
My Blood stained eyes
My old,faded flesh.
I feel peacfully at rest.
But,my face,is such a mess.
I hear a noise,sounds like, flies
The sound seems to be clear now,They seem to be cries
Some,cry in pain & sarrow
Some in joy & happiness.
I see the darkness closeing in on me
It's getting harder,for me to see.
I can feel, My body bleed
But, there's so much more that I need.
My last thought, sounds as if it was, greed
Now, I can feel, that I am worm feed.
As I lye here, Under ground, six feet.
I can no longer see
The darkness has taken over me.
I can feel, It's time for me to leave
I feel, myself being lifted in the breeze.
Suddenly, I see a light form around me
And I hear a soft voice speak
I hear it, she sais, There is someone here for you
I take one last look at my reflection.
I raise my hand toward my face filled with discuss
I then, remove it, to find myself, in my room.
BY Jason...5/24/94
Never Ending Love
19:35 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 746
I'd lie for you
I'd die for you
I would pull,all the stars from the sky 1 by 1 for you
I would go to the endless depths of the Universe for you
For you are, The one holding my Never Ending Love
You & I, can fly the heavens,Like 2 glittering dove
That's why you have my Never Ending Love.
I see your face in the sparkling light
Your Golden hair,flickering gracefuly in the wind, is a beutiful sight.
I get lost in your eyes of blue, shining so bright
I would, travel to the ends of the world,just to prove it's right
Put your heart in mine & mine in yours,so we can flutter into flight
I'm your Angel of Night,As you are my Angel of Light
If I was ever to lose you, I would swim every inch of the ocean to find you
To find you, I would travel the deep firey depths of hell
To find you, I would travel every inch of the land
To find you, I would fly every spec of the sky
To find you, If I could not, then I will surely wilt & die
Then my search,will continue on the other side
From the Deepest depths below, to the highest far above
I would never stop searching for the one who holds,
My Never Ending Love
*Inspired by an Angel in my Dreams*
By Jason....10/20/98
Earth Bound Heart
19:34 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 747
I will always love you
No Matter how far away
No Matter how many years pass
No Matter what situation arises
I will always Love you
Even if Life seems to be Hell
Or even if I'm put into a spell
You will still be the one, I will always love
I may be down, but, I always Rise
Always have, Always will
Undercover is where I am
But, Undercover is my best work
My Work, for HIM
Even in My Darkest life, I still did His good work
So, don't worry about me
You will always be in my Prayers
You will always be in my Thoughts
You will always be in my Heart
You will always be in the air I Breath
You will always Dance with Fire in my Soul
To you, I will always be True
My life may take me in different directions
But, where ever I end up theres always God
I've always had God, and I thank all who have Shared thier Love with me
I will always Love you, For an Eternity ..........
Angel with Broken Wings/Jason '07
Life Unraveled
19:32 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 748
I Walked This World ever so alone
Content with my Path as it was Layed out
I have Longed for Life
I Have Longed for Love
I have Dreamed the Dream of True Love
To Be inlove, With that one
This World I Walked Alone in Search
In Search of, That One
In my Walk, Beaten, Burned, and Bruised
In That walk, never to be seen
As I walked I Gave up that Dream
Just at the Thought of what Ive seen, I Scream
I Became Content in my Life, Finally after all this time
After all this Time, Happy and Alone but not Alone.
That Dream I Gave up came Back to me
When an Angel walked into my Life
Walked into My Soul with a Fire that lit my Heart
Though So far away, We are never apart
Alone I sit here, but not Alone
My Heart Pounds Tight
The tears Blur my Sight
This Angel in my Mind Day and Night
I Gave her All I hade without a Fight
I Pray for healing, I Pray for Guidance
I Pray for this Angel, with all my Might
I Pray for myself, so that I May Sleep tonight
I Feel this Angel alive within me
Though I cant see her I still look Deep into her eyes
I am Captivated, and drawn in more with each Breath
My Heart Swells Tight, the tears again Blur my sight
This Angel I must set Free tonight
I try, but something inside puts up a Fight
What is to become of this, I Lack the insight
This Battle I Fight is not one from Hell
This Angel From Heaven, in wich from she fell
I Know not what to do, but Only Time will Tell
........... By Angel with Broken Wings /Jason
Quotes19:29 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 751
When the World kicks you down, Kick it right back and score a Goal!! I will not go Silently, but with a Bang that will Ring Eternally!!
The Mind is a Battlefield and I will go all Ninja up in there!! AiiiiYaaa!! OOoooWahaha!!
When life plays a joke on you, Make life a joke, Take the lemons smash em up, mix em in Vodka and Make a Party of Laughs till ya Pee ya Pants!!
Beware of the Things in the Shadows, You just may see Theres Beauty in Darkness..... you just Have to Open your Eyes to see it.....
The Lion has Roared, A Warrior Awakens Within my Heart, RAWWRRRR!! The Reighn from Above,Fierce Gentle Love!!
Torn and Twisted, Lost and Confused, Trailing on a Path of Pain stumbling to the Gates of Eternal Love...
Life is Like a Box of Chocolates, even if you poke them full of holes you still don't know what ya gunna get, but with God in charge you just know its gunna be awesome! ;)
True Beauty is not Perceived by the eye but by the Heart!
If we are in control of our own Destiny, then why is it that our Options seem to be in the Hands of Others?
They say to keep your Friends close but to keep your Enemies closer, I am the only Enemy I have!
I seem to be Destined to walk this world alone, I'm not Alone, but alone I walk..... For my Wings are Broken!
Dying a Brutal Death is less Painful than this World and is done with more Kindness!
Live Each Moment as if you Meant to, Cherish Each Moment as if its your Last, Life can go by So Fast, and before you know it, you missed Moments that you didn't realize till it was gone, No matter what you do you cant get them back, the chance is gone, so if you Live Life to its Fullest in Each Moment,Then Each Day you Live is a Life time and Just One Moment can Last for an Eternity.
Walk by Faith not by Sight and when the Truth is Revealed your Sight lines up with the Heart Removing the Illusions that we think are Reality...
How funny it is that we are all just another aspect of our selves, going around talking to ourself and they say that I'm the one that's Crazy...
*Quotes by* ~J-son S.~
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. - Carl Jung
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