How do you know when you are falling in love? Is it that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when you kiss them, or the butterflies that you get when you do something as simple as holding their hand and looking into their eyes?
For me to feel this strongly about someone so soon is scary.
I do not trust easy but for some reason this person has all my trust. My heart has been broken a few times and I tend not to get close to people I havent known for a while. He has stolen my heart and doesnt even know it. I would tell him but there is one problem and that would be another woman.
I envy her for being able to hold him at night. Lay beside him when she wants and make love to him. She doesnt know how lucky she really is to be able to tell him she loves him and not have to worry that she is going to scare him off because it is to early. I am terrified that if he reads this he may not want anything to do with me anymore, but that is a chance I am willing to take.
Today was a really hard day for me. It is christmas and I did alot of crying. I thought that this would pass by like a breeze. Not so!!!!!! You know, being with family should be easy. It was one of the hardest days of my life. Having to watch my dad cry watching my little girl and brother play with the toys he got them. Knowing that it would be his last christmas being with them. He is dieing and I have a really bad feeling that it is coming sooner than we all expect. I am terrified that I am going to get a call. Everytime the phone rings, I hesitate to answer out of fear
that it will be my family telling me to come to the hospital. And that this time he will not be coming home.
In the dark I creep, until the moment you fall asleep. With each breath you take , I can sense your heart pulsating blood through your body. I am not the person you thought I was. Lit only by the moon light I can see the veins in your neck ravish with blood. My mouth watering , I bite!
You draw in a breath your eyes open wide then back to the darkness you go, you lay very still, and then it happens .... your eyes open, awake and alert more than you have ever been. You have been bitten and are now going to see many years and people pass you by. Do not fret my love you have been bitten and you will soon know eternal life.
This is for someone that has just recently come into my life, if you read this you know who you are. You are all mine now hahahahah!!!!!!!!
COMMENTS
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witherdlover
09:34 Feb 05 2008
Falling in love is indeed a hard thing, but falling for another womans man is rough. telling him i love him is one of the greatset joys of my life so no worries there as to the rest of it everone needs envy. Once again I will tell you live a happy life because everyone needs a happy life .