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People walk around smiling and laughing all the time. They go out with friends. They go on dates. They go shopping or exploring. Yet... Some of those smiles and laughs may be fake. Forced. Those activities they partake in may have taken a lot of effort. They may have preferred staying at home, in bed, away from everyone else.



People with depression can be experts at hiding their true feelings, even from people who are close to them. Some never open up to anyone, keeping everything bottled up inside. And those people around them may never know until it's too late. Perhaps they may have noticed if they really paid attention. Or maybe not. But sometimes... a person silently pleas, hopes, wishes, that someone notices. Anyone. Just one person. They may give very small, subtle hints, messages. And sometimes those little hints, those messages, are indeed noticed by someone.



I speak about this from personal experience. I have friends who suffer from depression. Some who I just recently met. And I met them because I suffer from depression as well. I believe I've been dealing with this for over 10 years. I just recently opened up about it. Mainly because someone close to me noticed I wasn't being honest to anyone, especially myself. He noticed that I have reached an extremely low and so very dark place in my life. I reached that place many, many years ago. But I ignored it. Then a little over a year ago when I was deployed to Afghanistan, I reached that place again. And I told myself I was out of it when I got back last November. Boy, was I wrong... I started going to a therapist in February. It was helping a little. However, it didn't help enough. Eventually I got to the point where I could barely function at work. I found very few reasons to live...almost to the point that I was done with it all. But... Someone convinced me to get some more help. The same someone who noticed my depression before.



I'm nowhere near being where I want to be. And it'll probably take a while for me to get there. But it has helped to open up about it. Even though I was kinda forced to receive more help from my leadership here at the base, but still...



To anyone else suffering from depression... You're not alone. Even if you feel as though you are.



***I did not write this for attention. This is just a matter I feel strongly about. Hence the post. And my decision to become a psychiatrist.***

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AutumnNightshade
08:53 Sep 09 2014

I just wrote two posts about it from my eyes. *raises hand* I'm depressed too.

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Schnickerfritzchen
17:03 Sep 09 2014

I'll have to read your posts later! I didn't realize how many people go through this until I opened up

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hannahrose
06:47 Sep 11 2014

YOU HAVE MY FULL UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND SUPPORT ALWAYS. I BELIEVE IN YOU 2000% AND I AM HERE FOR YOU ANYTIME YOU NEED SUPPORT. I AM SORRY YOU HAVE BEEN HURTING SO MUCH BUT YOU ARE NOT ALONE , YOU GOT PLENTY PEOPLE AROUND YOU THAT LOVE YOU AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU AND OF YOUR COURAGE FIRST AS A SOLIDER THAT YOU WOULD RISK YOUR LIFE OT PROTECT YOUR COUNTRY AND COMMON EVERYDAY FOLK LIKE ME. I AM PROUD OF YOU AND YOU SHOULD BE SO PROUD OF YOURSELF. IT TAKES COURAGE TO FACE YOUR PROBLEMS AND ESPECAILLY TO ADMIT THAT FIRST TO YOURSELF AND THEN TO GO AND ASK FOR HELP. LOVE YOU BUNCHES. XX

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