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When I was diagnosed they didn't have subtype classifications. It was PTSD. It made me depressed, angry, withdrawn from others, have trouble sleeping, have trouble associating, continued dissociation emotionally. The doctor diagnosed me as PTSD with chronic depression and a tendency toward psychotic episodes; he prescribed a medication and a treatment, what I had wanted was a sleeping pill so I could sleep for one night.

I have never been treated. Sometimes it is difficult to be around people. I always feel that their perceptions of me are bad; that I am an outsider and invisible and a nuisance so most of the time I say nothing about anything unless it can be ignored or maybe, hopefully seen as helpful.

I would be suicidal but I decided that suicide is wasteful and ungrateful. I would hurt others but I know it is wrong. I would stay in bed every day and do nothing except stare at the wall; I really do stare at the wall sometimes for hours, but I make myself get up even when I feel sick, tired, and hurt.

If you are getting treatment then I have faith that you can learn to live. If you aren't getting treatment then I believe that you had better learn to live.

I completely understand if you have a negative reaction to what I am writing even though I have no malicious intent. I want you to do well.

No negative reaction. I can't write much in public. I'm getting help, though I'm not sure if my therapist knows what's up. No one does. Changed my environment and it's changed me.

On anxiety treatment.