I was born a Gemini. In the exact middle of the year, at about the half way point of the day. Twins. My name means the "Twin" is this all coincedence? Is this who I am or can I control my nature? Some words to describe "us" are clever, deceitful, witty, adaptable, charming, superficial. Some descriptions I love some I hate. However, many of these traits I truly see in myself.
Some say " don't take it seriously" some say it is "reality". What about partnership? Companions? Lovers? Are we more compatible with Scorpios, Libras. Taurus maybe. I don't know, but what is unusual is most all people I've been around fits their "sign" "stop. under construction. Smile"
Today my love is so strong for Her it hurts unbearably. Like something inside that keeps clawing out. I am without defense of this overwhelming subjugation. She has consumed my person to the marrow of my bones. My body knows the way to go. It complies with Her powers...this is complete control. No not just physical gratification, its on the cellular level.
The migraines of my separation are only eased by Her voice. Not even that, Her look, her glance. A slight motion of her finger.She must only call.
I don't know what came over me. We met in Sevilla whiere I was working. She was on holiday. Her beauty was astonishing but I briefly glimpsed the cruelty underneath.
All along I was being gathered into a web of exquisite ecstasy and levels of pain I never imagined.
I entered her life of post Soviet domination and crossroads charm. I was finally alive.
It became clear soon her true nature. She wanted my blood. Yes, she took care of all my needs, I needed nothing. But her appetite to utterly control my being was clear. She was my Master, I was her property, slave. Yes, a slave of desire.
On and on this went....I could not stay away. Returning to freedom.....dying to return.
Thresholds of pain I did not realize. Debauchery unknown. Blood was her sustenance, my body, her life source.
Depths of pleasures, we did not know.
Yes....she was loving and kind. Her spicy goulash was delicious. Dancing to the colored lights and drinking vodka was so divine.
But her viciousness was my deliverance. I never thought I would escape or overcome.......
Delightfully, her love for me was divine. She cared for me like no other.... her tenderness was exquisite, such bliss...I trusted her with my life.... on many occasions..,..
In the moments of complete abandon, I begged for release.....and on the brink, she pulled me back.... our bond was secure....our devotion withheld.
I knelt to her will and obedient to her wickedness.... her sadism.......her domination and control......
I am a rugged man, a rough and tumble kind of guy....no one would suspect what transpired behind our doors......
Szeged Magyarország. Thomas
I have lived most of my being addicted... by every known form of alcohol...... drugs------ I finally freed myself of these, only to realize, that all the while, my human desires were the most intoxicating of all.. tsv.....
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Knave
01:11 Nov 30 2013
The exact middle of the year is July 1st. July 2nd if it's a leap year. So by that you'd be a Cancer, not a Gemini.