still no word from the ghost.
I hope and pray she be ok...What get's me is that I don't understand why I can't stop thing of her....What power does she have over me. Why can I not stop thinking of her ,Is it her eyes that haunt me , or her words to me why can I not get her out of my mind....In her eyes I see forever.
I sit thinking...No dreaming of her in my arms..
Then I wake to find nothing then the pain yet agin is there...................
Today she was not on I hope she is ok....
you know I wish I chould turn back time, to before the bull...Not a day go's by that I don't wonder how it chould have ben..Just to hold her in my arms hear her voice.
Man that would just ...................
But I fucked up I think.
Funny thing is she thinks I dislike her, She chould never be more wrong...I am just doing what she asked me to do....
M'Lady were ever you are know that you are still in my head , heart and dreams....Darkness keep you...Good bye My Love................
how do I let someone go who I came to have feelings for. Do I just keep walking or do I stop and look back..I mean every time I start to walk I hear her voice , It makes it so hard to keep on moving I mean WHAT THE FUCK how can she have me so inlove with her when I never met her in peson. How the fuck is that I can feel like this, Me! I don't understand this... What the fuck...I want her so bad but I am so afraid of what she can do to me.......Mother night hold me tight and save me from the light....Please I just don't know....
Maybe I was a game, Maybe it was a lie..That she really never wanted to try.
one thing I know for sure is that Mother night wants it this way.and the dark Gods and Goddesses have something instore for there dark son....Honor is all I have.....
No....I have my dark family and the good thing is that they are not online , But real here in life My house is real and we are here for one another..
So yes I do have many dark blessings..I am happy that I met some on here that are honorable Like nic man I love her she is so funny and makes me smile when I am feeling low....and Bella so is out there lol thats my stress remover talking to her is the best kind of meds. and many more on here. they are cool...Thank you for being so kind and taking time out to talk to this lost dark soul....
I will sit Alone...None to sit at my side nor do I wish a mate any more , I came in this world alone and will go out alone!
All that happend here in the past two weeks I deleted I will talk to those who are in my house and those who have honor and respect ..
she won..................................
Where does love go when you're not in love?
How does it feel when nobody want's it.
Tell me does it float around
Like a little lost cloud?
When a heart is not its home.
What does love do, when it's not being used?
Feeling like you just don't get enough home.
Is it laying awake in the middle of the night,
Thinking about what went wrong?
Cause when I look in your eyes it's just not there
And when I hunger for affection
The cupboard is bare.
I don't know why I keep hangin' on
When love's got the message,
Then it's already gone.
Now I've always said that love
was nothing more than a waste of my time,
I've always thought I'd be above these feelings
Always seem to mess with my mind
I said you'd never catch me in the corner of my room
gazing at a picture of you
and now that all don't mean nothin' cuz everytime I
think about thinkin' girl,
I'm thinkin' of you,
And forever, for the rest of my life
through it all girl
I'll be right by your side
I'll give my heart baby
I'll give you my mind
I'll be the one that brings the joy to your life
and if you're willing girl
just give me the chance
and I promise I will be a good man
and forever, for the rest of my life
I'll be right by your side
And now the love you give to me
is sweeter than the sprinkles
on the top on mama's apple pie
I know you know I'm in love
when you're staring at the sparkle
that appears in the corner of my eye
you don't have to worry 'bout it
no, the things that I said before
because I'm so in love
and there ain't nothin' gonna stop it now
I'd bet it on the moon and the stars in the sky above
I'll be the one that brings the joy to your life
and if you're willing girl
just give me the chance
and I promise I will be a good man
and forever, for the rest of my life
I'll be right by your side
I never thought that it could happen to me
that I could fall in love
I can't beieve it baby
but I can see that you're,
you are the only one I'm thinkin' of
it doesn't matter baby
I don't really care no more
as long as we're together
baby I'll be right there
I won't go nowhere
I want your love forever
My life is like a dark night hiding from the sun,
My life is like the moon, continuosly dim and going in circles, only coming out when needed,
My body is like a drop of blood, interesting and tasty too those who care,
Moving, and creeping through the night,
My heart is like a bomb, goes off when found love, my life is about love, my mind throbs for someone to coress my neck with their fangs
The Prophecy
In many societies there are prophecies foretelling the time of the last great battle of good against evil. The Vampyres have such a legend as well, here are a few of the Prophecies which foretell a time of ending, which begins this, the last war of good against evil, to take place in the modern-day world of the viral vampyre.
And now here are only a few of the prophecies that foretell this time of ending and beginning. The words are taken from Paladin as said to her by Azrael and also taken from other verbal Vampyric Sources.
And there grows near the foretold time.
A time when the truth breaks forth, like a chicken from its shell, at the moment of birth, into the world. The truth is upon the wind and the wind become a gale.
Once set free, the truth travels and releases the knowledge. And there shall be those on both sides who do not wish the truth known. And yet shall it become known to all.
On that day, shall human turn against human, vampyre against his own kind and brother shall slay brother and friend shall kill his friend ... in the name of truth.
Then he shall have been the first, but his truth shall go unheeded, and the children shall betray him.
One of his own shall bring forth the tempest.
And the child shall lead and so shall he become the first and be the last.
In the end, there shall be only two kinds of humans: those who believe and understand, and those who fear.
The truth is upon the wind, and the wind becomes a gale, and shall blow across the land to devastate all within its path.
The wind shall blow ill. And so doth the time of ending become a plague upon all the land.
The messenger rides forth alone.
The wall of stone is false and 'tis but made of clay which shattered as the balance is shattered.
They who speak this truth are the first to die.
The Messenger carries forth the divine truth unto the masses.
The death is accomplished by the hand of evil which is mistaken for the Sword of Right.
But though the lips are silent, the heart screams and the words rise as the Phoenix to herald the end of the beginning.
As the storm grows more ponderous, THEY shall hear the wind song.
And what was fantastic will be reality, and reality shall be proven.
He who is the first, he who is the last, shall know the truth.
And as they do, so shall all, and the tempest subsides leaving only the destruction, a memory ... the voices an echo, and the truth evident.
And Brother kills his Brother, and Friend lies to Friend. and loves are lost as friendships die and the wind blows cold.
The Silent Battle rages, the Balance is no more, and yet doth the end come slowly ... with promise of renewed Light.
As with humans there is, and has been for centuries, a foretelling of a Time Of Ending; a time of a great and awful war which would put an end to things as we know them. A war that would tear families apart, that would turn friend against friend and bring destruction, devastation, and death in its wake.
This was/is not exactly religious in nature, but there are parallels. And, as with the Second Coming and the Armageddon, this Ending Time has its own legends and prophecies.
These legends are known mostly only to the vampyres and those close to them. But the rumors of such a time have endured for centuries, told by word of mouth from one to the other.
There are several groups of vampyres, and those who have an interest in them, who have very similar prophecies. A word or two different, a piece of information missing or added to the puzzle.
But they all agree the battle, as with humanity and Christians, will be a battle of great good over great evil. A fight on a planetary scale to include both humans and vampyres.
No more secret, no more underground; no longer limited to just the vampyric communities. But most public and encompassing all mankind and all vampyre kind.
The battle is to be for balance, protection and survival.
In today's world, there are many different vampyre groups and communities; they all belong to a loosely associated organization. An alliance of sorts, which basically keeps the peace. The alliance members are world wide; they abide by an ancient treaty, a treaty with many sections governing such things as conduct, relationships with humans, territorial ties and disputes, political and environmental issues. Laws and rules by which all are governed.
This treaty is ratified and added to, ever so often in large meetings held in Europe, Asia and the Orient, and yes, here in America as well. Those who run the world and govern themselves and others have their own political structure and substructure.
You could compare it to a senate made up of many different councils, committees and other formations which unified the members. All going their separate ways and breaking off into smaller groups. To help understand the treaty concept, think of the alliance and treaty as a whole country, such as the United States, and think of the councils as the individual states, all unified for a common good. Unified to form a uniform policing force and laws that govern and benefit all.
Now think of each member state as an individual, different in modes of conduct. Just as we all are. But in this case, the German, French, American and Asian members all differ within their own location as well ... that way being unified as a member of the treaty, these organizations differ greatly in political beliefs and what they consider to be lawful.
Then, as in America, there is a comparison of the old beliefs, rules and laws, with the new and modern; the natural separation of the very young, the middle aged and the old. But with vampyres, the age differences are greater. But young and old are not restricted to age but the length of time one has been a vampyre, and which kind of vampyre.
In this world, old could mean 800 years and young could mean newly transformed only a day or a week. A Classical vampyre may be a week old, even though the 'actual' age of that newly transformed Classical could be over 50 years old or barely 18 years old. Membership in the treaty originally, and the councils and committees which ran them, is what (in part) had kept the balance.
As with vampyres everywhere, many disagree.
Some feel that humans should be shunned and will have no part in human affairs, others cherish human friendships. Some feel humans are cattle and nothing more. Whereby, there are vampyres who feel humans are going to be the surviving animals and, as such, are responsible for the safety of the planet.
Other vampyres feel THEY are the highest life forms and humans are not necessary and should be gotten rid of by any means possible. Then there are the vampyre rouges, the independents who also adhere to the treaty.
The treaty keeps the balance ... as well as the balance of nature, between man and nature; between man and vampyre, and most important, the balance of good and evil in both the worlds of humans and vampyres.
There is a series of people who govern this treaty ... although the title seems religious, it is not so, not in the same sense as in Judeo-Christian systems ... included in this maze of interlocking different issues is also that of magick ... the old and the ancient, things you have no idea exist ... things of physical and psychic natures ... also dependent on the balance of the cosmos and the universe.
Just as good and evil and life and death are all balance and discipline, so is the treaty dependent on balance ...
For centuries there have been rumor's of this Ending Time. A time when the treaty would be no more ... when the old proven ways would no longer be followed. A time when the balance was disturbed and this would begin before the Christian Armageddon.
It would at first begin with only vampyres but would soon spread to their human associates, then to all mankind. A war unlike any other which would prove the existence of vampyres to the world. There are many truths involved here and a few more important than all the rest.
Vampyres have always been safe because of the myths. As long as the myths were believed, the actual vampyre remains safe and able to function freely amid the disbelief of mankind. They are safe because they are uniformly not believed in by the masses. But the truth about vampyres, by its very definition, will change the balance of nature.
Will humans want the benefits?
The longer life span, the more years of health and strength and beautiful appearance?
Would they feel the real vampyre was a threat due to his strength, psychic abilities, longer work history which permits him to gain greater education and wealth?
Would that be considered a threat?
So many issues, so many reasons for the truth to be hidden?
But a few major reasons for the truth to be told.
The major reason ... Death to humans on a massive scale from ... err ... lets call it natural causes.
If one can consider AIDS a natural cause, that is. Deaths of millions of humans over the next 75 to 100 years. That death would also disturb the balance of nature.
What happens to the planet and the vampyres, if the humans die? Some vampyres feel it is natural selection ... just let it happen. But others feel, 'No, humans must survive. It is necessary to the survival of the planet.
Now, just suppose that the vampyres could insure the humans' survival, but in so doing perhaps end their own existence.
This would cause a rift in the vampyre communities with some saying, 'Let them die. They caused it themselves. We can and will survive and so will the planet ... do nothing. Do not endanger us for them.' But others feel humans can be saved but in so doing they would learn a new truth: that vampyres exist. And once this is proven to them, the vampyres will be at risk as they lose the safety of pure myth.
Humans have always feared what they do not know or understand, and they tend to destroy what they fear. The hatred for vampyres is ingrained due to the myths and lies of religion. So, the struggle between the two factions begins; those who wish to keep the treaty, the balance, intact, those who wish to help humanity survive against those who do not.
Those who feel the time is for change, the new ideas over the old, the young and new over the old ways. A change. Let the stronger vampyres prevail.
What could happen if this actually occurred? If the treaty was disbanded? If the alliance fell apart?
The Civil War that would begin the 'Ending Time.'
Some vampyres feel they could and should control the world governments by themselves instead of in the partnerships they now find themselves with humans counterparts. They do not wish any truth known ... especially that they exist. These factions would be pitted against those who disagree.
At first this war is confined to words, then actions only within the vampyre communities. Later it would spill over into the human friendships, then fully into the human communities.
He, who is venerated for maintaining the Old Ways,
is called the Pope of Balance.
But he is only one of many. He is an ancient; sort of a figurehead, one of the symbols of the treaty and what it stands for: peace, right, balance, life.
He is a man of ancient honor who had taken vows to uphold this balance and more.
He is, and has always been, a target and so too become any who ally with him. His family, his friends, his associates ... just in knowing him they are a part of a struggle not many even realize begins.
In the end it is believed he will die sometime near the end of the war. He accepts this and is resigned to it.
Some of us know our fate and know a truth ... it cannot be altered.
Just as the Christian time was foretold, accomplished and not able to be changed by any of its counterparts, so to is this Civil War predestined. Due to happenings during the past few years, such as the disturbances in California where several vampyre groups began to openly argue about general policy and some even got into public fights ... in late 1997 there was a hectic meeting in Germany where several members of the Inheritor hierarchy walked out of the meeting on ratifying the additions to the treaty. This was followed by a general walkout by the younger Classical's.
A while later, in Paris, a high ranking Inheritor was attacked and badly injured by a young Classical. Also during 1997 a Night-Timer who is responsible for a good quantity of the truth reaching the public was stalked, threatened and had property destroyed by vandals. This act of terrorism and destruction was seen as an attempt to prevent information, such as found in the Vampyric Studies Course on the web site and such as is taught in this class, from being given to the general public.
Due to these and other happenings within the vampyric communities it is believed that the time line toward the Ending Time has begun and forces are now in play leading to the inevitable.
It is important to note that this Ending Time which is the beginning of the Civil War will, in its earliest stages, appear to the human community as human 'gang fights' but in actuality will be severe, ideological and territorial disputes which at first will be confined to the vampyre communities. These disputes, however, will not be secret and will, in these early stages, be played out within a public background.
The War of Balance which is the beginning of the Ending Time.
Battles fought within the past several years, since 1998, have left Classical's in control to a minor degree. As to the balance of Classical's to Inheritors, there was never really one, now there is even less.
Abani:
An honorable term meaning "Of the family of..." For example: "Angel, abani Sahjaza" or "stephen, abani Omallie".
Abbon /Ab' ohn/:
A special given to honorary members of the family who might be either ronin or members of other Houses or Orders. The title of Abbon is useful for related households or Orders to make alliances and show respect for each other and for select individuals not interested in making a formal commitment to join the family.
Adra /Odd-ra/:
A term for a sponsor or mentor who teaches ordeals. The Adra is responsible for teaching their Nadja (apprentice) the traditions of the Strigoii Villi This relationship can be defined as those involved see fit, ranging from a dom/sub, brother/sister sire/childe, etc. or a multitude of other options.
Altar:
Usually a councilor (Kitra) who is trained to initiate a balance of the energy in a ritual.
Autovampirism:
The drinking of one's own blood
Awakening:The physical and mental changes that occur when someone awakens to their latent vampire nature. The awakening typically occurs during or shortly after the onset of puberty, but in some individuals may take years to manifest. Those undergoing the awakening, undergo various mental and physical changes. These changes often include an increased sensitivity to light and particularly to sunlight, a growing affinity for night and darkness, switching from a diurnal to a nocturnal to a diurnal sleeping schedule, and experiencing the first symptoms of the thirst. Many experience acute feelings of isolation and alienation during this process, as their changing nature distances them increasingly from their "normal" family and friends. Many seek out organizations or groups to help understand their desires and newfound feelings. (See also "turning")
Beacon:
A particular feeling or energy signature generated by vampires in general, but latent or potential vampires in particular. The beacon seems to exist to attract other vampires to the potential vampire so that they may instigate the awakening process.
the Beast:
The primal, instinctive, animalistic, bestial nature of a frustrated or desperate vampire, where he or she gets really evil-minded and aggressive and wants to just go berzerk, rip people and things apart for the pure "fun" of it, and feed violently. It's destructive and cold, and if you don't control it, then you will be under its control. This is different from just "vamping out" but that is when it's most likely to manifest.
The Black Veil:
Also known as the "Thirteen Rules of Community". Composed by Michelle Belanger, Father Todd Sebastian and COVICA, this is a set of 13 common-sense guidelines for the Sanguinarium as well as the vampire community. It deals with such things as responsibility, etiquette, feeding practices, the lifestyle, discretion, etc. The Black Veil has undergone several major revisions since its first incarnation in 1997 in attempts to be made more applicable and palatable to the real vampire community and not just the Sanguinarium; in 2003, it was revised once again and cut down to just seven tenets.
Blood-Bars:
Rumored underground vampire havens, which have a members-only and very secretive policy. They are only open to properly initiated (usually through a coven) members of the community, if then. It is said they serve stored blood and/or have willing donors who provide blood over a bar. Certainly if they exist they are only a part a of a local population's Cabal.
Blood Bond:
1.) A strong, sometimes undesired, bond or attraction which can develop in a donor towards the vampire he or she is feeding; this bond can be a mutual thing between both the vampire and his or her donor, but often is felt only by the donor.
2.) A rite, ritual or ceremony marking a commitment to a coven or an individual. It is also a term to reflect a vampiric marriage.
Blood Doll:
Someone who gives blood in hopes of looking cool and/or who may have erotic desires fulfilled by being fed on.
Blood-Drinker:
Anyone who drinks blood, regardless of motivation.
Blood-Fetishist:
Someone who is erotically attracted to the sight, taste or smell of blood; he or she generally has no physical need to consume it, and will usually be happy with small amounts. Blood-fetishism is often accompanied by other sexual fetishes, including sadism and masochism, and the blood is usually taken during sexual or fetish play, as in a bondage or domination situation.
Blood Junkie:
A derogatory term for someone who experiences the physical need to consume blood, a sanguinarian (see also "the Thirst", "sanguinarian"). Particularly refers to one who has no control over his/her thirst and goes around feeding indiscriminately.
Blood Vamp:
A short form of "blood vampire", or sanguinarian.
Bloodletting:
The physical act of cutting or piercing the flesh in order to extract blood. This is commonly used for feeding as well as in blood play and fetishism. (See also "blood play".)
Blood play:
Similar to bloodletting, blood play is the act of using blood in sexual or fetish situations. Blood play can also refer to the integration of blood and bloodletting in ritual. (See also "bloodletting".)
Blood sharing partner:
A more appealing term for a donor. Some donors dislike being called "donors", as they feel it somehow belittles them or their role in their vampires' lives.
Cabal:
The far-underground "shadow" community of sanguinarians in a particular geographic location. Few even believe they exist and Cabals include the Bloodbars and other unknown things. Cabals are very selective as to who even knows who is a member.
Chi:
The Chinese term for life-energy. It is also often referred to as pranic energy or life force. Chi is the bio-electrical energy which runs our bodies on a subtle level. Energy vampires and many psi-vamps believe that they can manipulate chi and feed upon it to sate their hungers. It is believed by some that, to a certain extent, blood vampires also feed upon chi, for a great deal of this subtle energy is believed to be concentrated into the blood. See "psychic energy".
Clinical vampirism:
A psychological condition, such as Renfield's Syndrome, in which the afflicted person experiences a psychological urge to drink blood. This urge is often satisfied with their own blood, and sufferers of clinical vampirism typically bear slashes from razors and knives up and down their arms from where they have drawn blood from themselves. Particularly sociopathic forms of clinical vampirism drive sufferers to attack and sometimes (although rarely) even kill other people in order to drink their blood.
A related condition is known as SMS, or Self-Mutilation Syndrome. This newly named pathology is becoming alarmingly common in American youths. Sufferers of SMS, often known as "cutters", feel the need to cut into their flesh and watch themselves bleed. Some sufferers of SMS also drink the blood drawn out this way, although this is not standard for the disease. Most sufferers of SMS are redirecting feelings of anger, frustration, inadequacy, or emotional pain onto their bodies. (See "Self-Mutilation Syndrome", and "Renfield’s Syndrome".)
Court:
A monthly social event which is much like a "town meeting" for members of the vampiric community in a specific geographic area. Court is usually held once a month at a local tea or coffee house, lounge or haven, and only vampires and those within the community are welcome. This is an opportunity to socialize with others in the community. News and announcements are made, poetry is read, new members, elders, etc., are introduced. Here vampires are generally free to escape mundane society. The host of the court is usually a locally respected Elder who secures a date, time, venue, and promotes the event.
Coming Out (of the Coffin):
He-he...couldn't resist. This means the same thing that it means for Gays (except they come out of the closet...). Involves being open or frank with people about being a vampire, drinking blood, feeding upon energy, etc. Those who have come out in this way do not hide their lifestyle at all, not even in their daily lives. Many people in the vampiric community choose to be "in the coffin" and are not public about their lifestyle outside of the community or scene.
Coven:
Groups of individual vampires or vampyre lifestylers, usually but not always located within a certain geographic area, who have banded together under a specific theme, set of ideals, traditions, common Sigil, havens, membership requirements, hierarchy and/or rites. Covens range in size from as few as three members to as many as hundreds. The organization and purpose of each Coven varies from fraternal (House Sahjaza); religious (Church of the Vampire - not to be confused with the Vampire Church); or familial (Clan of Lilith). Some titles given to leaders of Covens include Elder, High Priest, Patriarch, Matriarch or Coven Master. There are no requirements for forming a Coven other than a group of people getting together, choosing a sigil, name and theme.
COVICA:
The now apparently defunct Council of Elders drawn from many different traditions whose purpose is to help network the community, standardize language and terminology, and encourage cooperation, if not outright unification between the diverse aspects of the Sanguinarium and vampire communities. COVICA stands for Council Of Vampyric International Community Affairs.
Cutters:
See Self-Mutilation Syndrome.
Donor:
Someone who gives or shares their blood or life-energy, without obligation. Many donors prefer to offer themselves to just one vampire, but some donors will offer of themselves to entire covens, provided their offerings are appreciated and not abused. (See also "source", "supplier")
Elder:
A prominent member of the vampiric community who is honored and respected for his or her experience, knowledge, willingness to help others, accomplishments and devotion. Elders are often those individuals who have helped establish a community, organize groups, or help network the community.
Embrace:
A hug. Since turning or awakening someone does not involve any sort of hug, where the vampire wraps his arms around a person, drawing him or her close so he can bite them on the neck to feed or turn them into a vampire, (a la Dracula or Christopher Lee), I am not going to define it as such, -- regardless of the misusage of the word by others. Embrace does not mean turning, but it is an incredibly romantic word for an an event which, in a lot of people's minds, is extremely pseudo sexual and erotic. (See "turned" and "awakened").
Emotional vampire:
See "psychic vampire", sense 2, and especially "psychological vampirism".
Energy signature:
The pattern of energy, vibes, or the feeling that is unique to each individual; a person's psi 'fingerprint' identifiable in real life or astrally and oftentimes left behind long after a person has gone. Vampires supposedly have a particular kind of energy signature, and those who can pick up on this can identify them as vampires. An energy sig is different from a presence, though you can feel the presence of someone's energy, too. (See also "beacon")
Energy vampire:
An individual who has a need to feed upon the lifeforce of others. Most energy vampires feed upon chi or pranic energy and avoid drinking blood. Some intermingle energy vampirism with blood-drinking. Also referred to as psi-vampires, most energy vampires exhibit the same characteristics that distinguish other real vampires, including light sensitivity, a nocturnal lifestyle, and periods of the Hunger or Thirst. (See also "chi", "hunger", "psychic vampire", "real vampire", "thirst")
Excommunicated:
Cast out of a coven or the vampiric community as a whole. (See also "Invisibles", "Sin nomine")
Family:
A term used by many people to describe their coven or their close circle of vampires and friends. Also, a general term for all members of the vampiric community.
Fashion vampyre:
This is not a type of actual vampire. Someone who does not have the vampiric condition, and who just dresses the part. The fashion vamps are only into the aesthetics (fangs, contacts, fashion) and not the philosophy or spirituality of the lifestyle -- think "fashion victim". (See also "wannabe" and "poser")
Feeders:
Another term for sanguinarians which distinguishes them by their need to feed upon blood.
Feeding:
The act of consuming blood (or, in the case of psi or energy vampires, pranic energy) from someone (or an animal). (See also the "Hunger", the "Thirst", and the "Need".)
Feeding circle:
A group of donors, usually from three to seven, who feed a specific vampire or coven of vampires.
Grazing:
This is a type of lifestyle which is looked down upon by the rest of the vampiric community in which a vampire randomly and without discretion feeds upon unscreened donors or sources typically picked up in night clubs and Goth bars.
Haematodipsia:
A strong form of haematophilia.
Haematomania:
A strong psychological craving for blood.
Haematophilia:
An erotic attraction to the taste, sight (or smell) of blood.
Haemosexuality:
See "blood fetishist".
Haven:
A Vampyre nightclub or other gathering place. Considered hallowed ground, the haven serves as the social hub of a given community, providing a place where all the community can gather and socialize. Often, special functions arranged by the vampiric community in an area are held at the local haven.
"Human":
A term used for the purposes of distinguishing those who are not vampires. At best, this term is misleading because it implies that vampires are not human. (See "mundane")
the Hunger:
The desire to feed, also identified as the Thirst or the Need. The Hunger is both a psychological and physical sensation. Physically, it manifests as an intense hunger or thirst -- but is not satisfied by food or drink. Psychologically, a vampire in the throes of the Hunger feels agitated and empowered at the same time. Pulse, heart rate, blood pressure, and sometimes even body temperature, increase in anticipation of the act of feeding. (See also "feeding", the "Thirst", the "Need")
Hunter:
Someone that hunts, stalks, threatens, or does harm (whether it be physical, psychic, psychological, or emotional) to someone because he or she is a vampire, or because the hunter believes them to be so; or which gathers information to report those who are vampires. Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Blade fans are not included in this category; it applies to seriously unbalanced individuals who really are on some sort of holy hate crusade and intend to follow through with violence or action. (See also "slayer")
Hunting:
Actively going out and seeking donors or sources in havens or in public. (Some even go to the mall!) This means bringing them home to feed or to eventually screen them. At one point, this was considered safe, but with the advent of HIV and AIDS, hunting indiscriminately is considered irresponsible and extremely dangerous; there still must be a period of screening time. Vampires who feed irresponsibly are looked down upon; and are sometimes "excommunicated" by their elders for this offense.
Hybrid:
A vampire who is capable of feeding on both blood as well as psi energy. It seems to me that most real vampires are capable of feeding from both, or using blood and psi interchangeably, so is the term "hybrid" really necessary, or accurate?
Immortal:
Term occasionally used to refer to or describe vampires. Though technically, it means incapable of death or dying, it is used much more loosely in reference to vampires, implying that they are not subject to aging, are impervious to disease and injury, etc., and that they are above and superior to "humans" or "mortals". God is immortal; vampires are not. Further, it has not been incontrovertibly proven to me that vampires do indeed experience a capability of an extended lifespan. Check with me in about 20 to 30 years, and I should be able to tell you something more definite about that...
Incubus:
The plural is incubi. A male sexual vampire. See "sexual vampirism". Historically, the term was used to describe a reason for the sexual dreams a person sometimes experiences, and were thought to be caused by a demonic spirit which took the form of a female in order to drain a person of his or her energy and lead the defenseless person into sexual sin while they slept.
Invisibles:
Those members of the community who, having been ostracized and stripped of their name, are treated as if they no longer existed. Invisibles have committed some great crime in the eyes of the community, and for this they are no longer allowed to associate themselves with the rest of vampire culture. See also "excommunicated", and "sin nomine".
Latent vampire:
Someone who is already naturally a vampire, but whose vampiric tendencies have not yet manifested. Apparently, some latent vampires may need to be "turned" or "awakened", while others may have their tendencies "activated" by indeterminate causes. Latent vampires sometimes seem to stand out to other, already established vampires through a phenomenon known as the "Beacon". See also "awakening", "beacon", "turned".
Leech:
1.) A small, bloodsucking worm;
2.) An incredibly rude and derogatory (well, at least disrespectful...) term to call someone who is a vampire.
the Long Night:
The name for the festival celebrated on the Winter Solstice. Occurring in mid-December, this night is the longest night of the year, and many households and covens gather together to celebrate this. It is a festival of community where everyone relaxes and socializes. It is also the traditional night to recognize new members of the community or a coven or to perform rites of passage.
Mentor:
A guide and teacher to a new or inexperienced vampire; the one who helped him or her through the awakening. (See also "sire")
"Mortal":
A term used for the purposes of distinguishing those who are not vampires. This term is, at best, misleading because it implies that vampires are "immortal". (See "mundane")
Mundane:
A term used to distinguish those who are not vampires from those who are. This is, I feel, more accurate that "mortal" or "human", and serves to distinguish those who are merely living normal, mundane lives and unencumbered with the life of a vampire.
the Need:
The need to feed. When experiencing the Hunger, one is said "to be in Need." Very strong feelings of the Hunger are referred to as "deep Need". (See also "feeding", the "hunger", the "thirst")
"of the Blood":
A term sometimes used to refer to someone as being a vampire.
Otherkin:
Someone who identifies with something other than their human side, such as a particular animal, mythological or fantastical being. He or she takes on the astral form of the animal or being when they are in the astral plane. Often, otherkin have physical attributes, mannerisms or thought-patterns identified with their particular being, such as fae having an elfin appearance, or wolfkin having a pack mentality. Types of otherkin include therians (were-beings), fae or faeries, dragons, elves, angelics, and so forth. Some consider vampires to be otherkin, while others do not.
Parasite:
A completely insulting and derogatory term to refer to or call a psi-vamp or emotional vampire, implying that they are thieves and have no honor.
Porphyria:
An acute medical condition which has been postulated by some scholars to have inspired the vampire myths of the past. Sufferers of porphyria have pale, flaky skin and are very sensitive to sunlight. Their gums often recede excessively, giving their teeth an elongated and possibly fang-like appearance. Porphyria is caused by a deficiency in the enzyme which helps produce heme, a constituent of the blood which helps carry oxygen through the body. Dr. David Dolphin was the first to suggest that porphyria was the inspiration for at least some of the Mediaeval vampire myths, contending that some of the sufferers may have been driven to drinking blood in order to relieve their symptoms. As a result, the condition has come to be known in modern times as "the Vampire Disease". This appellation is very misleading, however, as porphyria only superficially resembles the vampirism of folklore and there is no supporting evidence to Dr. Dolphin's assertion that porphyria sufferers have been driven to drinking blood by their disease.
Poser:
Someone pretending or claiming to be a vampire who is not, with the intent of deceiving others, by making false claims as to their powers, abilities, lifespan, etc.
Pranic energy / Prana:
See "chi", "psychic energy".
Primus:
A vampire, almost always an elder, who founded or is the leader of a large family or coven of vampires.
Psi:
A general term for the life-energy which is found within and throughout all living things. Also called prana, chi, pranic energy, psychic energy, etc. The life-force that surrounds and is contained in living things. This is the life-force that energy and psychic vampires feed upon. This energy is also contained in the blood and is believed by some to be an integral part of the transfer which occurs between a donor and a sanguinarian. See also "chi" and "pranic energy".
Psychic attack:
Any type of unwelcome paranormal or ethereal intrusion intended to cause harm or disruption to the recipient. Psychic vampire attacks are considered a form of psychic attack, especially when forced upon an unwilling victim. See also "psychic vampire attack".
Psychic vampire, Psi vampire (psi-vamp, for short):
1.) Someone who "drains" life-energy (prana, chi, life-force, whatever) rather than blood from others. Psi-vampires may or may not consume blood as a means of extracting pranic energy.
Though the two terms refer to the same being, they do so with different meanings in mind. Some insist on calling psychic vampires "psi-vampires", and insist that "psychic vampire" is incorrect, and then proceed to "prove it" by splitting etymological hairs. I disagree. There is a distinction which needs to be made between the two terms. "Psychic vampires" are called such because they feed psychically, as opposed to physically. However, it could be argued that psi is the auric or life-energy where as "psychic" is actually now thought to be shared thought waves from a collective consciousness. So "psi-vampire" refers to what they feed upon, whereas "psychic vampire" refers to how they feed. Not infrequently, psi-vamps may also experience the Thirst in varying degrees of intensity, and in fact, there are many similarities in condition between the psi-vamps and the sanguinarians, with the main difference being, so far as I can see, the psi-vamps' need to drain pranic energy, and ability to do so.
2.) A psychic vampire, in psychiatric terms, is someone who drains emotional energy without giving anything back, and can make the other person very tired, depressed, emotionally unbalanced, or worse, if too much is drained; an emotional vampire. Katharine Ramsland discusses this in depth in her book, Piercing the Darkness, (Harper Prism, 1998), pp. 190-196, referred to as "covert vampire". See also "psychological vampirism".
Psychic vampire attack:
An uninvited and unwelcome draining of one's vital energy, or chi or pranic energy. A psychic vampire attack occurs when a psi-vampire targets someone and feeds or attempts to feed. This can be done from casual contact, from across a room, or even through dreams. These attacks are not always just for draining; they can also be an attack on the mind itself, causing the target to hear, see, and feel things. Attacks of this nature can range from mild to very severe, sometimes leaving the victim despondent or even physically sick from being drained so. It's debated whether one can become a psychic vampire from repeated severe psi-vampire attacks. In general, though, this seems only to produce a condition known as sympathetic vampirism. (See also "sympathetic vampirism".)
Psychological vampirism:
These individuals often have a histrionic or narcissistic personality disorder and they are constantly drawing attention to themselves. They usually create dramatic situations and then demand emotional support from those around them. These individuals are emotional vampires. There is nothing metaphysical or spiritual in their condition, it is a simple psychological disorder. Yet it leaves the victims of these clingy, whiny people emotionally and mentally drained after dealing with them. These individuals are not to be confused with psychic, psi or energy vampires. (See also "psychic vampire", sense 2.)
Puppy:
A somewhat derogatory term for one who has developed an undue fascination, obsession or bond with a vampire and follows him or her around, trying to gain the vampire's attention or approval, and fawning over him or her, in a manner not unlike a puppy dog follows his or her master around. (See also "blood bond".)
Real vampire / Real vamp:
Someone who has a condition which includes but is not limited to a physical thirst or driving need for blood (which is non-erotic in nature; and in more significant quantity than is generally required or desired by other blood-drinkers, such as blood fetishists) or psi energy; increased physical and/or psychic sensitivities; sensitivity to light or sunlight and a nocturnal circadian rhythm; amplification and/or alteration of emotional states and feelings, etc.; and perhaps the (unsubstantiated*) potential for an indefinitely extended lifespan (which is not to be confused with "immortality"), although many vampires do maintain a youthful twenty-something look well into their thirties or even forties. It does NOT include the abilities to change shape, fly, command others' wills, heal instantaneously, accomplish superhuman feats of strength or speed, etc.
*Some vampires believe the condition does include the potential for an indefinitely long lifespan, but this belief has not been incontrovertibly proven, to the best of my knowledge.
Rogue:
1.) A vampire or blood-drinker's former donor or source who parts company on hostile terms and causes trouble;
2.) A vampire who can't handle things and becomes violent and/or irresponsible, posing a danger and threat to both him or herself and others.
Renfield's Syndrome:
"Some attention has been given to a condition named 'Renfield's Syndrome' in psychological literature, based on the fly-eating character Renfield in Bram Stoker's Dracula. Renfield's Syndrome is described as having four stages: a trauma or 'critical incident' in childhood in which the patient discovers that the taste and sight of blood is 'exciting' or attractive; 'autovampirism', the drinking of one's own blood (autohemophagia); 'zoophagia', or the consumption of blood from animals; and finally 'true vampirism', in which the patient must have human blood, and may resort to stealing blood from medical facilities, or serial murder." -- Vyrdolak. (Apologies to Vyrdolak, whose site is the only site I could find with any information regarding this.) So far as I know, this is not an officially recognized mental disorder.
Roleplayer:
1.) Someone who engages in role playing games (RPGs).
2.) This is often used as a derogatory term for those who play Vampire: The Masquerade or similar vampire RPGs and/or who pretend to be a vampire in their free time when they are not. RPGers are also associated with posers and other fakes who dress the part and pretend to be something they are not. See also "poser" and "wannabe".
Sangomancy:
A form of vampyrecrafte, or vampiric magick, which specifically involves the use of blood in the rituals. (See "vampyrecrafte".)
Sanguinarian:
Someone who has a physical thirst, need, craving for blood (which is non-erotic in nature) in more significant quantity than is generally required or desired by other blood-drinkers. Sanguinarians (a word from the Latin root "sanguinarius", meaning "bloodthirsty") apparently do not get the benefits from pranic energy, or else they are unable to feed psychically like psi and energy vampires, for whom blood and pranic energy are apparently interchangeable.
the Sanguinarium:
The network of like-minded organizations, events, businesses, websites, individuals, havens (nightclubs) and resources for the greater vampire and vampyre lifestylers communities. Inspired by the "vampire connection" of vampire bars, nightclubs and safehouses founded in Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles, the Sanguinarium serves to bring this vision to life as a real "Vampyre Connection". Many real vampires frown upon the Sanguinarium because of the non-vampiric lifestylers it attracts and the artificial pomp and aristocratic hierarchy it endorses.
Note: The Sanguinarium is not to be confused with Sanguinarius Organization for Real Vampires, which is the author's effort to help real vampires, blood drinkers and vampiric people.
Sanguine / sanguin / sang vamp(ire):
These are shortened forms of the term "sanguinarian". See "sanguinarian".
Sanguivore:
A term that I am seeing more frequently, used to define sanguinarians, but which I feel is inaccurate, as sanguinarians do consume more than just blood. I would strongly recommend using the term to refer to those who consume only blood, and nothing else, as their main source of sustenance. I have not encountered any tangible proof that such individuals do exist, and I feel that this is highly unlikely.
the Scene, or Vampyre Scene:
The "scene" is a general term for the social aspects of the vampire subculture including nightclubs, havens, events, businesses, societies, and even the online part of the subculture. Many vampires and vampyre lifestylers are a part of the vampiric community, but do not go out and socialize. Most of the current scene revolves around the Sanguinarium.
Seeker:
Someone who is seeking after vampires, or knowledge of vampires, usually desiring to become one him/herself. Unlike a wannabe, the seeker has a more thoughtful approach to vampirism and is willing to learn all he or she can about the condition before jumping head-first into it.
Self-Mutilation Syndrome (SMS):
A psychological condition which has apparently begun to grow among American youth. Sufferers of SMS, also known as cutters, feel the need to cut into their flesh and watch themselves bleed. Some sufferers of SMS also drink the blood drawn out this way, although this is not standard for the disorder. Most sufferers of SMS are redirecting feelings of anger, frustration, inadequacy, or emotional pain onto their bodies. Some eventually get involved in body art and blood fetishism. See also "clinical vampirism", "Renfield's Syndrome".
Sexual vampirism:
A form of psi-vampirism where feeding is done primarily from sexual energy, or energy generated during sexual activity, with or without the exchange of blood. The feeding can be done intentionally or unconsciously / unintentionally. A common term for female vampires who feed exclusively through sex is "Succubus", a word which originally denoted a Mediaeval demon which was believed to visit the dreams of men and tempt them into sexual misconduct; the male version of the word, although not as widespread, is "Incubus". See also "incubus", "succubus".
Sigil:
The identifying symbol of a house, haven, coven, or individual. The sigil often has ritual or symbolic significance for the individual or members of the household. For example, the Sanguine Ankh represents members of the Sanguinarium.
Sin nomine:
Latin for "without name". A vampire who has been stripped of his or her name and recognition within the community for having committed some great crime in the eyes of the community. See also "excommunicated" and "Invisibles".
Sire:
A term from Vampire: The Masquerade roleplaying system that has crept into general usage meaning the one who turned (or awakened) someone who is a vampire. (See "mentor")
Slayer:
A loud-mouthed dumb ass that makes public and obnoxious claims of killing people who are (or who the slayer thinks are) vampires. Just like hit-men for the mafia, those who may be real vampire hunters or slayers are NOT going to publically announce what they do, as that's a surefire way to the Big House, or the Happy Hotel. At any rate, they'll get investigated. If they are posers, then they will continue to remain free and flap their lips a lot; if they are real, then the Law will deal with them accordingly.
Whatever the case may be, Sanguinarius urges you to report these individuals to the proper authorities. Maybe being investigated will put a reality check in their miserable lives and cause them to tone down their racist shit speak. (See also, "hunter")
Whether they are harming or killing people, or desecrating graves and corpses, or conducting illegal interstate commerce (ex., a site on the net, offering vampire hunting or slaying services in exchange for money or goods) -- even if they have had no takers!, -- they are doing or offering to do illegal things, and should be reported. I believe conducting illegal interstate commerce is a felony--?
It's one thing to be a fan of Buffy, or Blade, or Jack Crow, or whoever, and it's one thing to have a ROLEPLAYING persona of a vampire hunter, but if that's the case, then those who do need to put some sort of indication that this is the case!
Solitary:
A vampire who chooses not to be involved with a coven and has little if any interest in interacting within the community.
Source:
Someone from whom a vampire will get blood. This is a neutral term that I prefer to use; I feel that it's more accurate than "donor", as the blood's not always a donation...
Strigoi Vii:
A term meaning "living vampires" in Romanian folklore, it is used by some to refer to the condition and philosophy of being a vampire. The movers and shakers of the Sanguinarium have appropriated the term for their use in describing their more spiritually oriented path, the Order Strigoii Vii.
Succubus:
The plural is succubi. A female sexual vampire. See "sexual vampirism". Historically, the term was used to describe a reason for the sexual dreams a person sometimes experiences, and were thought to be caused by a demonic spirit which took the form of a female in order to drain a person of his or her energy and lead the defenseless person into sexual sin while they slept.
Supplier:
Someone from whom a vampire will get blood. This is a neutral term; I feel that it's more accurate than "donor", as the blood's not always a donation...
Sympathetic vampirism:
A condition which sometimes occurs in individuals who have been fed from too frequently. This most often occurs in the donors or sources of energy vampires but can manifest itself among the sources used by sanguinarians as well. In general, the victim's resources become so depleted that they have to resort to vampirism themselves in order to replenish them. In addition to a need to feed, the sufferer of sympathetic vampirism may manifest symptoms commonly associated with real vampirism, such as heightened sensitivities and sensitivity to sunlight. Often, this condition causes some real vampires to mistakenly assume that their donors, -- or the donors thinking that they, themselves, -- have somehow been turned or awakened. But the condition is hardly permanent. This condition may last for a few weeks, although sometimes it can be drawn out for months or years. The best course of action is for the vampire or vampires who feed from the person to stop completely. Without the constant depletion of resources, the person's system should gradually correct itself over time.
Tease-the-Vamp:
A cruel "game" that non-vampires, or even other vampires, sometimes play where they tease or taunt a blood vamp with either thoughts of blood, or actual blood, which they have no intentions of giving to the vampire being teased. While it might be amusing to watch the vamp's reactions, this "game" causes misery for the poor vampire, and can result in his or her vamping out or worse, if it's not stopped.
the Thirst:
The craving, need, desire, urge to drink blood, experienced as an intense thirst-sensation and withdrawal-like symptoms. To say the least. This manifests not unlike an addiction, and is very difficult and annoying to have to deal with. (See also "the Hunger, "the Need", "Feeding")
The Thirteen Rules of Community:
See "The Black Veil".
to Turn:
To make someone into a vampire. This is most likely a misunderstanding or misconception of the awakening process. See also "awakening", "latent vampire".
Turned:
Another term for becoming a vampire. Some groups believe that ordinary people can be turned into vampires, but this is most likely a misinterpretation of the awakening process. The method for this turning varies from group to group, but generally involves a rite of blood or energy exchange between the vampire and the person to be turned. If someone appears to have been turned, he or she was most likely a latent vampire to begin with. See also "awakening", "latent vampire".
Twoofing:
An alternate, less blatant, and less cheesy-sounding, term created as an alternative for the phrase "vamping out". See "vamping out".
Vampire:
A much-disputed term with many meanings, depending upon whom you're talking to. See also the definitions of "sanguinarian", "blood-drinker", "blood fetishist", "psychic vampire", "Vampyre Lifestyler", and "Vampiric Community". Here, it is used to encompass all of the above-listed groups into a general category. Also, here, it is not used to define any of those as some sort of supernatural or superhuman beings or someone who has returned from the dead (excluding being revived by medical procedures), and so forth. Anyone who makes those sorts of claims, is lying.
Vampire aesthetic:
The art and style associated with the vampire. This includes figures with long, slender limbs and pale or bone-white skin, androgynous beauty, Victorian or Mediaeval styles and themes, trappings of lace and velvet, funerary décor, and overall dark and melancholy themes. Scenes of crypts, abandoned castles, and shadowy landscapes abound in artwork that appeals to the vampire aesthetic. The work of Gothic artist Joe Vargo of Monolith Graphics, which can be found on the Web at www.monolithgraphics.com, is an excellent example of this.
Vampire bait:
A poser or wannabe who is just screaming for a vampire to come after them. (What they get may be an entirely different situation than what they hope for or expect...)
Vamping out:
Experiencing an acute flare-up of the thirst. This also involves a change in the person's manner, breathing, pulse rate, thought patterns, etc., as their body gears up to go out and attempt to satisfy the thirst. This is a real thing, not a fantasy thing, and I won't let anyone else who does not really have this as a real occurrence claim it; to do so makes a mockery of those of us who really do have to deal with it! (If they don't have it and they claim it, then I wish it on them; let them have it!).
Vampiric community:
The community of people who identify with or have been identified with the label "vampire". This includes blood-drinkers, psi and energy vampires, and Vampyre lifestylers. The community also includes donors and sometimes the friends of vampires. (See "vampire")
Vampiric Condition:
Most vampyres express their condition through a mixture of philosophy, spirituality, lifestyle (and some consider it a fetish). Basically, the need to feed upon blood or life energy in order to remain emotionally, physically, and spiritually healthy. This condition can come about in three basic ways, 1) (Dhampyri) they are born with it and grow up completely knowing they are different 2) (Klavasi) they are latent and it sometimes or never manifests, depending on environment and circumstances; and 3) (Ardetha) they are "made" through a ritual or by another of the condition. There are many different traditions of vampirism, each with their own outlook and explanation on how to manage and experience this condition, but in general the final interpretation is left up to the individual.
Vampyre lifestyler / Vampyre (spelled with a "y"):
Someone who incorporates fictional vampire imagery and trappings into his or her personal life, often cultivating a "Vampyric" physical appearance, including but not limited to a very pale complexion, a wardrobe made up predominantly of dark clothing, a style of dress which is modeled on Victorian or Renaissance fashions, black or blood-red lipstick, sunglasses, fangs, FX contacts, and a generally melancholy or lugubrious air. Lifestylers often form alternative extended families and social structures modeled on the "covens" or "clans" of vampire fiction and role-playing games. Many also utilize lingo and terminology taken from vampire fiction and RPGs. Some are real vampires in the sense of craving blood, while others are blood fetishists, and still others are just drawn to the "Vampyre aesthetic". This is an outgrowth of, but distinct from, the Gothic subculture
Vampyrecrafte:
In general, this is the magick practiced by vampires or vampyre lifestylers. Many of them are pagan and follow the old ways, and the ways of magick are an integral part of their beliefs. Most vampires or vampyre lifestylers practice numerous techniques associated with energy manipulation. Many also practice some form of magick, most offenly ritual magick or chaos magick. Vampyrecrafte refers to magickal techniques specifically designed by vampires and vampyre lifestylers to take advantage of their unique abilities. Vampyrecrafte often has a dark flavor to it, although in general it is more of a balance between dark and light techniques.
Wannabe:
A slang term, a contraction of the words "wants to be". Derogatory term for someone who wants to become a vampire, usually with unrealistic expectations of what it would be like. Most wannabes have a very romanticized vision of vampirism, and they seem to think it would improve their lives somehow or make them more interesting. Many are attracted by a false vision of a vampire's powers. They usually fail to look at the practical side of becoming a vampire, such as necessary changes in lifestyle, finding sources to feed from, and trying to hold a job while balancing one's vampiric nature with daily life.
* This is by no means a comprehensive list, more may be added at any time*
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