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I've spent the day doing nothing more than thinking on the future and browsing various shopping locations. Two things that, sometimes, do not mix well with me as the past can be quite horrowing.



A majority of thoughts were based of future events and pleasantries that I can barely hold myself back from my excitement. Others, however, make me quite sad and even cry at times... It just so happens that today was one of those days that carried with it the bad alongside the good.



Today's depressing memories centered around a the fact that friends of mine that have died will never be able to marry or have children or anythig else that I am currently able to do... and that in itself saddens me as I've lost friends that were even younger than I. And those are the ones that I think on today.



As Mykael and I prepare for our Yuletide and begin plans of the Handfasting sort, I think back on two specific people of who I will never forget as long as I shall live. Jessica and Zach. Both of them died long before their time, in my opinion, eventhough I know that they were only here as long as they were meant to be.



Both Zach & Jess died before they hit the age of 18 in an automobiloe accident. Both were D.O.A. I attended both viewings, but could not stomach to go through with their burials because my heart was broken enough.



They were always the ones who would laugh and say "Smile Goth Girl, it'll only confuse those who don't know you." And they were right....



As Mykael and I move closer to our celebrated date, I always stop and wonder if those loved ones will be with us, and then he reminds me that, yes, they will all be right there at out sides, shining in our gloomy light.



So I say goodnight to my darling angels and prepare the spaces for them to join my love and I at our Handfasting of Souls.





Rest In Peace my darling loves, you will never be harmed again...



Jess

Zach

Sophie

Shea







~Scarlette

Well, it's good to be back.



That is the first and foremost thing that I must say, because it IS good to be back. It's like coming home after a very long and exhausting trip with nothing but bumps and pot-holes and drunken hitch-hikers dressed as clowns with a bottle of booze plastered in one hand and a porno magazine in the other.



Ok, probably not quite that exagerated, but it has been a very trying experience. However, throughout all that has been accomplished & demolished, I have wound up back here once again. That's got to count for something.



I believe it's been about a year, if not longer, since I've been on here. No, I think it has been exactly a year. Whichever, there have been quite a few significant changes in my lyfe since then.



I am now, officially, engaged to a wonderful Wytch named Mykael, of whom I share an amazing bond with not only physically & mentally, but spiritually, 'sub'culturally, religiously and sanguinarian-ly. Anyway, we are set to 'tie the knot' in a handfasting-style (go figure) at some point during the fall of 2012. *gasp*



Other than that, I've finally freed myself of my destructive demons and have truly begun writing once again. And let me tell you (whomever, if anyone who is reading this) it is an absolutely orgasmic feeling. A surge of pent-up energy that is finally free to flow onto pages or typed onto a computer, whichever one may be closer.



I've also finally acquired a steady job. A reliable, steady job, nonetheless. Granted, it's only a part-time, minimum-wage, retail-hell, but its some sort of income to pay the monthly bills, so I'm happy with it.





However, I'll cut this entry short, for now, and finish working on the rest of my profile to complete my 'move back home'. I may even add some old-newish poetry & some fotographs. Who knows.







Blessed Be.





~Scarlette

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LadyDarkRayne
05:27 Nov 18 2009

and of course we are happy to see you back !

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atyourwindow
09:08 Nov 18 2009

awesome, and yeah it sure is good to have ya back ^.^

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