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ever since i was little, i used to wish i was in a fantasy world, where people can do actual magic :p ( like on tv, not wiccan magic which as you should know i believe is real) and where you fall in love, and live happily ever after :( where your heart couldnt get broken and where you cant break any1's heart, i just wish i could live in the place that exsists only in my mind... only in my dreams, a little place called "perfect".... but sadly perfect is just another fantasy, just another reality one can only grasp whence day dreaming....this life doesnt feel REAL anymore... like i have no control over my actions... like im watching myself from sumwhere way up high, or very far away... like my soul is floating amoungst the clouds, while my body is down below, confused and lonely. i wish i had some sort of sign about what to do...a guardian angel to point me in the right diretion... :( but i am alone...my life, my choices... with no prince to slay the evil beast that is reality, and take me away to my own "happily ever after"

oh god... well first off im really not into an xmas mood... or any other holiday for that matter. :( im all up for break tho, and yeah so anyways... ive been getting bad vibes... i think my 2 best friends might start dating... and then everything will be akward.... exspecially if they break up.... its going to tare us apart...its already starting :'( its not like i dont want them to date... its just that i can already tell that we're not gonna be friends by the end of the year... since they already told eachother they like eachother, i guess its all down hill from here.... i dont know what to do, even now it will be akward :'( grrrr.... so yeah i dunno..im not feeling too well right now

methods of Love....



+kiss on the ear--------------------"i'm horny"

+kiss on the cheek-----------------"we're friends"

+kiss on the hand------------------"i adore you"

+kiss on the neck-------------------"we belong together"

+kiss on the shoulder--------------"i want you"

+kiss on the lips---------------------"i love you" or "i want you"

+holding hands-----------------------"we can learn to love each other"

+a wink---------------------------------"Let's get it on"

+slap on the butt---------------------"thats mine"

+playing with the ear----------------"i can't live without you"

+holding on tight---------------------"don't let go"

+looking into each other's eyes---"let's get romantic"

+playing with hair on head---------------"tell me you love me"

+arms around the waist -----------"i love you too much to let go"



=advice=

if you're kissing someone, close your eyes. it's not nice to stare...

me and my mom got in a fight last night...she threatend to kick me out of the house.... i know she'll do it... but i have no where to go :'( so im scared of what ill do.... you know the whole " never know when yer last meal is coming" thats kinda what it feels like

why is death so cruel? and why does it oft take those most deserving of life? why does it seem to take the sweetest flowers in the garden? *sighs* an old friend of my family died on monday...its very devastating, and i cannot attend her funeral :( well i hope shes moved on and she is in "heaven" with her god, i just shall lastly say this, i love you, i miss you, and im sorry i couldnt say goodbye kay





~Lydia