Aphorism - For the Deafened Ear and Veiled Eye.17:59 Jul 09 2012
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Aphorism - For the Deafened Ear and Veiled Eye.
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~aph·o·rist
[af-er-ist]
noun
a person who makes or uses aphorisms.
~aph·o·rism
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noun
a terse saying embodying a general truth, or astute observation, as “Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely” (Lord Acton).
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Moving on...
"Aphorisms are essentially an aristocratic genre of writing. The aphorist does not argue or explain, he asserts; and implicit in his assertion is a conviction that he is wiser and more intelligent than his readers."
--W.H. Auden
I, unfortunately, like to explain. It would seem that I may just like wasting my time and energy. or perhaps I find the lull of my own thinking so overly pleasing that I meander in endless thought over the most useless of things; My Existence, Being and how I behave and act towards others. Nevertheless, staking a claim in being such an interesting type of person, an Aphorist for those of you already lost, is not in the cards just yet.
My life, my world, is an open door. Many walk in and out. Some come in normally, others announce themselves loudly before ever arriving at my door, and yet still, some others like to break down a wall and enter that way. Which is fine, since its all metaphorical anyway.
All are welcome and respected. To a small degree, the increase in respect is to be earned. But I am civil and show courtesy as I would enjoy similar treatment. Alas, when I am not you will very soon find out that being a part of my life will be a very confrontational and irritating experience. Since I don't take kindly to any sort of attempts to take advantage of me or ridicule me.
Now... The meat of this piece... You decide that I am worth nothing to you and that walking out of my life is easy, next to you wiping your arrogant nose, then be warned: I do nor say anything that I at any point in my life will ever, ever regret. Why? well... that's the trick isn't it? And not at all the point of my "assertion". I let you in because I thought I could benefit from your existence. Yes, I'll be cold in my description, no point in adding emotion to plain, hard, axioms.
You can mean something to me, or you can be a story of how I learned something new about myself and how I will, from that point on, deal with people such as yourself. Either way, I reap a benefit. Whether or not you are there to share in the benefit is absolutely up to you.
Lo and behold, you step out of my life and years or months later decide that you are bored and wish my company to entertain you for a short while because something lacks in your current choice of living, or something in your life has taken a break from you. Oh, i'll be civil and even more or less welcoming. Then you move on to tell me how I've changed. No. you have changed my perception of you, and thus I mold myself accordingly so that I may shield myself from your childish lashings for when they occur. There is no second chance. I've already stuck my hand in the fire. I know it's very pretty, and I know it burns.
I let you leave, and I let you return. I don't force you to do a damn thing... nor even attempt to guide you in a decision that will benefit me. That would be a hollow move on my part, and I have my pride.
All in all... you hurt yourself. Don't come expecting me to tell you its alright. Because it isn't. Your childish antics and naive decision making while the truth is in front of you, is an unforgivable act. You've branded yourself in my eyes and heart, forever.
If the past doesn't serve as enough proof, let me be more clear. You clearly ask of me to clear and cut you from my memory. I will bow, turn and whisper into the wind, "As you wish..." That is my thought. That is my promise, that is my Honor. The length of silence means nothing to me when I'm not the one who's chosen it.
And like I've said before, if in my life I am to take a step forward and you do not wish it to be along side you, then trust and believe I will step Over you. Or if need be, I will Step on and crush you, so that I may move forward and learn from what it felt like to need to tread on your existence.
So understand what you ask of me, and rest assured you will receive it. Because that is all I can give you as my last respectful act as a friend or companion.
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They say that Conviction is a Luxury reserved for those far from battle. I respectfully call bullshit. There is no reason to ever let yourself think something if you are not actually affected by it. In Turn... if doesn't strike a personal chord, shut the fuck up and move along.
I know what I feel when I make a decision and I know why I have the beliefs that I do. Do you? Or were you taught to systematically and automatically react to things, just because they are morally acceptable or unacceptable in your clique? If you can't think for yourself, don't make a decision that affects many. That is called self serving. A selfish and childish way to live life. Affecting, hurting and consuming others, as you have YET to find yourself as a person, and a human being. If you are lost, so be it. But that doesn't mean drag everyone else along with you. A walking contradiction, is a walking disaster. Homes cannot be built where catastrophe tends to make its bed.
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