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i am to the point where i dont think i can feel anymore alone. i am

broken, battered and bruised and i fear now it is time for me to move on

and leave everything i once knew. i guess its just like me to leave,

run whatever. everything i built is being torn down around me, and i can

do nothing. except move on and rebuild me from the ground up, doing

what i am meant to do...who would have figured that leaving this would

hurt so much. im sorry to all of you who have had to carry my sorrow. im

sorry to all of those who i have inconvenienced. just know that i

cherish and love all of you. but i fear now is the time for me to break

away and learn just who i am. i feel i am one of the few who can step

into the unknown and start over, without hesitation or fear for that

matter. but nothing really last forever, and well i guess now it comes

my time to say goodbye, for the people in my life will not let me go, or

help me make that decision. i cannot change here, i cannot bloom. my

whole life there are very few things i am meant for, and well being

everything to everyone isn't going to work out. but there is one thing i

am tired of doing, and that is changing, now i am coming to a crossroad

in my life where me and those i love must split up and go our different

ways, we can no longer grow together. but i have loved and respected

this journey all along, as i love and respect you all.



it is a strange feeling to feel as if its time for you to move on for the good

of everyone in your life. im beginning to feel as if i am the problem.

and there is only one way to fix the problem... remove it. perhaps i am

meant to feel this way, travel alone in order to find who i am... fight

my battles and face my demons. maybe i have come to the stretch in my

journey whereas solitude is mandatory or the ones around will be ripped

from your life. you all did none of this to me... its just a brief

realization. came to me in my dreams... showing me that i have to walk

this path alone, in order to find just who and what i am... and

loneliness is no stranger to me. so i will be on my way...