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February 12, 2015 4:30 PM



I really should be sleeping right now. I have to get up for work tonight in six-and-a-half hours and my sister will be picking me up immediately afterward tomorrow morning, as I am watching my niece for her all day. And believe me, I’m tired.



So, why am I up and here? I don’t know. I just feel the need to get some things out, I guess, and in a way don’t particularly feel like going to sleep just yet.



I’m having kind of a … down day, I suppose. Nothing particularly devastating is happening, it’s just that I look down the road in life and things just feel … blah.



The dart league isn’t as fun as it used to be. One couple left the team in November, I believe, and a few other original members are either gone or not showing up much. Not that I don't like the people I'm playing with at the moment, but it's just not the same. Couple that with the fact that my game hasn’t been particularly good overall lately and I’m just not enjoying it as much as before.



Things on the work front suck, too. They tried to screw me again in regard to cutting my hours in mid-December. After a big blow-up (which eventually resulted in me actually giving my notice), they asked if I would be willing to work six nights a week with shorter shifts to make up the hours. I agreed, but now am only getting one night a week off. Not that I mind working six shifts, per se, but for the same amount of hours is a real shit deal, in my opinion. I was honestly hoping to find something else fairly quickly - and even had my hopes up a few times - but nobody has called me and that was two months ago.



I’m also down because I wanted to volunteer at a suicide helpline toward the end of last year, but when I looked into it I realized there are none in my city. Figures. There are positions available in another town, but that is about 20 minutes or so away and I don’t have a vehicle.



I’ve been thinking more about launching that new website as well. Writing is one of the only things that makes me feel worthwhile and accomplished, so it may be a good idea. That’s the problem, however: I feel as if I SHOULD do it, it’s not that I have any real desire to. And without the desire, I’m not sure I want to deal with the hassle and stresses that come with running a site.



On top of everything else, a double-holiday weekend begins tomorrow - ugh.



Looking at this entry just now, I guess I had more to write than I thought. Even though the gap between my last one isn’t as long as usual, I actually didn’t realize it had even been this long (four months).



Well, I guess I should go and get that sleep now, huh?