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Just came backfrom doing a little shoping for the home. It's not that bad out and I thought, why not?
Yeah it's new year's eve and I live in NY and I've never went to see the ball drop in person. Part of the reason, and you'll call me silly is because, I kinda want to go when I'm with a boy friend and share that classic kiss at midnight.>.> I know, yuck, when was I ever the romantic? lol
Something fun happened today; something to look forward to eventhough my life's been crap.
So, I don't normaly write about this but.. Rose got hit on today. Rose has been getting hit on by alot of guys but Rose didn't want to date for a while. You know, I just didn't have enough time and I didn't want yet another rebound.. >_>
Just have to say.. this guy is cuuute! >.o He lives in the same borough and state and everything. He said he worked around my area. I don't know much about him yet but I gave him my fan e-mail. Rose walked down the block blushing. >.o Now all I have to do is wait for the reply.
He was so me-ow! He got up the nerve to talk to me and he was so nervous. :P hahaha, Didn't think that I'd say this but now I mean it, Happy New year! Kitty likes, purrr.
Yeah there is a chance that it might not all work out. Yes I ended alot of relationships this year because I had a brain but hell, I do deserve this. I'm young, let's face it, I have my whole life ahead of me. Cheers!
All of my life I've been told to grow up. So now what? All those years of childhood I've been such a hardass. Isn't it funny when people would ask why I was so quiet and then they'd joke that I was your body guard and I'd say yeah. For all those years of keeping quiet... For all those years of protecting you I had to sign myself to that ? I don't want to go through with it.
So if I don't do it then your shit gets cut again. If I don't do it I bet you'll have my uncle yell at me for not being an adult. Well guess what if you want to force me then I'll simply leave, out in the fucking cold too.
You sit me down to talk to you. I do it because well I do miss being happy. So we talk and you get your hug from me. The thing is you can't take in that you're killing me inside. I do too much for you. You ask why I freaked last week. You can only blame yourself. You'll never get it through your head that because I'm repressed to feelings and such that I get all quiet now and I don't want to spend time with you. At all.
I really will leave if worse gets worse and I don't know where I'll go but I'll end up away from you and you'll have no one to blame. Oh well. I'm a fucking robot. Fuck the system!
Just be strong. Just be strong. You'll not be their dog. I've got to get myself out of it. It's like signing my soul to the devil just because it helps them. I can only be so strong. I don't know what my breaking point is.
heh, funny side note about not using the word iron. It would be the perfect breaking point.
Just got back home. I had to take that test thingie for the job class that I'm forced to take. I have to do it to get some sucky type thing. T_T I think I need to find something, anything else and fast cause I'm not going to last. xD They want people to dress up like dorks. I can't do that crap. Fuck it, if worse comes to worse then, heh, I won't say. :|
Anyway I'm rambeling on. So much snow was outside still. I mean some of it was moved to the side but the snow plows didn't hit everywhere so that some plies of snow were like 6 freaking feet or some shit. I didn't get lost on the trains and some trains still aren't working. -_-' I had to walk a bit too.
I hate today. I need a break to calm before I deal with this bullshit. I've been cursing all day and on top of that I had to put one of my cats in a cage and he slit my fucking wrist. T_T
Anyone remember this one? It was about some bad guys who were viewed in a good, funny sense. Lupin and his on and off girl friend were so funny because they used to dress up as people and end up unmasking at the end.
I think it's because you impersonated them, that they're impersonating me. And the love references... the way it's done, sorry, but it just STINKS of their work.
I'm expecting the journal full of riddles to start soon. Lol. They've yet to learn.
Snowed in
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So I forgot to update this. I'll have to go the next day. There is still so much snow that trains and buses aren't working. I am enjoying today. Got some nice rest and some great food at home. I think I just might have a few more cups of that perfect coffee. :3
So I woke up early and I feel like crap. I wish this stomach ache to go away. I'm going to take that class. Or talk about taking it at that place.
Last time I went there, I sort of freaked. :/ I'm hoping that I can keep it together when I get back home. Just breathing and hanging in there.
Yeah, I'm going to have to walk through the aftermath of the storm too. Probably wait a lot for buses. When I get back I think I'll be in a rotten mood, probably lurking because I'll feel inhuman again.
That was so bad. heh. I agree with the last entry. I say damn, I died. lol Sorry sorry sorry sorry.
Whine someone was whining so I gave in. I'll keep my title as heartless.
There is something that I might want to end up getting rid of. Guilt sucks. lol I'm on and off but lurking. Stuck inside. I'm going to database myself to forever.
Today is just a normal day of helping my mom shop. We bumped into an old friend of mine. Yay! ^_^
We all talked in the street for a bit and then she had to go. Said she was going to Chinatown. The Elizabeth center. I was like I KNOW that place! .. but I've never been there. She was like let's go right now. XD I was like.. Damn! XD
My mom wanted to go too and we had a bunch of stuff from shopping so we didn't go. Besides I was tired and I would have came back in the morning probably. ;P lol When I go out at night I never come back till morning. }:P
That sorta made my day. Eventhough she's older than me we came from the same High School and stuff. She looks like she's aged but in a good way and it's always nice to bump into old friends.
I've heard of the Elizabeth center because once a friend of mine got me a Hellsing poster for the holidays. I always get distracted in Chinatown. xP So I guess I never made it there in like.. 7 years. O.o Damn I'm old. They have all sorts of amine stuff there. -drools- She even said there was a great bubble tea shop there. :P Yay!
On another note, don't you hate when people yell at you for taking their stuff and then they steal your nicknames for people? Yeah. Ikea, never thought I'd say this but nice job. :P
[16:27:32] KattrinaK : Ikea here is helping me pick out a Sectional.
[16:27:35] PandorasBx : lol
[16:27:43] Fale : Don't call me Ikea >:
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Listen my hardest to blast my ears with music. If you flip through months of journaling you'd see that. Also I feel guilty about one journal entry that I had months ago where it was all like..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! Hmm, I'll go look for that one and re-post it. Because I was laughing at someone who I care about. xD STUPID ME. XD
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SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!
SO FUCKING HAPPY SO FUCKING HAPPY!
MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!
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DING DONG THE WITCH IS DEAD! OH YES YES YES YES YES! OH GOD YES! OH FUCK YES!
I KNEW THEY WOULD DIE WITHOUT ME! :D
I KNEW IT! I WAS YOUR LIFE! I WAS YOUR SAVE AND YOU GOT RID OF ME AND NOW ITS ALL GONE!
(Pisses on its grave) HELL YEAH!
I just feel bad for the poor guy who gave birth to it. He might be heart broken right now.
As for me? YES! YES! YES! SO FUCKING AWESOME! KARMA IS A BITCH! I LOVE YOU KARMA!
LOL Nope, It's a song about New York. Used to put it on just to drive this old guy nuts, haha. Not that I liked the song, but that I hated the guy. :P I'm a brat.
I'm thinking of going with a more American theme for my mentorship now. ^.^ Just trying to see what I can do for a friend. :P Not that I will change alot just that I might help support a coven. :P
People who want to bash friends and others who don't know whats going on and commenting. I'd say something really bad but it was droped. Not about the person who I was talking to but to someone who loves to hate teens. So what if I'm a teen? I'm not a child but I'm a teen well ain't that a bitch. I'm old enough to be an adult but not old enough to drink like that will stop me from being mature? I think not.
As for someone who kept picking on someone else; you aren't worth my day or time. I left your group and have fun speaking like a retard. Like you know everything, you don't.
Now this paragraph is for a guy. Keep talking shit about me. Keep lying about shit. What? Pissed because I'm not crazy enough to put rocks in a freezer? Too bad. What pissed because I was smart enough to get away from you? Too bad. I have friends. You should know this. One of my best friends, you hate her guts. She isn't even in my coven. lol She told me EVERYTHING. :P Also other people have been telling me about your past. It's people like you who shouldn't even be on this site. You are so lucky that you got away from me man bitch.
Not your number 1 stalker...BUT if the rocks are clean they work awesome in place of ice and don't water your drinks down...just saying...in a non stalkerish way.
The rocks weren't for drinks. This entry for for them to find. :P Besides it's kinda hard to explain crazy to everyone. I myself don't understand why one would put rocks in a freezer for said person but ha.
Dear Haters, (The rants they love to read offline)
12:39 Dec 07 2010 Times Read: 881
A lovely rant by me. Don't know how long this will turn out in typing but it's what goes through my mind when I read what haters have to say about good people. Or who knows, 'bad' people like us might be better to say. Just for you.
-Sits down- So let me ask you this, how many of you every get a chance to see both sides of a story? Not many. Take this message for example:
On 18:45:41 Nov 27 2010 (-0 GMT) J****** wrote:
I pissed him off in his Cambox.... :(
On 18:43:39 Nov 27 2010 (-0 GMT) TheArtistRose wrote:
How the fuck did that happen??? Awwww...
On 22:40:43 Nov 26 2010 (-0 GMT) J******* wrote:
And now he took it back... FUCK!
On 20:54:26 Nov 26 2010 (-0 GMT) TheArtistRose wrote:
So if you can talk why not talk? Just wondering because I miss you there. :(
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Original statement: Cancer unbanned me. Im being a good girl. :)
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I never knew if it was a lie or not. I never really cared. At that point after they had insulted me in there it was a breaking point.
I was on both sides. True friendship is when one of your best friends has people that hate you and no matter how much they hate you stand next to your friendship. Never give into what is said. "So do you hate her too? I'll tell you one thing if she's on his side then I'm taking that ***** bitch down with him." Those words flow through my head all the time. Such anger because of a love. The words haunt me.
I remember trying to tell them that I like everyone but they really shouldn't fight with her.. or if they do then they shouldn't bring me into it. Something they disobeyed in my friendship was trying to have me fight with my own friend one too many times. Trying to drag me into it all the time when I didn't want to get between it.
I know that I must have deleted a journal entry that said this but I'll state it over again:
Things that I said I wanted or would do for you:
#1. If anything ever happened where you were sent to Purgatory or something was going to hurt your honor then I'd do anything I could in my power to get into Purgatory with or without you. (Got sent to purg)
#2. I know that I hit a high level but if I could I'd give you some of my levels. (Made a profile with you as a referral.)
#3. After all the shit that we've gone through over the past months, I don't and wouldn't care if all of Vampire Rave blocked me; I will always be your friend. Even if one day we hated eachothers guts. hahaha (Got blocked by some members. :P)
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To think about what we went through from Coven to coven is fun. We kicked (His name at the time) Fallen's butt. Went through AEM. Then went to what I think is my favortie coven on here, IS. IS which even as a sire I want to stay in because I could never even think about leaving.
Also to those covens that disrespected us. One poster is good enough to have but to have two that will always post is something that one would be stupid to give up. Just thinking that about the last covens. To be a CM means that you are in charge of the place. Not that you have all the power in the world. If you disrespect your members then how do you expect to even run a good coven? Just a thought.
It takes a great person to run a good coven. Not a God, not a power head who only cares about 'jobs' , a person, a friend. I'm sorry that there are a few bad apples. A person who you thought was a friend but all they seem to care about is power.
What is sad is that they bad mouth us. It's all karma as I've said before. I go on reading journals where people bad mouth me for example: What do I find? They haters will comment and agree that we are childish but then you read messages like this and say thank God they are out of your hair. ;)
EX: A comment that was left in a friends journal::
SYSTEM says: SYSTEM does not compute with flirting. SYSTEM doesn't even know this person to be an intelligent life force. This human has one hell of a mouth.
TheSYSTEM
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SYSTEM says: Example:::
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Vampling (25)
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yea
On 21:19:04 Nov 30 2010 (-0 GMT) TheSYSTEM wrote:
SYSTEM says: SYSTEM is programed to do well. SYSTEM wants to know if you are the intelligence authority for Earth by using your cranium of your species?
On 21:14:17 Nov 30 2010 (-0 GMT) P***** wrote:
Sorry its just a force of habit. Its a habit i'm trying to break. So how are you?
On 21:12:17 Nov 30 2010 (-0 GMT) TheSYSTEM wrote:
SYSTEM says: SYSTEM does not txt talk. :|
On 21:09:02 Nov 30 2010 (-0 GMT) P***** wrote:
Yup. Btw I like the rating stamp that you used. I found it very funny. ^^
On 21:07:12 Nov 30 2010 (-0 GMT) TheSYSTEM wrote:
SYSTEM says: Come in pieces?
On 21:06:00 Nov 30 2010 (-0 GMT) P***** wrote:
hi
On 21:04:09 Nov 30 2010 (-0 GMT) TheSYSTEM wrote:
SYSTEM says: Greetings Earthling child.
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So from all the forum posts of 'lol' and 'XD', you really shouldn't feel bad about this. They run their mouths well. It's not anyone's fault. I mean I was called 'bad blood' and all that but I'm proud of it if it means keeping my honor. Look at the way I type too. You can tell that I'm not that 'stoopid'. ;P Okay that was a joke, I'm not stupid. hahaha I tend to mispell things or add extra E's, O_o , but I can't be all that bad. I have dislexia.
I'm telling you I could write a book right now but I think that in itself is enough for now.
They simply could not accept that I had decided that I no longer wished to be on friendly terms if they didn't cease the flaming towards one of few people that I actually care about.
They didn't grasp that you wouldn't ditch me for them. They didn't understand the concept on "neutral" and I'm really, really sorry that you paid the price.
I watched for months. She used so many people.
Now, in a way, there is nothing more to do than laugh as the Higher-ups cheer.
You must really be obsessed over my every move. SKB. Really, what do you want to know about me?
Another note. Something ended. There is a time to be mutural and a time to start you life. You don't need to be so rude to me. You don't need to call me a bitch. You don't need to have me 'start my shit' You're just an E-momma's boy and a man doggy. I wanted to be the one holding your leash. hahaha. It's fine if I can't.
I don't know how I am. I can't even begin to anwser that. Are you going to yell at me again?
:|
I just don't know. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you can't care for me. I'm sorry that you want me to talk to someone who hates me eventhough they don't want to know me and I don't even know or care if they live. I'm sorry that you can't listen to me. I'm sorry that I even bothered. I give up.
Stop asking me. She's gone. He's gone and I only hope it stays this peaceful. As for those hating at my other profile I have every right to do changes.
Yes I used to hate it but I state on there that you don't have to rate me there. You could give that profile a 1 for all I care. Why don't people read a profile for once?
As for someone who didn't understand me well. I'll try to make it clear. I was sent to that other coven after because someone had a fit. I vented with every name change that I had; that is what I ment by, " Look where I am; I don't care anymore." Not that I was going to break rules. I like rules. ^.^
Someone keeps writing about me in my journal by saying that I'm the bad guy. Believe it or not I had blocked them only because they send me unwanted messages and comment in my journal. They use their friends to block me so it's a matter of them trying to turn things around.
Their journal isn't something that I normaly read because I just don't give a damn but I saw my name so I looked. Apparently you're obsessed with me and another. Good job.
Would it be fun or in bad taste to show you the message that group sent you? Would it be funny to tell you that Jun.. was someone who once told me that since I was an assistant group master that I could kick you if I wanted because in was in my best interest? See, what do you really think of your 'hero' when they talk behind your back? That I could have said , "HELL YEAH I WANNA KICK HER. >:D", I didn't. Not untill you kept talking about me; well from another group anyways. v.v
I can see that people are finding out who the other me is. That comes with all the trash talked about me. It's all well worth it. It shows who true friends are to me.
I really didn't want to have to make another journal entry about this. The blank state of mind will keep up. She's dead to me. As for the friends who helped me last night. Thanks. ^.^ Don't worry about that jerk. He'll go away.
[Made public again. Had to Privet it for a bit. ;) Thanks.]
At this point when some people try to talk, I usualy send them whatever you-tube I was watching. I don't know, it all sounds random but well, here it is. I googled wolves.
You removed my name from your writing and you took down your portfolio. You can stop being brain washed and listen to me for once or you can keep pretending that everything is okay.
I'm not safe with my words to you. It will take a hell of alot of time before I talk again or it might be never. The choice is ours. Though I believe in "Absence makes the heart grow fonder", I must say that it's been too long and you just don't seem to care enough when push comes to shove.
Go ahead and read this today because if you message me then I'm still at a loss for words. :|
As for that guy fuck it. It's over with. Heh, what happened? My friends told me about what had gone on in there? So you kicked everone? Well it's true. My friends did tell me everything.
I'm just a bitch. That is nice to say when people are taking pity on you. Unlike you I'm a legend. haha. Also, I don't worship my coven master. The man is just a friend. What. The. Fuck?
Has the whole God thing really gotten to your head? How will people worship you if you got rid of all your members?
Ugh, I know my other Cm and possibly ACM's will read this but seriously that is so weird. Now I know how my friends felt. How you whine, 'they just hate me cause..' NO! YOU just hate cause..' Just saying.
Also, T_T That frodo from that old coven got her boy toys to block us, Katie. That makes 9 blocks for me and yikes too many for you. x.x
If the sexcapades go as she boasts, there'll be more than keyboards to wipe down...
I'm on 14. So that's... 00.70%.
And with her it was hatred by association. If she didn't like someone, you couldn't either.
So... sorry for being Undesirable no. 2. :P
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Wondering. Waiting. Watching. Just stand true. Just be yourself. Wanting to know if you've taken the poison or if you've taken the right drink of which is pure. That of water.
Mentorship changed. Crest changed. Threads killed. No more talk about the past it's time to move onto the future. It's one hell of a bright future too. Also if any AMM's want to get rid of any mentions about you know what feel free to kill anything that I've missed. Gotta stomp on those spiders.
There is a reason that some people make their photobucket albums privet. That was nasty. x.x I can handle alot but some of that shit gave me the chills. Yuck. I cant believe you play Poke'mon like a normal person.
How are you doing? I'll never ask you that again. Bite me? I think not. I will now turn biting off because of that. x.x
Some people should start over or leave. Acting childish is no way to get anywhere. I mean thinking back on Vampire Kisses, I can say I was just as much of a crazy bitch as you were but still all good things come to an end.
I found this place. Its made me more human than I ever was. Which is ironic because it's a 'vampire' site.
When I had read your journal I saw this entry about how you want people to reach you at so many places. That really sounds so noobish.. in fact, it's funny you may be older but I joined this site before you. Just a fun fact.. anyway, you should really grow up. Not just saying that but I really mean it.
Think about it. Time will go by and you'll be there watching for lets say, a year. Pretty soon people will say, who are you? Well if you can talk then something must have been wrong. o.o 2 years go by.. 5, 7 years, are you still going to be here? Something that everyone must ask themselves at one point. Are you still going to have the same stamp? You have rights and Cancer has rights. He's in charge of the place , he can do anything he wants. You should be thankful that the man made this wonderful site.
So my question to you might be, is that all you want? To talk to people? You can always message them or blast, even webcam people but you choose to bitch about how you got in trouble, maybe boast over it. What do you want to do? Start journal wars? Complain about the people who do their jobs here? I mean there was once a time where I was once a disrespectful little brat, in that amount of time, I grew the fuck up and noticed that Mod's are really more human than the rest of those new 'vampire/monster/lycan' people who join and leave.
You can be queen bitch and become popular but there is always someone to replace you. You're just a fad. Anyone who's ever been popular knows that feeling. You just aren't a lagend.
Rosey P? Seriously what the fuck does the P stand for? I also know that I told you not to call me Rosey. My name is Rose. Guess that's too hard for you to type out.
I hope you read my G0D journal. It's a nice holiday surprise. 8D So did you get off on sending me to Purg? Was it good for you? I love it there. :3 ♥ ♥
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