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So I am 22 years old and have always dated men. I didnt grow up in a tradtinal family. I have bisexual and gay friends and family. The only things Ive done is innocently/jokingly kissed girls and in my early teens curiously touched and was touched by a friend while bathing(it wasnt a sexdual thing). I have always been attracted to wemon though. I remember asking my childhood friend to be my girlfriend when I was probly 8 (innocently though lol) and had a crush on my best friends growing up clear though my teens. My first kiss was a girl my first crush was a girl. Ive been attracted to girls since I can remember being attracted to anyone. Dont get me wrong I like guys and definately enjoy sex with guys which then leads me to the thought Could I enjoy being with a woman? Could I get used to not having the real thing?... I have toys and just dont enjoy them as much as I enjoy the real deal but could it just be Im not getting th right toys? I have always felt like something in my sex life was missing which has led me to try quite abit of differant things (only with men though) and yes it is fun but all my fantasies or what gets me going always goes straight to wemon or a guy and a girl at th same time. Im also worried about what ifI really like girls but cant go without being with guys or girls? Sometimes I feel like its just cause Im curious other times I feel like this is just me. And even if I decided to try and be with a girl where do I start? Its not like bisexuals and lesbians walk around with it stamped on their head lol. Then there is that I wouldnt want anyone to know not cause its bad but because what if it really isnt my thing. My family and friends would go wild. When I got to my midteens some of my family would tell me I was going to be a lesbian which accually just made things worse cause I was afraid they could see that I was attracted to girls and that I was gonna be what they said I would be which had they told me I was straight I probly would have wanted to prove them wrong too lol. I have had so many other thoughts run through my head but I cant possibly process them all at one time. Is it this confusing for most people?