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You and I used to be like the moon and the stars

We were never a part

Always together

Then something happened.



We were drifting and we didn’t even know it

It was a shot threw the heart when I realized are love was fading

There wasn’t a day I didn’t cry when you left

When you left me for her I could only wonder if it was me that made you run to her.



My heart was shattered

Why didn’t I noticed

Noticed that are love was dieing

I couldn’t take it any more.



I picked up my razor blade and cut away

The blood flowed

The burning sting took you off my mind

I was free from the pain of you.



The pain that was soon forgotten as soon as the burning sting began

Blood continued to flow

Soon I was covered in my own blood

My eyes empty and presumed dead.

You hang from a tree by a rope

The reason you hang from a tree is because you couldn’t cope

You couldn’t cope because I couldn’t love

I couldn’t love because one before you destroyed me.



He destroyed me because I was the only challenge

I was a challenge because I would love no one

The reason I loved no one is because I was untamed

Untamed because I was free.



I’m not free any more tho

I’m not free because he destroyed me with my own feelings

He was my first love

He might even be the last.



I’m so sorry I hurt you

I just can’t allow myself to love

Not after that

That which nearly has me attempting death.

Good bye cruel world

I gave a good fight

But once you lose

You’re broken for life

They call me one of those people who live fast and die young

Truth is I barley even lived

In a few years I would have never existed

My soul died the second I was born

I was to wild for any buddy

They tried their best to slow me down

But I only got faster and faster

They said I was sin its self

Well who cares what they think

I’m dead their not

I lived my way instead of liven by their rules

Rules that have you chained down like a dog

I didn’t want to live that way

I kept myself free

So they killed me for it

But hey at lest I died free

Imagine that there is no heaven

Imagine all the people living in pieces

Imagine that there is only hell

Well guess what

You are in hell

You’re not paralyzed

You’re held down by chains

All your sin has gotten you here

You don’t like it but it’s not your choice

I spread out my jet black wings

I am only one of the dark angels

The hottest fire of hell surrounds you

Another dark angel takes a whip with spikes on it

And begins to whip you across the back

We give you no water

You think you’re going to die but you never do

Then you try to mess with the devil

He sends you back to earth

You will never die

You will always live in pain and sorrow

There will be no other like you

You shall be the only immortal

I face the battle field

The battle field of death and sorrow

Remembering all those who went before me

A tear streams down my face

I give out a cry for those who were lost

And rush into battle

Destroying one life after another

Waiting for mine to be destroyed

Blood splashes every where

Staining the soft green grass

My eyes no longer soft but fierce

Then I felt something

It was a sharp pain in the back

I turned my friend had betrayed me

He ran his blade right threw me

My life ended

My soul forever trapped on that battle field

The battle no one shall win

Many mock me for what I am

I wonder to myself every time they do this

If there is something wrong with me.



Am I not the same as them

They have me in so much wonder

That I stare in the mirror trying to figure it out

Then I understand that I am nothing to this world.



I am nothing to this world because I do not feel

I do not feel because I am nothing

I force words out that I do not under stand

I force them out is because I think it is what they wish to hear.



I am afraid to tell them what I truly think and feel

I am afraid because I do not wish to be rejected

I do not want to know that pain

To know that pain is like to know death itself.



I have thought of death many times

Death I believe would set me free

I believe it would set me free because I would no longer be living a lie

I am living a lie because I tell myself I am happy but I am not.



I know I am not happy because inside I am in tears

I am in tears from not being who I truly am

Who I truly am is someone I have lost

I have lost myself to someone who did not wish me to be that person

That someone is me.

He breaks the laws

But hey everyone has flaws

He’s just not tame

They all choose him to blame



They just don’t understand

Wile the girls think he’s grand

But something caught his eye

It was a girl that was not shy



She was everything he wanted

But he was unwanted

She didn’t want to hurt him

Everything went dim



He didn’t know she was going to end her life

They day they met was the day she bought her knife

If only they had met before this

Before she was swallowed by the abyss



She cried as she bled

He couldn’t believe she was dead

He cried for her day and night

His life was no longer bright



He started drinking

Soon her memory disappeared and he stops thinking

He put the gun to his head

He did not dread



Everyone heard the blast

He was no longer haunted by the past

One died fast and the other slow

I tell you this it didn’t have to be like this but you already know

I’m nothing but a dot

If you thought I was special the truth is I’m not

I am nothing

Please don’t tell me I’m something



You will only make it worse

Forever I will be cursed

The tears flow from my eyes

Don’t try to make me rise



You will only fail

My face covered by a black veil

I desire you

You are like the flu



I can’t get you off my mind

Everything’s coming unwind

I want to tell you how I feel

But you don’t fell the same so I should just get real

The words unspoken

My heart broken

I was left behind

I wish I could rewind



But that was only wishful thinking

I started drinking

My life nothing but a blur

My soul never to be stirred



I drank my memory away

This is how it is everyday

My dreams are dead

I never fled



All they did was dread

As I bled

I have chosen my fate

They couldn’t relate



I ended my life

With my knife

Never to know what my life could have been

But all I truly was, was sin

These chains are all I got

Then I got shot

You forgot

I was left to rot



I loved you a lot

But you did not

This was your plot

But you never got caught



You thought you were hot

But the thing is your not

That little spot

Is what u forgot



You never thought

I would get shot

There for I was left to rot

I tried to get up I could not



In your mind I was nothing but a dot

That you forgot

You were my weak spot

But I forgot

My life’s unknown

I’m to be alone



It’s my curse

But then things got worse



I fell in love

All we did was push and shove



Then we broke,

Up; I started to smoke



There was nothing left for me

I had to flee



I had nothing but trouble

Now make that double



My souls broken

The words are unspoken



Can’t you see I love you

Don’t worry I wont pursue



I guess I wasn’t good enough

You thought you were tough



But I tore you down

I’ve taken your crown

To be alone

Is my curse

But then things got worse

I fell in love

All we did was shove

Then we broke

I started to smoke

There was nothing left for me

I had to flee

I had nothing but trouble

No take the trouble and make it double

My soul broken

The words unspoken

Can’t you see I love you

Don’t worry I wont pursue

I guess I wasn’t good enough

You thought you were tough

But I tore you down

You’re nothing but a clown

I’ve taken your crown

I look down at you

You had no clue

You couldn’t believe what I have become

You’re so dumb

You’re the scum

Not I

I’m to fly

You cry

Then u wanna die

I took out your eye

You wonder why

As you die

Their heart stops

When they hear the cops

They start to run

After awhile they think its fun



They think it’s cool

But it’s not their just fools

Who drool when a woman walks by

She wants a tough guy



Not a punk

Who thinks he’s a hunk

But is truly a jerk

Who goes berserk



When I tell him a white lie

He gives me a black eye

I tell them I fell

Every things going to hell



I don’t wanna be here

He drinks another beer

I cry

Wanting him to die



I just want to fly away

To spend a day at the bay

All I want is to be free

That is my plea

Its no surprise

I was no prize

People would get up and leave me

As if I was a banshee



They never wanna stay

They thought I was astray

They always have to leave

I was always deceived



They would never say good-bye

It hurt so bad inside I just wanted to die

But that’s no surprise

I would never arise



I wonder what I did to make them leave

I would never be relieved

I used to rely on them

In their eyes I used to be a gem



Was it the fighting that made them leave

Or was it eve

Is it because I stopped loving

Or was it the shoving



Maybe it was

Maybe not it had its flaws

I will never know I guess

I had too much stress



Forever to be alone

My life like a cyclone

No one to rely on but me

And that’s all I really need

Why do all bitches act like snobs

Why can’t they come down to our level

Oh their to busy with their noses stuck up in the air

Well I say fuck um

They ain’t worth my time

So let them mother fuckers be bitches n snobs

I just don’t give a damn

I’ve had enough

I ain’t gonna take their shit any more

Those bitch ass mother fuckers can kiss my fuckin ass

Naw better yet they can kiss each others ass

Cuz they may give me the fuckin bitch disease

When I look back on them I’m gonna say

C ya you fuckin bitch ass mother fuckers

Hate is all I want to know

It’s not like anyone cares

Naw no one gives a fuck

So in return I just don’t give a fuck back

If you’re wondering what happened to the good girl

She died

And became me

Hate is all I have

Hate is all I know

I don’t want to know anything else

The good girl now dead

The bad girl now alive

You can’t bring her back

The bad girl is here to stay

And she don’t give a fuck what you say or do

Hate is all I have

Hate is all I know

Hate is what keeps me going

You can try to tare me down

But your just gonna make me hate more

This hate I feel is the never ending hate

So fuck you all

I’ve had enough

Nothing can stop me now

Not even you

So hypnotic

Passion within those eyes

Eyes of a dark green color

This stranger was one I wanted to meet

His words so sweet

Yet poison to the mind

The poison to keep the mind in the hypnotic state

A state of becoming prey to him

Him who is so loving

So loving that even the ones who don’t know love

Is loved by him

Him who I am prey to

Forever and always

My scares reopened

My fate sealed

The water fall of blood

Pours from my reopened scares

The scares that won’t close up

I don’t want them to anyways

I feel the blood rushing out of me

My fate is sealed

There is nothing you can do

I shut myself off

Away from you

So you couldn’t see

So you wouldn’t stop me

I fall to the floor

Empty of blood

My wounds still open

Never to close

I felt the burning sting

When I reopened them

They burning sting that’s always there

Then beautiful silence

Of death

I felt the cold icy hands wrap around my neck

I look down at her

My own blood

She had decided to take my life

I pitied her

I felt her hands tighten around my neck

I struggled to breath

But she kept tightening

Death was near

I wouldn’t have to fight

For my life anymore

I would be gone

Killed by my own blood

I said good bye to everything I knew with my mind

A tear flowed from my eye

As I just seemed to stop breathing

It just seemed as if I was just resting

But this was eternal rest

A rest of death

That my own blood bestowed upon me

In the end

She got the worst death of all

Forever they will remember me

She would be forgotten

As I would be a ghost

To remind them all

That even if they are blood

They will kill you

If they wanted

Forever to haunt them

And to never fade away

All I have left

Is a broken heart

A heart that will never beat again

A heart that had known love

Love that had finely broke it

That tamed me

But it was all a lie

None of it was true

I was merely a stand in

Until she came running back to you

I gave you another chance

When she decided she really didn’t want you

But then you left me for the second time

That was it no more chances

Your love may have tamed me

But you broke the heart that it tamed

Now I am free

Free from everything

And that is all I have left

You was the one

The one to treat me right

The one who didn’t care about my looks

But I passed you by

And went with another

Not knowing you wanted me

Then that guy left me

You helped me though the pain

As I helped you though yours as well

I could see the love in your eyes

You lost your love to death

I lost mine to another guy

Maybe we will make it

Maybe not

But if no one took a chance

The world would not be the same

This pain no one knows

No one has felt

It lives within me

Within my past

Which no one knows of

I keep my past secret

So those I love can not be hurt

New pains appear

But none as great as this one

This one that taunts me so

Will never go away

I know the day is coming

The day the pain will over take

The day that happens

The pain will choose another

Another to carry the pain

Another to know what it feels like

And to be the only one to feel and know that pain

For I will be free the day it chooses another

Fear is nothing to me

My heart no longer beats to the music

It no longer beats at all

Fear shines in your eyes

It makes me wild inside

To see the fear in your eyes

Knowing that you can do nothing to stop me

For you think you are weak

But your truly not

It is the fear that weakens you

Not you who is weak

As long as you let fear control

You are weak

And it will kill you in the end

You forgot about me

It was like I never existed to you

You left me there to be forgotten

You didn’t want me to exist

You wanted me to be forgotten by everyone and every thing

You erased me from every ones memory

Now I never existed to them

I am left on this little place

This little place I now call home

Soon to be forgotten even by myself

I won’t even remember who I am

I am the forgotten

Never to be known again

Maybe I will be remembered

One day or another

Maybe never

For now I will stay here

Till I find myself

My knuckles bruised

From fighting back

Scares on my arms

From trying to escape you

Lashes on the back

From running from you

A knife in the back from turning away

My soul torn by why you do this

My heart broken

But you step all over the pieces

That was the day you put the knife in my back

I fall to the floor with my last breath

I ask you why

But before you can answer

I die

A pool of blood around me

Beaten then finely killed

My pain of you finely gone

Free from you

I am

You called me your angel

I didn’t know

At that time

You where trying to take my innocence

But the night you did

You changed my life

You changed me from good to evil

My innocence is gone

I’m no longer an angel of the light

But one for the dark

You changed me

Into the Dark Angel

That was just waiting to get out

Now you have set her free within me

I will never be the same

I can feel the darkness coursing thought my veins

You have set me free

For that I thank you

Because I wasn’t happy being one of light

But now I’m the Dark Angel

And I’m happy

A dark eerie graveyard

Is where they can be found

Those little balls of light

That swirls all night

And disappear at dawn

Those little balls of light

There souls

That didn’t want to move on

Or are lost

But every night

Those little balls of light

Swirl until dawn

Negativity is all I found there

I almost quit the thing I loved

Thinking I had nothing left

That I wasn’t any good

But I realized

That it was the only way I could get my feelings out

This thing I love

May seem nothing to you

But every thing to me

I will continue to do the thing I love

And you or no one else will stand in my way

For now I know

I am nothing with out doing the thing I love the most

You yell and scream

To get your way

But there is a price to pay

One day wile you were screaming

I walked out the door

I had it

I couldn’t take it any more

You didn’t care

You didn’t even dare to come after me

I was nothing more than a trophy to you

To show off to your friends

So I walked out the door

There is nothing you can do

There is nothing you can say

For are day has ended and my day has began

My day has come I am finely free

To do as I please

I hear whispers

In my mind

In the cold eerie wind

That sweeps across my face

In the darkness of my mind

The whispers form

Wanting me

Calling me out

I ask myself

What do they want?

Why seek me out

Instead of someone else

They haunt day and night

The whispers never let me rest

I run from them but they always catch me

Why wont they leave me be

Forever I am cursed with the whispers

I can never beat the whispers

I know that now

Tired and beaten

I give in to the whispers

Learning the horrible secrets of others

Lost in the dark abyss

Never to be know

Never to be seen

It stays there

Alone and untainted by others

It stays there

Not knowing the world outside the dark abyss

Fearing that of what is unknown to it

Never to leave the abyss

For the abyss protects it from the tainted ones

But the abyss can not protect it forever

The tainted ones will find a way to it

They will stop at nothing until they have every thing tainted

Soon the new Dark Age will come

Then nothing of the light will exist

All will be lost

Nothing will survive

In this Dark Age to come

A dark shadow sweeps across the floor

I follow it

It dances around me

I become dizzy

I fall down

I feel the shadow creep up to me

It whispers in my ear

Evil is found in those who are not

And good is found in those who are

I awake

I look around

I walk over to the window

I look out

I notice someone looking up at me

He raises a red rose to me than sets it down

He than disappears

I go down and pick up the rose

I look around

But there is no sign of him

I wonder will I ever know who this secret lover is

Threw darkness

And light

You guided me

Are love grew

I stayed with you

Even when another tried to get me

But I denied him

For I love you

You got me to love again

You healed the wounds

That the others had inflected upon me

You have been threw a lot as I have

I know one day that you may break my heart as well

But till then I will love you

With the love that you rightfully deserve

It could be true love

You never know any more

I will be there for you

At good times or bad

I will always love you

For that is all I can feel toward you

And all I can do is hope you feel the same

Good-bye for now

I love you

The sun rises

And it falls

But it always gives way for darkness

The darkness that frees me from the bright and harmful sun light

One night the darkness will not let the sun rise

The sun will fall

And the moon will take its place

The moon a friend of the darkness

For the moon does not shine as bright

And the moon wants to take the sun’s place

I stay in waiting

Wanting the darkness to make its move

And watch the sun make its last fall

How wonderful that will be

The day that the pain came

The same day it left me

I was scared and beaten

That was the day I stopped living

I stopped caring

I could no longer cry

I no longer had a soul

But I to let you go

It was not fair to you

So I let you go

And paid the price

I loved you

Then I let you go

For if you set them free and they come back

Than it was truly meant to be

As I sit here alone

I begin to wonder

Is there anyone out there that feels the same way I do?

Is there anyone out there that can understand me?

Alone I sit here in wonder

The only thing I can do is move on

And rid myself of these feelings

For if I feel I am weak

If I am weak I can be destroyed

I must not be destroyed

We gaze at the stars

Laying side by side

We listened to each others hearts

But slowly yours began to stop

My eyes were full of fear and concern

I didn’t want you to go

I didn’t want you to leave me

But you just turned away and left me

That’s when the pain began

That’s when the blood started to flow

One night on a full moon

I was taken from this life

Presumed dead

But then you see me

At night in the park

I’m different

I have grown beautiful

It wasn’t your heart I heard stopping

It was mine

I was changing

It wasn’t you who turned away

It was me

I changed

I offered you to change with me

Don’t you remember?

But you turned me down

You didn’t want to be together forever

So I did the leaving

Now your just food to me

So when you approached me

I grabbed and fed off of you

Then dropped you to the ground and left

I gave you a chance

But you didn’t take it

Now look at you

You’re dead

You’re in the grave instead of me

I smile as I move on with out you

Realizing I am truly free with out you

The rain fell down on me

It washed away the dried blood

And my pain

You stood over my body

And watched as the rain washed away the dried blood

And pain

Leaving nothing left but open wounds

And scares of the past

No longer are you able to hurt me

For I am long gone

You listened to the rain

As it hits the ground

Now all it does is remind you of me

When we were happy

Before this rain came

Before you hurt me

But now the rain has washed it all away

I am free from the pain

For the rain has washed it all away

Sitting here in the dark

Unforgiven

I wonder if he’ll ever forgive me

And understand why I did what I did

The darkness begins to swallow me

I am slowly dieing

I wish to be forgiven before I go

But I guess you thought you had forever to forgive me

But you do not

With my last tear

With my last cry

I say good bye

And with that the darkness consumes me

I touch your face

I tell you that you deserve someone better

But you won’t let me go

I tell you over and over

I’m not able to love

I try for you

But it is no use

I cry because I can’t love you

I wish to love you

But some many before you

Has hurt me

That I don’t fell anything but sadness

I try to love again just for you

Then finally I feel that love

I feel the happiness

I can love again

And I did it all for you

You leaned close to kiss me

But then I began to fade away

You tried to keep me from fading away

But it was no use

I was gone

You woke up

It was only a dream

You wished that I was real

But all I am is a dream

That you have every night

And every day you wished I was real

But I am nothing but a dream

We roam the Earth together

One day you ask me if I love you

I said of cores I love you

For I truly will love you forever

You won my heart

It belongs to no one else

It will always belong to you

In life or death

I would love no other

Not even if it was to save the world

For you are my one true love

I love you

We stand out in the rain

You tell me you made a mistake letting me go

I wonder if you mean it

You say you want me back

My friends just say that you’ll break my heart again

I don’t listen to them

For I am happy with you

Whether you will break my heart again or not

I do not know

Just that I’m happy with you

And I would rather be happy

Then knowing that I let you go

You were everything I wanted

But you just couldn’t see how much I loved you

And cared for you

My heart aches

Knowing that you thought she loved you

And cared about you more than I

When the truth is

She’s just using you

I try to tell you

But you don’t want to hear it

You think she would never do that to you

We all know she is

But you can’t see

You’re to blind by her beauty

The red moon rises

As I prowl the Earth

For the one who can make me whole again

My eyes full of hate and despair

The one I seek can take this hate and despair away

And free me once again

This void of nothingness can only be filled by him

And him alone

I look up at the red moon

As the red moon light shines down on me

How long will it take me?

Until I find him

I hear the organ play

It awakens me from my slumber

I look into the mirror

I have not changed a day over 19

I sigh as I look at the one I love

I could not change him

For he was one that is not affected by my blood

Forever I will be 19

And he will grow older every day

I wish I could stop his ageing

I love him so dear

I’d hate to lose him

Forever I will be lost

Him gone

It’s not fair

But then again

Nothing ever is fair

I watch him pass away

My heart heavy

I yearn for him

Wanting him to come back to me

That night he passed away

My heart broke

I became cold

And never loved again

I’m falling

No one cares to catch me

As I plummet down to Earth

As I fall I wonder what I have done to deserve this

Then I see you

You hold out your arms to catch me

I fall into your arms

I look at you

You rid me of my pain

And heal my scares

Love in your eyes

As you heal me

I stay with you after you heal me

We have fallen in love

For you and I have now become a pair

And nothing will come between us again

For are love is to strong to break

I take up my razor blade

I cut away

This time I will not come back

This time I will not survive

I will die

As a pool of blood forms around me

I say good bye

I can’t live any more

Not with you on my mind

So I end my life

To be free from you

Loving you was like loving the dead

Your touch was like ice

Cold and uncaring

You blamed everything on me

You abused me

Then you avoided me

Now you won't even talk to me

I tell you it's over

Now you want me back

I tell you no

For I know you will just abuse me again

I walk in this forest

Finding nothing but lies and deception

I keep looking for away out

I seek for the truth

Even if I find only one truth out there

I would be happy

Knowing that there is truth out there

But I yet to find a single truth

For this forest is full of lies and deception

Which I am trapped with in

I love you

But I’m afraid to tell you

My heart cries out for you

But still I can not tell you

I wish to be with you

But I’m afraid that you will just turn and walk away

I’m afraid of what you may do

Maybe one day I will have the courage to tell you

But right now I’m just afraid to tell you

They bind me in chains

And call up my love for a ransom

My love says no way she not worth it

I become enraged

They release me

I tell them I have an idea

The next thing my love is bound in chains

And ask for ransom

From the girls he was using as well

They pay up

We throw him out onto the streets chains and all

And disappear into the night with the money and a new partnership

One day I will be recognized

For the things that I do

For words I write

As I put my heart and soul into them

I will be recognized

Even if you like them or not

The world does not provide by your rules

I live by my rules and my life

Why don’t you live by your rules and your life?

People will begin to want to read more of my words

There for one day I will be recognized

I call out your name

But you do not answer

I search for you

But I can not find you

Then I do

They have killed you

Tears stream down my face

As I see you’re mangled corps lying there

I build you a coffin

And put your mangled corps with in

I put you into the ground

I say a pray for you

And put the up turned Earth onto your coffin

I look at your head stone

And lay a blood red rose on top of it

I know you will be with me inside my heart

You was by my side

You stayed by my side

Until I died

You cried for me

So in return I stay beside yours

Watching over you

Protecting you

I am not alive

But still I am by your side

Guiding you to the path that you must take

I know you miss me

But I am still here by your side

Just not alive

My heart is heavy

I do not know what to do

I feel lost and alone

No where to go

No where to hide

I look into the mirror

I see the demon

I frown at all the sin and pain

But then I smile

For that demon is me

And as long as I am me I am happy

I am the hated

I am the damned

Sentenced to death

No one loves me

No one cares about me

All they do is hate me

And torcher me

And beat me

But I will not hate them back

For they hate me because I am different from them

So I allow them to go on and hate me and torcher me and beat me

There is nothing I can do

For I am the hated

I am the damned

We loved each other from the first day we saw each other

But from the start are parents forbidden us to see each other again

We did not listen

We continued to see each other

This as we thought was true love

Soon are parents found out

I was locked away into my room

He was sent off to another place

Years went by

We carried on with are lives

We have never loved another person since the day we were torn apart

Then we find each other again

Things start to fall apart again

Then we realize that are love could never be

Now we understand why are parents kept us apart

So we became friends

Since we knew are love could never be

I do not know what to write

Empty minded I am

I write on

But yet I fear I am no good

Should I quit?

And leave poem writing to the people who can truly write poems

For I am as dry as the desert

Should I quit or should I continue on

I am so lost

For I do not know what to do

One part wants me to go on

But the other does not

I can not decide for myself

I need help

But I fear what the answer could be

I can feel the fear taking over

It wants me to quit

Writing poems was always a pleasure for me

But now this fear has entered my body

It makes me think twice about writing poems

Maybe I should quit I have nothing left

I am like the hot dry empty desert

It does not rain in this desert of mine not even once

There is no wind there is no life

Look into my eyes for they also show you emptiness

I try to fight this fear of mine

But there is no hope

This fear of continue to write poems overwhelms me

I lay down and search for an answer

For I have nothing

And the feeling of nothingness is worst than the feeling of pain or sadness

I seek to fill up this void of nothingness

And to turn the dry desert into a lush green forest with life

And to become someone instead of a nothing

Frost bite nipping at my heals

As I walked through the blinding snow storm

I could barley see my hands in front of me

The hard cold winds and snow blew about my jet black hair

I have no idea where I was going

The sun had not been up for a day or so

I was going blind from the snow storm

Then I fell to my knees

I tried to get up but the hard cold wind of the snow storm kept me down

It would not let me up

I yelled out for help but then realized that no one could hear me in this wicked snow storm

Finley I fell all the way to the ground

It seem as if this snow storm was not going to stop

I could no longer see all was dark

Was I alive or was I dead I could not tell

I listened for the beat of my heart

There was none

Then I knew

I had died that winter

In that wicked snow storm

As the moon light shined down on my grave

I awaken in my coffin

I claw my way out of my coffin and the ground on top of it

I looked around as the moon light shines down on me

A cold breeze wipes the dirt from my skin and hair

My dark green eyes search for the one who had put me in my grave

For I live once again

I can hear there heart beat

I can smell there fear of what I have become

I find them and corner them

I look at them my dark green eyes a blaze

I then speak to them

I will show you mercy just this once

For I do not wish to sink to your level

I let them go

I have shown them mercy that they did not show me

If the come back to kill me I will be ready for them

You left me behind

You went on with out me

Now I am alone

I visit you grave everyday

And ask myself why did you take your life

Why could you have not stayed with me?

My heart aches for you

I hear you voice in the wind call my name

But it must be my imagination

For you are dead and I am still alive

You left me behind

But one day we will be together again

I hate you

You take every thing form me

For all I know you have no heart

You try to get my friends to turn against me

Then you try to take my dogs

Why don’t you just take my life why you’re at it?

I take up my knife here I’ll help you

I slit my wrists 27 times and I watch as my blood drops on to the ground

As you look in to my eyes you see that all I have is hate for you

Finely I bleed my last drop of blood

The next day I’m 6 feet under

Are you happy now that you have everything?

Do you cry the day they put me six feet under

Or do you smile because you know that you have everything of mine

You have my Friends

You have my dogs

And whatever else was mine

I hate you

I despised you

Now I’m dead but do you care no

You smile why the others cry

I shall never forgive you

chills run up my spine

seeing you with her

knowing that I have lost my love to her

will I love again

I think so

I’ll just forget you and move on

your not worth moping over

I gave you my heart

you didn't care

if you didn't want me then why did you pick me

why cause me this pain

it doesn't matter now

she can have you

I’ve moved on without you

all I say is good luck and good-bye

A tear here

A tear there

But do you really care

Do you really mean it when you say you love me

Or do you just say that to make me feel better

Will you cry when I die

Or will it just be a tear here a tear there

Not really caring

Will you visit my grave

The day that they will put me under ground

Or will you have that other girl hanging on to you

Yeah that’s right I caught you that night with her

You killed me seeing you with her

You put me into the grave

But who cares

I’m just a no buddy

And one day you will become a no buddy as I have

When will I wake

For days and nights I sleep

years go by I still do not wake

But I hear the world around me

It does not sound like the world I once knew when I was awake

Now the time has come for me to wake

I go outside

I look around

I see none of my family and friends

I wonder what has happen to them

I learn that I am the last of my family and that all my friends died long ago

No one can understand not having anyone that you once knew

I shall always be alone in this world

An outsider who can never find my way back in like the others will

I am the last

I will make the world pay for what they did to my family and friends

They will know the pain that I once felt

I must go before they find me and get rid of me as well

Farewell until we meet again

I see red

I hear my heart thud

I feel as if I am slipping away from life

My eyes close

Don't bother to save me

I don't want to live anymore

Just let me go

My will to live has been broken

My heart stops

I open my eyes

I look down at my body

Don't bother to bring me back

You never cared before why should u start now

I lay down

I seek for away out

I search for endless days and endless nights

Trying to find out the truth but all I find is lies and more lies

Deep down inside I know the only way out

I take my knife

I watch as my blood flows from the cuts

I drift away into the darkness of my mind

For in the end we are all equal we all die

I am the dying rose

I look into your eyes wishing I was you

But it can not be so

I watch my petals drop to the ground

Soon I will have none

I am the dying rose and nothing can change that

my last petal falls to the ground

I am no more

It has been 12 years since the pain and torcher

that day I lost the will to love

that day pain and torcher became a plusher

I love to here the last scream before death

the blood spilled makes me want to see more blood spilled

hearing the heart stop

knowing death has come of them

but death will never come for me

death ignores my will to die

my will to love is gone

it left me 12 years ago

I do not care

I must not care

my heart is as cold as ice now

the pain is no longer pain to me

the torcher is no longer torcher to me

for pain and torcher gives me plusher

I now leave you as I go into the darkest shadows of the Earth