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18:01 Apr 30 2019
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Everyone has bad days...
Everyone has their own set of difficulties...
We all try our level best to live through the day..
But life always has a way to bring us down...
In this time of peril...
On such a day...
If you have a true friend...
Who can simply say...
Dude chin up, do not worry...
This is just another day...
It shall pass and you'll later be
laughing about how sad you felt
and how it was just another day
Life will always give you problems...
Life will always drain you out...
But if you got that friend...
No one can ever fade you out...
No matter how much they try...
Your friend will always be by your side
to tell you and remind you once again...
That it's just another day
It shall pass....
Today I do not pray for anything else...
Not for happiness freedom or life.
All I have to pray for...
Is my friends stay by my side...
Always helping me up...
Laughing at me for falling but...
Always being there...
As a reminder...
That it shall pass....
Yet another day.
Thank you Sippa, HannahRose, HellsingHQ, FoxFire, MasterofMadness, LordMogy, NeroTheSable..... Glad to have you guys in my life.... I never wanna lose you.... I love y'all too much! *hugs*
10:07 Apr 21 2019
Times Read: 423
No matter how much I try
No matter how much I cry
No matter what happens to me
I know that you care about me
But the fact that you are so far
Makes me feel alone
Loneliness... solitude... fear..
Emotions I hold too dear
Why, you may ask
Coz they are ones I know too well
They have always been with me...
My sole Companions...
We are in different time zones
Which adds to my misery
I love you a lot I promise
But oh so much I can bear
It just hurts that's all
That despite my tolerance to the abuse
I am on the brink of giving up when its about us
I hate not being able to be there
With you waking up in your arms
This distance is killing me
Making me loose my mind
Not being able to have you here
Is my worst regret
Solitude is all I know
Solitude is all I feel
I love you... you know that...
But I do not know if I can keep this up
Or how long I can keep it up for
Keep pretending all is okay
Keep forcing myself to breathe everyday
I love you and I always will
But this distance is killing me...
I love you daddy.. I am yours...
Forever and always
No
17:54 Apr 15 2019
Times Read: 449
No,
I do not expect,
I do not want to,
I do not have to,
No
You should not
It is not
You are not
You don't
Honestly
I know this doesn't
make sense to you right now
But it will
As soon as you understand how
empty, incomplete, unwanted
I felt every time I melted
into tears of sorrow, grief and resentment
I never wanted this to be
my life, I just preferred if we
Could somehow part ways and forget each other
But i knew with time that you wont let go
That you of all people did know
How with time you had shattered me
and pulled me down too immensely
Enough to make me feel worthless and ashamed
Ugly, Crazy and anything else you could name
With time I started to believe too
That all you said was indeed true
That I truly was worthless and insignificant
And you did nothing but a favor to me
By beating me, torturing me emotionally and physically
You made me believe that it was all I deserved daily
But now I know, Oh I do know...
All you did to pull me down low
So you could sit on my head and enjoy
Coz you were sick and treated me like your toy
torture.. pain.. suffering... sex... that's all i knew
Coz you made it so But no..
Not anymore... I am done
Done with your lies
done with your bullshit
I know my worth
And I know that
I deserve the respect and the world
something you could never give me
I need to get out.... I know i do
And I will... coz this is my life
And NO I will not let you ruin me again.
I will NOT let anyone like you run over me again.
Enough has been broken... that will never mend
But with time I shall teach myself to live with a broken soul
You will not be there to see it
You will not be there to torment me...
I AM DONE!
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COMMENTS
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FoxFire
18:19 Apr 30 2019
-big hug- Don't forget how fierce you are!
LORDMOGY
18:19 Apr 30 2019
XxNerotheSablexX
20:35 Apr 30 2019
always here fr you dear c:
sippa
04:47 May 01 2019
in the darkest night, we are your light
hannahrose
11:12 May 01 2019
I LOVE YOU BUNCHES AND I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU, NO MATTER WHAT. STAY STRONG AND KNOW YOU AINT ALONE, NO MATTER HOW HARD THINGS BECOME. HUGS, I AM SORRY LIFE HAS BEEN SO HARD FOR YOU.I AM PROUD OF THE COURAGE YOU SHOW.