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Well I figured since I have a journal mine as well use it so here it goes. Its a little after 6:00am and I'm sitting here. I havent slept for a couple days yeah insomnia can be a bitch. Well I guess I should start with some thoughts I've been pondering lately. Well I know I'm not gonna figure out the meaning of life, but still I wonder what does it all mean. Why do we live out our lives and try to make the best of it. Its like we are dying to live, but we are just living to die. I've been thinking about this for quite some tme know and still no results. Another thing that concerns me is the big question, is there really a God. See I don't understand ok this is how it goes before god even was thought of there was other Gods. Sure they shared the same qualities, Heavenly ruler, Creator of earth, and many other things. Well if there is a God which one is the real God. Then there is that whole death thing. Where do we go after we die. Is there a heaven and hell or do or bodies just rot in the ground. I'm very unsure about what to believe anymore. Hell maybe Tom Cruise got it right with that whole alien landing thing, nah I don't buy into that nonsense. Anyways I'm sure I'm not alone in this whole spiritual journey so please If anyone reads this journal please comment with your thoughts thank you.