My little sister flew down from Colorado with a friend on the 15th, lastnight they went to spend afew days with our cousins ... and I smoked a joint and a bowl and was going to go to a friends house. Well, shit hit the fan at my friends house (they were all drinking) and so I didn't want to go over and I took 6 pain killers. (there not strong) I passed out an hour later. Well, this morning I woke up at 6, and still felt the pain killers... I took and adderall... I'm supposed to anyway. I felt like shit, I had the worst headache right behind my eyes for 3 hours. and my eyes had a hard time looking at the computers screen...
I was watching the Batman movies, and when it got down to the time when the villain is going to kill the heroes, blah blah blah... and the villains take there time and Batman wins. If I were a villain I would just shoot him, quick to the point, I yell at the TV all the time, Because the take there sweet time then they get locked up. I should write a comic with a smart villain and she wins!
So my friend Andrew and I were talking earlier about dumb shit and then I brought up how I felt about humans and what has been done to the environment. And he told me I was smarter than I let people see, and its true. And this is what he told me "You are a smart girl who likes to play dumb to fit in with the crowd. your afraid to show off your smarts when around certain people because your afraid that they will reject you because your not an idiot like them" So I guess I do, but it because in the long run ignorance is bliss. But it made me feel so much better after he talked to me about that, I was having a hard day and I never feel like anyone really knows who I am or want to be, and it also kinda scared me. The fact that he knew me well enough to say that and it was true.
ded666hed [2:21 PM]: you were talking about how much you wanted to get it cut
ded666hed [2:21 PM]: and now that you have you hate it
SuperNovaSuicide [2:21 PM]: I'm a women
ded666hed [2:21 PM]: lol
ded666hed [2:21 PM]: tis true
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SuperNovaSuicide [2:31 PM]: dont rain on my parade
ded666hed [2:31 PM]: not even acid rain?
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ded666hed [2:32 PM]: why blame is on something beautiful like rain... when you can blame it on something fake like Christianity
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SuperNovaSuicide [2:33 PM]: when the hurricanes come u should stand out side
ded666hed [2:33 PM]: with a metal bucket?
SuperNovaSuicide [2:33 PM]: no silly
SuperNovaSuicide [2:33 PM]: an umbrella
ded666hed [2:34 PM]: lmao
ded666hed [2:34 PM]: I was just about to say
that
SuperNovaSuicide [2:34 PM]: get ur own brain
ded666hed [2:34 PM]: evil, I mean great minds think alike
SuperNovaSuicide [2:34 PM]: lol
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SuperNovaSuicide [2:40 PM]: guess what
ded666hed [2:40 PM]: saying and meaning are
two different things
ded666hed [2:40 PM]: and what?
SuperNovaSuicide [2:40 PM]: butt head
SuperNovaSuicide [2:40 PM]: I never have to deal with andrew telling me he wants to have sex with me any more
ded666hed [2:40 PM]: lol
ded666hed [2:41 PM]: woo hoo!
SuperNovaSuicide [2:41 PM]: do u ?
ded666hed [2:41 PM]: no
ded666hed [2:41 PM]: Im going to Oviedo next year
SuperNovaSuicide [2:41 PM]: he graduated
ded666hed [2:41 PM]: yay
SuperNovaSuicide [2:41 PM]: I thought u 2
hung out?
ded666hed [2:41 PM]: no
SuperNovaSuicide [2:42 PM]: sure
SuperNovaSuicide [2:43 PM]: he was odd
ded666hed [2:43 PM]: very
ded666hed [2:43 PM]: i would have loved to plan a great death demise with you for him
ded666hed [2:43 PM]: that would have been some creative shit right there
SuperNovaSuicide [2:44 PM]: he needs to come out of the closet
ded666hed [2:44 PM]: yeah
ded666hed [2:44 PM]: he does
SuperNovaSuicide [2:44 PM]: ya but I feel bad for him
ded666hed [2:44 PM]: why?
SuperNovaSuicide [2:44 PM]: because, he seems so...
SuperNovaSuicide [2:44 PM]: needey
ded666hed [2:44 PM]: very
SuperNovaSuicide [2:45 PM]: and I feel bad....
ded666hed [2:45 PM]: wow
ded666hed [2:45 PM]: you have emotion
SuperNovaSuicide [2:45 PM]: what?
ded666hed [2:45 PM]: that odd
ded666hed [2:45 PM]: *thats
SuperNovaSuicide [2:46 PM]: u mean that I have compassion
ded666hed [2:46 PM]: theres no way in hell
you have compassion
ded666hed [2:46 PM]: unless
ded666hed [2:46 PM]: its compassion for hatred you have agains someone
SuperNovaSuicide [2:47 PM]: do u think u know me well enough to be making these statements
ded666hed [2:47 PM]: yes
SuperNovaSuicide [2:47 PM]: oh k
SuperNovaSuicide [2:48 PM]: I feel bad because he's so lost, and he was never mean to me, he did creep me out in that date rape kinda thing
ded666hed [2:48 PM]: yeah
SuperNovaSuicide [2:48 PM]: I mean date rape kinda way
ded666hed [2:49 PM]: yeah, I know what you ment
SuperNovaSuicide [2:49 PM]: at least some one does
SuperNovaSuicide [2:49 PM]: I just want him to come out and have happy gay sex with a man
ded666hed [2:50 PM]: what makes you think he hasnt had that already
ded666hed [2:50 PM]: you dont have to come out to have sex
SuperNovaSuicide [2:50 PM]: if he was it wouldnt be happy
SuperNovaSuicide [2:51 PM]: u can't have happy sex with some one if havent come to terms with your self
SuperNovaSuicide [2:51 PM]: and he hasnt
ded666hed [2:51 PM]: yeah
ded666hed [2:51 PM]: that is true
SuperNovaSuicide [2:52 PM]: I know
SuperNovaSuicide [2:52 PM]: see I do know something
ded666hed [2:53 PM]: yes, yes you do
So tomorrow is the first day of summer school, I so don't want to go like at all but I have to. I'm taking Compact, which is sitting on a computer doing work for credits, and listening to music... I'm going to be so board with that, sitting there for 4-5 hours... I hope I dont fall asleep
Like 2 months ago I lost my dads pipe, I told him the dog ate it... lol. He was like Fuck but he didnt care, I on the other hand cant roll a nice Joint, so I cared. I had some one teach me and it took awile but I got good. Today I walk in after being at a friends house for a week, and there it is in my box, along with a little green. I love my dad.
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