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I love how they say there are other fish in the sea...well if you know relationships like I do swimming in that sea is like swimming with razorblades...each one you pass by if more it tears you apart just like every one you love rips you limb from limb as they leave you....yes I have felt this before and I attempted to overdose to get away from it because it was tearing my apart so I just want all of you to know why your not alone when your left behind....you still have your self and you have nothing else you can lose other than your life.



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I see life like a walk in the park...life can be a happy stroll but in my case I'm taking a walk on double edged razorblades for a endless stroll of the pain I deal with in life

I've spit in others faces around me a neglected other's feelings just from my own hate and now I mightr be the cause of someone's suicide...I just can't take it anymore I don't know what the fuck I need to do just to seal my hate away from me because all I've done is sealed the loss that has become me down a path of suicide

any of you who know what addiction feel like you know how hard it can be......I'm not talking about simple addiction like cigarettes where you have to find your own will and some helping substances to help you quit but I mean where it brings you so much pain that if feels like your dying on the inside and when you literally are is when you should be concerned. I can possibly die the way I'm going....I'm using chronic and for those who don't know what that is,it is weed laced with coke which can eventually screw with your mind. Now I'm not just hooked on that but I rely on it as a substitute so my pain I'm going through because not only am I addicted to chronic but I'm hooked on cutting.....and now that I've fallen this low,I don't really care who reads this.....my parent knows and everyone I can trust is trying to help me but I've turned my back on them. So I'm tellong you if you know the feeling then consider taking your own fucking life back into your hands instead of some mental illness or some illegal drug.



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I sit here in agaony feeling the need for chronic but I'm trying to take control of the life I once new as a simple state of being sane......as I slice my wrist to maintane the sanity in which I know of I pass my time simply talking to others to maintane a relaxed state