I hate that my parents can't possibly understand what I'm going through. How could they? They've never gone to college, they don't understand what it's like to question and doubt. I'm in my third year of college and I just changed my major back to theatre. I took a year and declared "undecided" and attempted to finish my basics. I have to have a a minor in order to graduate and I thought about changing my minor to psychology instead of communications. I only took one class for communications so I knew I wasn't messing anything up. I decided to share this news with my family. I told them I had thoughts about changing my minor and that's when everything blew up in my face.
"How long will it take you to graduate?"
"This costs money!"
"You need to start making up your mind and stick with something."
So on and so forth...
My rebuttal,
"Everyone changes their mind throughout college it's natural. It's just my minor not like I'm changing my major again. I enjoy psychology and sociology more than I do communications so, I think I want to minor in it."
"They just tell you that to get your money! You need to figure out a way to graduate in two years. And now you've wasted money on a class you don't need."
I guess it's my fault for actually thinking they could possibly understand. If I hadn't have transferred, I probably would be graduating by December, but at this university, I have to do so much more and almost everything I took before, it didn't really give me a leg up over here. It's not that my credits didn't transfer, it's that they ask for more.
I feel horrible because no one in my family understands. Then, they said to me,
"Maybe you shouldn't have rushed off to school then. Maybe you should have taken a year off until you were really ready."
That hurt... a lot. We all knew that was never an option for me. I knew I was going to go to school it's just that as I got older, uncertainty and doubt came up and I didn't know what to do. I still don't know. I know that as of right now, I want to major in theatre but what if that changes? What if something else comes along that makes me happier and that I'm good at...?
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