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Today the world ended. Now I stand on the brink of a bland new world with no trace of hope or possibility for enjoyment. I wonder if I will make the best of it. It amazes me how few people have noticed that it has all ended. They all carry on with their lives oblivious to the change that has happened. Perhaps it is more that it is my world that ended. Yes, I think that is the true case here. Yesterday, my world ended. Today I find myself completely devoid of anything but emptiness. What has happened to have made such an impact upon my life you ask? Well... the same thing that always happens. I opened my eyes. I am not speaking in riddles but straight forward. I literally opened my eyes and the world that existed behind the closed doors that shield my soul was thrust from my vision to allow me to see life for what it truly is. I enjoy the time I spend in my world. I can be anything there. I am anything there. Here I am all but alone very few know who I am and even less would care to know me. There, however, nothing goes on without my approval. Every blade of grass exists because I will it to be so. It is a very amazing and scary thought. Perhaps this is the dream. Perhaps the world inside my head is the true world. If that is the case it would make sense that I can spend so little time there. The less time we are where we actually desire being the more we truly desire being there. There are things about this world that I like and enjoy. The company of a trusted confidant. The gleam in her eyes when she smiles. The sadness in the face of another friend that is not true sadness but just the way this world has transformed her. Perhaps this is just another rambling of a man who has lost his way. Perchance I would prefer to think that the cruelty and loneliness in this world is not true and it will all go away when I close my eyes. I do not think this is the case, as it is always waiting on me to open my eyes back and gaze upon the horror that it is. In the other world I have grown. I am never sick. I am at peace. Why would anyone want to leave such a place? My thought is that both are the true world. One balances out the other. It helps us to determine what we need to be and teaches us about balance. How does one know sorrow without a joy to compare it to? Tonight this world will end. When it does I hope the other has been recreated and I am able to once again take my place as the divine being there before coming back to being just another blade of grass in this world.

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xMurderMyLovex
00:05 Dec 22 2010

I would love to be your friend. Your writing is exquisite.

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