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Ever had one of those days where it's gone by smoothly and everything went very well and yet, you have this angry feeling eating at you inside? I feel that way today and I can't understand why. Nothing in my dream would lead me to feel this way but here I am; sitting with furrowed brows and slightly clenched fists. I just feel so angry and it seems like nothing is coming around to make me feel better. I'm done..

Again I'm lacking on my dreams but I don't feel like putting them here. I'm just sick and tired of my room mate being a passive, aggressive bitch. In all honesty, I haven't done anything; I don't provoke or do anything to piss her off. I go about my business because life goes on. She knows I don't like her and that's it. But when she starts talking shit about me that makes me want to rip off her face and feed it to her. If anything it's my other room mate that's provoking her and I just let people do what they gotta do. I lost a friend to this bitch because they're so... God, I don't even know what. Not my problem you can't handle being by yourself for too long, that you always need to be with someone. Make peace with your solitude. They've both become shit talkers and my friend said she hates those kinds of people actually they both said that. How ironic they have become what they hate. I don't talk shit about them to anyone unless it's through here. My room mate vents to me about it and I'm not going to tell her to stop. She's shit talking via Twitter and maybe Facebook (I deleted her off my facebook and blocked her on Twitter) I don't understand why people just can't let things be and move on. I moved on, I do what I need to do but her....she's something else. I really wish I didn't lose my friend but she's around her so much she's starting to look like her. Tragic really. Oh well, c'est la vie.

Ah, after a week of not remembering a single dream, I remember last night's clearly. I was a fighter. I was the best at what I could do and I was praised for such. :] I remember looking for a guy that these "tough guys" kidnapped and let's say that were beaten to pulp when I was done with them. My fighting was known to people in a secret society so on the surface I was an ordinary person who worked at a law firm. (so odd I know.) I remember there being a flower.. it looked like a lily and it was on my door step. I walked into my apartment and then I woke up. I love how in dreams, every little thing is a cliffhanger.

I slacked all last week on my dream entries but I doubt this week will be any better. I have written anything because I can barely remember them and last night was no exception. Oh well, not like anyone reads these things anyway.



On a lighter note, my birthday is in two weeks!! :D I'm stoked!

I don't remember much of what happened in my dream last night. I remember starting the shower at I had my towel wrapped around my body and I was searching for Scrubs on the TV and then running water sounded weird like someone was in the shower which freaked me out then I woke up. I'm guessing something other things happened in my dream since all my pillows were pushed to the corner except for one lying mangled looking at the end of my bed. Can't remember my dream from Monday... this week it's just been hard to remember them. Ah, c'est la vie.

Ok, I didn't write about my dream from Saturday because I was in an inebriated condition from the night before and cannot remember what it was. Last night, I didn't sleep all too well because I was bothered so sorry for the lack of dream updates.



Though, this is more than just an apology for my lack of dream journals this is also an peeved journal. I can't take it anymore!! I believe they (I haven't mentioned them before) purposley always hang at my apartment just to get under my skin. Seriously, she has her own apartment go hang there instead. What sucks even more is that it's her birthday tomorrow so they'll probably be celebrating it here at midnight. I can't stand her or her anymore. I didn't used to dislike her this much but I don't like the person she's changed into since she's been hanging out with her. Inside, I'm just like, "Get the fuck out! Go somewhere else! I don't care where just go somewhere else!" But no, I'm containing myself because I feel that that is the exact reaction they are trying to coax out of me. I will contain my composure. I'm livid! I'm disgruntled! I'm angry!! I feel like a raging animal is inside me right now and it just needs that one little thing to release the lock and run rampant. It sounds terrible, but I can see myself ripping them apart; limb from limb! I will remain calm but I'm glad they will be two people who will not re-enter my life.

Alright I know I didn't right my dream yesterday, just forgot to get around to it, just take my word on it that it wasn't anything exciting. Last night I was being hunted again and someone tried to sue me for something I couldn't have possibly done. There was a sleep over commencing at my gorgeous, expensive looking house with friends from my old university and we did tarot cards and I remember talking about some guys that I used to like once upon a time ago and my boyfriend showed up with his best friends and one of them was Paul Wesley and we were kind of awkward because apparently we used to have something but we didn't tell my boyfriend and it was just weird. I have no idea why he keeps popping up in my dreams..

Ok, last night's dream I was moving around a lot because I was a secret agent and I couldn't keep friends to save my life but I was ok with that. I realized that I didn't need them and they didn't really need me. What on earth could my subconscious be trying to tell me? ;D