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Road of the Mradu (Warrior)

12:20 Oct 31 2010
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Road of the Warrior (Mradu)





Guardians, protectors, sources of energy and keepers of the traditions, Mradu are physically and spiritually tough. See the entry in the Vampyre Codex by Michelle Belanger. Any Mradu must rest from duty if ordered to do so by an elder or the Lord of the house.

Path of the Guardian

Guardians are bodyguards, protectors of allies and healers and keepers of sacred places. They are responsible for keeping the peace and keeping Artifacts and holy places sacred and undefiled. Guardians are expected to be calm, level headed and impervious to insult, yet ready to defend others physically or astrally if required. Guardians should NEVER initiate combat under any circumstances, and should always try to peacefully diffuse tense situations. That said, all Guardians must be in some type of ongoing martial art or other self-defense training. Guardians must be bound by the dictates of personal honor and uphold the Black Veil / Covenant of the house and Community. Guardians are traditionally linked to a location, person or Temple and usually only offer their services in that direction. A Guardian may choose to move from one person or place to another where they feel they are more needed or more comfortable.

1. Path of the Avenger

All of the above holds true for avengers and more besides. Avengers actively investigate tales of wrongdoings and rending of the Veil. All avengers should be trained in self defense and investigation. Avengers also answer challenges to the House. If an Avenger uncovers solid evidence of a serious crime committed by a House or Community member, it is their duty first to notify the house and Council of their findings, then the offender(s) is brought before the Council to give their account which is recorded, at which time the Avenger must provide tangible evidence and convince the Council that the offender is guilty. The Council decides whether the situation should be brought to a vote before the house/Council, and any emergency decisions are made by the Council present until a full meeting is called.. In the case of illegal activity, the evidence and name of the offender is anonymously submitted to the local law enforcement officials. All Avengers must maintain a trustworthy police contact just in case of such an event.

2. Path of the Wolfwalker

These are practitioners of astral shapeshifitng and deeply attuned to nature. Their protectorate or territory is a predominantly wooded area (such as a park), and they are responsible for keeping it clean and keeping an eye on mundane activities within. Wolf walkers try to develop the instinctive link between themselves and certain animals and do research in that direction. They are often practitioners of shamanism, Wicca, druidism or other earth-centered religions. Wolf walkers are expected to aid local environmental groups if possible and keep up with such issues in their community. Wolf walkers are often solitary wanderers and welcome in any Temple or Haven allied with our House.

3. Path of the Death speaker

These are warriors of the spirit and astral realm. They investigate cases of haunted or possessed places and specialize in dealing with the spirits of the dead. Death speakers are expected to study parapsychology as a science and spiritual path and be equipped both physically and intellectually to investigate using both approaches at once. Death speakers should be historians, able to unearth the history of a location of a place or individual. They also maintain a database of historical vampyric encounters and people for use by Aspirants. Death speakers are expected to be accomplished magicians of their chosen tradition.



To be a Mradu one must have uncomprising Honor, dignity, and integrity when it comes to upholding and enforing the laws, codes of conduct and traditions of the community.



I have heard many say they are true but have seen few whom are!

That is sad and that is the problem with our community!



The Vow I made is that I will not be one of them!

I will live and die by the laws of this community and protect it from thoes that will harm it!


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I think I need to speak to my councilor

10:44 Oct 31 2010
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I am feeling off again, getting to strong to fight it. trying not to let it all get to me but keeping it inside is becoming to much.


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I will never forget today and what doing my job cost me!

12:43 Oct 29 2010
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Today I had to say good bye to my sister and best friend Mat.

My sister sided with a pedoile over force upholding the law.

Mat is going to marry my sister so he did what she wanted. I feel dead inside. WHY COULD YOU NOT JUST STAY THE FUCK AWAY CHRIS WHY?

You have caused so much pain in this family, House and Community.



I will DO MY JOB, I WILL UPHOLD THE LAW!

There is no turning back now.

You have made your choice now I have to Enforce the law.



with pain in my heart and tears in my eyes, I declear you both EXILES from this day forth!



NOW CHRIS I DO HATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU HAVE MADE ME DO!


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What being a lord means to me?

12:13 Oct 27 2010
Times Read: 770


Let me start off by saying I am not in this for money or personal gain.

I am a Vampyre that lives to learn and help the community grow.

I am Not here get rich, get the girls or hurt any body.

I had a prospect ask me to to come up to N.Y., I told her I didn't have the money for the trip at the time.

She said but you are the lord of one of the largest houses in the world, why don't you have money?

Well I said to her, Unlike others who shall go un-named. I did not open a house for fame or money, but to reach out to others of the blood.

Many of us feel lost and alone because of what we are and it is those lost people that I reach out to, to help them understand that they are NOT alone and that it is okay to be what we are.

I too was once lost and felt alone, and then came Father Vincent and Lady Sage of Clan Sabertooth.

They helped me find myself and showed me that it is okay to be what we are as long as we have honor,dignity,integrity, and love for the community.

All that I do is to give back for the gift they have given me.



I am poor I know this. Do I want more? Who doesn't?

Money does not make a Lord a good Lord or who and what he is.

Love for his people,and his Community, doing the right thing for the community even when it seems he will lose everything.

Being a Lord is a gift from the community, because of all you do for it.

I was not some geek who one day said oh Vampires are cool they get laid all the time, and decided thats what I will be, NO I never played an RPG so get that shit out of your head I hate them.

Now I am not kncoking you if you play them, I am just saying they are not my thing!

I am a Lord because I was given that title by my Sires, when I became an Elder.

Make no mistake, I have earned my place among the Elders in the Vampyric commuinty.



I am the founder of the House of Noctem Aeternus, A true REAL Vampyric house here in Septem Civis (VA) and Co-Founder of the Halo of Septem Civis.

I sit 3rd Chair on the council here, my job is Keeper of the Veil ( the one who enforces the laws.

A lot of people say who are we to do so? Well lol We are a community of Vampyres that are sick of people saying and doing things to harm our community and as a community we got together and said enough, we have to find a way to keep our people safe from those that will do us harm.



I have seen and heard many members of the community say things like look at how things have fallen apart because people do what ever they want and no one says anything to them, No one teachs them right from wrong. Well here we do!



Is it easy? HELL FUCKING NO!

I have seen people enforce our laws, but yet when some one they care about breaks one they over look it or turn a blind eye, and when they are called on it flip out on you!

I have been told that I don't care, you don't know how wrong you are!

I am told that sometimes there is gray, not just black and white!

Wrong! I do not care why you broke the law only that you did.

The laws are here to keep our community safe.

We have enough problems from the mundane community thinking we are all sick, satan worshiping freaks.

I have lost many people and loved ones doing my job!

IT HURTS LIKE HELL!

But I do it for the betterment of our grate community!



As an Elder it is my job to protect and teach our community!

I love our people and our community.

I have been hit with rocks, spit on, lost jobs and even lost a child in a court joint custody battle because I am Vampyric and will not hide it. I am proud of whom and what I am!

Do you not all want a community where you can be safe in and be your self?

Where you can grow and learn?

I do and that is why I do what I do.

Not for some title!



Titles are not levels of spiritual ascension, they are positions of duty within the Family and Community and require the completion of specific rites of passage and initiation into specific choirs.



The Council the administrative and governing body of the Community. There are traditionally five seats appointed by the Community. Those who sit on the council are known as Azra.

They have earned their place do to the time in the community and deeds for the community!



This is not what I chose to be! But it is who and what I am!









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From a friend who told me to go to a site and look at the art work but read what it says. Thank you.

23:36 Oct 22 2010
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Don't drown your sorrows to the point of suicide.

Release the pain by talking with someone.

Release your pain by listening/singing to music.

Release your pain by writing it down.

Release your pain by creativity.

No matter how you release the pain, never release it to where it is harming yourself in any physical way.



Dedicated to all who are hurting in this world.

Dedicated to all who feels pain at this moment.

Dedicated to all who just needs some comfort in their life.

Dedicated to all that need love right now.

Most and final, dedicated to ALL for when they are hurting, hurting in any way!!


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for our military

01:58 Oct 22 2010
Times Read: 824


A U.S. military member is somewhere in the world tonight missing their family while you are safe at home. In the minute it takes you to read this, military members all over the world are not only saving lives, but they are also sacrificing their own life for your freedom. It's Military Appreciation week. Re-post if you... are in the military, love a military member, or appreciate our troops.


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wow

22:25 Oct 21 2010
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lies just keep coming out. well so now I truely see who was real and who was just pretending.



anything else going to come to light?


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I need to grow up?

19:08 Oct 19 2010
Times Read: 881


what I find odd in that statement is that I am the one who thinks of others over my self, I am the one who can stay true to my word, and I am the one who needs to grow up?

No an adult knows right from wrong...

an adult keeps their word, upholds their vows, an adult thinks and does not just act! well most of them do any way. lol.

Now on the other hand, A child thinks only of ones self, a child is still learning right from worng, a child is still learning the meaning of honor and keeping ones word!

A child is still learning to think before they Act!



A child needs to learn how to respect it's elders and hear what they are saying and why they are saying it!

An adult that is trying to protect the child from harm even when the child can't see it comming!

Why because it is a child!



That is why YOU NEED TO GROW UP CHILD!

So before you speak know what it is you speak about!


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For Lady Night and Nokomis, this is what you need to learn and understand my sister and childe because you know not the meaning of these words, here I give you them.

17:08 Oct 18 2010
Times Read: 925


This is what you lack







Courage, bravery, fortitude, will, and intrepidity, is the ability to confront fear, pain, risk/danger, uncertainty, or intimidation. "Physical courage" is courage in the face of physical pain, hardship, death, or threat of death, while "moral courage" is the ability to act rightly in the face of popular opposition, shame, scandal, or discouragement.





Honour or honor (from the Latin word honor, honoris) is the evaluation of a person's trustworthiness and social status based on that individual's espousals and actions. Honour is deemed exactly what determines a person's character: whether or not the person reflects honesty, respect, integrity, or fairness. Accordingly, individuals are assigned worth and stature based on the harmony of their actions, code of honour, and that of the society at large. Honour can be analysed as a relativistic concept, i.e., conflicts between individuals and even cultures arising as a consequence of material circumstance and ambition, rather than fundamental differences in principle. Alternatively, it can be viewed as nativist — that honour is as real to the human condition as love, and likewise derives from the formative personal bonds that establish one's personal dignity and character.



Integrity is a concept of consistency of actions, values, methods, measures, principles, expectations and outcomes. In western ethics, integrity is regarded as the quality of having an intuitive sense of honesty and truthfulness in regard to the motivations for one's actions.[citation needed] Integrity can be regarded as the opposite of hypocrisy,[1] in that it regards internal consistency as a virtue, and suggests that parties holding apparently conflicting values should account for the discrepancy or alter their beliefs.



The word "integrity" stems from the Latin adjective integer (whole, complete).[2] In this context, integrity is the inner sense of "wholeness" deriving from qualities such as honesty and consistency of character. As such, one may judge that others "have integrity" to the extent that one judges whether they behave according to the values, beliefs and principles they claim to hold.



But this is who you are





Hypocrisy is the act of pretending to have beliefs, opinions, virtues, feelings, qualities, or standards that one does not actually have. Hypocrisy involves the deception of others and is thus a kind of lie.



Hypocrisy is not simply failing to practice those virtues that one preaches.





and because of that, this is whom you are to us,



Sin Nombre!

Enjoy your exile!


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Honor, dignity, and integrity are what I try to instill in the members of Noctem Aeternus.

04:54 Oct 16 2010
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I am told by many that I am uncomprising when it comes to upholding and enforing the laws, codes of conduct and traditions of Noctem Aeternus and the community.



I have seen this community fall because of to many elders letting things slide, or turning a blind eye to people who break our ways in other Halos.

I hear many complain about how the community is today over how it once was.



This is what I have to say to that, if all you do is walk away and say I am sick of the ways things are, they will only become worse.



We in Septem Civis understand this and we all work together, to prevent it from happening here.



I feel that if you love your community, you do what ever it takes to protect it from those whom will break the laws.

If you take Vows to uphold something it is because you your self feel it in your heart.

You believe in what you are making the vow about.



So please tell me why, people only honor their vows when it suits there needs.



I have seen this friends make vows to protect the comunity from harm, yet when one does something that not only endangers the family but the community as well they over look it.

then when you point it out you are the bad guy.



I am here to tell you, like it or not, love me or hate me.

The Laws in this Halo will not be broken by anyone.

If they are you will be delt with.

now I know some of you will say you can not force any one to fallow your rules, thats where your wrong!

Here in this Halo we as a community got together and decided what the laws will be and how to go about enforing them and believe it or not we all live in peace here because it is working and has been for quite some time.



why is it so hard to respect when one has fucked up who says they love and will do anything to keep you and your family safe, and they break and spiton all that you stand for, they should be sin nomae!

especially when it is your job as an elder and you vowed to uphold the laws?



Yet you complain about the community falling apart because no one has any Honor, Dignity or Integrity.



how do you expect the ones comming into our community to act, if us as leaders do not uphold the laws.



Lead by example!



please share your thoughts with me on this.


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Vampyric soldier

13:21 Oct 13 2010
Times Read: 1,046


To Noctem Aeternus..





Brick by Brick, heart to heart,

left right left, you tear them out,

nothing left.

We all fall down...



Brick by Brick,

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win

But the battle wages on for this Vampyric soldier



I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure

Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders

I am never supposed to show it, my house ain't supposed to know it

Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter

I'd never drag them in battles that I can't handle unless

I absolutely have to

I'm supposed to set an example

I need to be the leader, this family looks for me to guide 'em

If some shit ever just pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em

Now the Skidd shit I tried to move past, but you wanted to be with an exile, it was too late to stop it

There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it



Brick by Brick, heart to heart,

left right left, you tear them out,

nothing left.

We all fall down...



Brick by Brick,

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win

But the battle wages on for this Vampyric soldier



I heard he said I would get mad but you both did it any ways and I just lost it, tell me is he worth the cost.

It was crazy, this shit went way beyond some you keeping your word and up holding the law shit

And even though the battle was lost, I feel like we won it. because now we know who is real.

I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted

And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it

This ain't what I'm a Lord for, it's not why I opened a house to do.

That was never my objective for my childe to break our laws, and just let it go

Why would I wanna destroy something we helped make?



Brick by Brick, heart to heart,

left right left, you tear them out,

nothing left.

We all fall down...



Brick by Brick,

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win

But the battle wages on for this Vampyric soldier



It wasn't my intentions, my intentions was good

I went through my whole career without ever breaking a law.

Now it's just out of respect I'm not runnin' my mouth

And your all talkin' about something that you know nothing about

Plus my father told me you know what to do, uphold the law, never back down.



Brick by Brick, heart to heart,

left right left, you tear them out,

nothing left.

We all fall down...



Brick by Brick,

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win

But the battle wages on for this Vampyric soldier



There used to be a time when i could just say a word

And wouldn't have to worry about one of you people lyin'

But now it's elevated cuz once you put someone's kids in it

The shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more is it?

It's a different ball game, callin' names and you ain't got the heart to back up

We actually tried to stop the beef from happenin'

Nyx said she'd have sit with him, kicked it and had a chat with him

I layed back from enforcing the law,

because I thought she had him.

So I did as I was told, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth

While your all over down talkin' about a man who literally saved your life, fuck it, i understand this is business

And I should have known you have no honor

But still knowin' this shit could pop off at any minute you went ahead and did it anyway

Until he started trippin and yappin' to my childe tryin to get with her

Fuck it smash 'em, mash 'em and let him have it,

because no exile will be with my childe



Brick by Brick, heart to heart,

left right left, you tear them out,

nothing left.

We all fall down...



Brick by Brick,

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win

But the battle wages on for this Vampyric soldier



Meanwhile my attention is pullin' in other directions

Problems at home, can't keep my head on tight

Now this bitch I sired is talking big shit like she is a gangsta thats not right

But now she's fucked the game up cuz one of the ways I came up

Was through that halo, the same one that made me famous

Now my sister has got a grudge against me for nothin'

Well fuck it, that motherfucker can get exiled too, fuck her then, I tried to give her the choice to do the right thing

But I'm so busy being pissed off I don't stop to think

That we just inherited this beef with eachother.

And she's inherited mine which is fine ain't like either of us mind

We still have soldiers that's on the front line

That's willing to die for us as soon as we give the orders

Never to extort us, strictly to show they support us

We'll maybe shout 'em out and give thanks to em

To show them we love 'em back and let 'em know how important it is

To have Vampyric Soldiers up in our corners

Their loyalty to us is worth more than any award is

But I ain't tryna have none of my people hurt and murdered

It ain't worth it I can't think of a perfecter way to word it

Then to just say that I love ya'll too much to see the community fall here's the virdict

I can't walk away from it all, I can't let law breakers like him go any further

But don't get it twisted, my love for you wont make me turn a blind eye to you break the law and I have to come for you.

it's not a plea that I'm coppin'

I'm just willin' to be the bigger man

by upholdin the law even if I lose your love.

ya'll need to quit poppin' off at your jaws like yall gangsta,

Cuz frankly I'm sick of talkin'

I'm not gonna let exile break this community,

he already tore our unity.



Brick by Brick, heart to heart,

left right left, you tear them out,

nothing left.

The walls fall down..



We all fall down...



Brick by Brick,

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win

But the battle wages on for this Vampyric soldier


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this hell of mine

23:49 Oct 08 2010
Times Read: 1,171




It seems

with each step I take

I sink deeper and deeper into my darkness



days feel unending

time seemingly stopped





each day

each night

the pain.. the pain just grows deeper.



No escape

No solution

I question the very purpose of my existence



with no one to worry about me

with no one to call my own

from one hell into another

I find it hard to drag myself everyday to live

in the hope of escaping from it all

you might think i am a probelamatic

you might think i am one “weak” creature

fact is I want to be happy



be happy like you



but unlike you

my hands are tied

I am stuck inside this prison

my wings clipped

my feet chained to this rock

I cannot fly away

I cannot run away



away from this pain



stuck here in this cage of mine

I am my own punchingbag



I am stuck in hell

I wait for my queen to rescue me

I wait for my guardian angel to save me

I wait and wait....

I wait for someone whos not comming

my tears

my pain

my cries

are all invain



with no strength left

seemingly destined to live a life like this

I curse myself

I blame myself

for the life that is supposed to be



with no desire to live

in this hell that is my home

I am lost in a maze

I can't find my way



I squeeze every ounce of strength

that I have

lift my hands held high

Waiting for that praised day of death to call.



the life that I dreamt of

is just a dream

the life that I wished to have

is just a wish

the life that is mine

is a living hell



The life that I wanted to live.

now destined to be fulfilled

only after death

life is, afterall, a dream

from which death awakens us





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tried to do it, but I am still here

05:15 Oct 05 2010
Times Read: 1,287


this morning as they left I downed over 400 pain pills, closed my eyes thinking I would not wake on this plane again. she came home after work and came in the room to wake me and I woke up! I started to cry because I am such a failure I couldn't even do this right.

what a joke I must be to death...

I will wait for them to leave for work again and try the hangmans rope... if all goes well I will be back with my family soon!


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