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13 years ago today everything seemed so right.. I had my best friend & my first love in my life.. Even though you were a few hours away you were still mine.. I didnt know that I only had a few more short days with you until i would lose you for good in this life.. You were the first male to treat me with respect, look deep within my soul.. You were my shoulder to cry on, my hands to hold me up when I felt so weak.. I truly miss you & wise just for a moment I could go back to being 13 when I still physically had you in my life.. When I could hear your voice and caress your cheek.. Its the small things that we had that ment & still do mean so much to me.. I know your watching over me, I know your still protecting me, I know your watching over my child who was taken from me while in my womb Sept 29, 2006.. I wish you could be here to put your arms around me and to hear you tell me you love me even just for a few moments.. I lost a major piece of my life when I lost you.. I still cant believe that you've been gone for almost 13 years.. It seems like just yesterday that e got the phone call from your mom about what had happened... My life fell apart the day you died.. Ever so slowly my life builds back up.. But thats only because for the first time in 13 years I dont blame myself for what happened for us all to lose you.. I loved you then, I love you still.. I always have, I always will..