Single Digits...wedding countdown continues16:21 Dec 05 2024
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I'm only 8 days away from my wedding....and it still doesn't really feel real.
But I can't wait to not only have His collar, but His ring as well. *-happy sigh-*
What's incredible to me to think about is just how many things in my life finally started to fall into place when I moved out here to Oregon. My military service was finally acknowledged by the VA, as was the fact that I have a service-connected disability, for one, along with all of my other disabilities finally being acknowledged as real. I finally was able to overcome my inability to trust therapists and actually find someone that I trust deeply enough to go to weekly to get the help I need to begin to slowly recover from my lifetime of C-PTSD triggers, someone who is trauma-informed and willing to go slow when I need to. I've actually been seeing my therapist now for 2+ years, weekly.
I've been able to be in a long-time relationship with the perfect person for me, where I know that no matter what happens, we're actually in this together, and despite any friction or fights, He's as invested in this as I am. We're actually going on our third year together, and it just keeps getting better. The irony? I threw out *ALL* of my old relationship rules that I used to hang onto like glue, to be with Him.
The Rules (in no particular order) used to be:
*1 - No one younger than me. *
He's 4 years younger than me in chronological time, but miles ahead of His peers (or my exes! Who are all older than me!) in emotional maturity.
*2 - ABSOLUTELY NO MARINES!!!*
This one comes from my upbringing as part of an Army/Navy family. Unfortunately, the Marine Corps (males in particular) have a reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally bad reputation when it comes to relationships and being serious. However - He's a Marine. And simply by being Himself, He & His family (which has a LOT of Marines in it - including His paternal grandmother) have shown me that not all Marines deserve that reputation, and it has allowed me to learn how to take each one individually & judge them by their actions and only them, not the entire Corps. My friend Heidi started the process many many years ago - Alpha finished it. :)
*3 - No baby mama drama. (Otherwise known as no one with young kids with an ex)*
We're going to have a blended family. My stepson is 7 years old. My teenager is going to be 15. And I never expected to fall in love with His son, just as much as I did with Him. That little guy needs stability in his life - I'm determined to give it to him, since he's not getting it elsewhere. And my stepson loves being with us on our weekends, so much so, that he hates to leave. (Doesn't hurt that we have the kitties.) Both kids get along extremely well, despite the age difference, and have a lot of interests in common. Not to mention that my teenager considers my fiance to be his dad, since my ex is not really around (living in another state and all. But even when we were in the same state, he didn't really parent much. It usually fell on me.)
So I guess the moral for me is not to let my rules get in the way of a good thing - and I'm glad I didn't. If I had, I wouldn't be planning my wedding. Or as happy as I am right now.
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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
02:32 Dec 16 2024
Congratulations! :)