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I looked into your eyes.

You gazed right through me.

Like I wasn’t even there.



From the looks you gave.

It’s like nothing mattered.

Seemed you could care less.

You were too caught up in you.



I guess I believed.

Maybe you were different.

And now I see.

I was wrong.



Don’t know if it’s just me.

And maybe these feelings are jading.

But I feel as though.

I’ve been forgotten.



Your touch was cold.

Speech was freezing.

The glare was so unpleasing.



Could be in my head.

My imagination playing games.

But I swear.

I’m not halluncinating.



Have I been forgotten?



Maybe I believed.

That you were different.

Perhaps I was wrong.



Have I been living a fantasy?

Pinch myself to see.

It’s so real.

So why do I feel, so alone?



I just feel...

Forgotten.

The pain that crowds my soul.

Is the pain I planted alone.

My worst deeds toward you.

They haunt me forever.



I'm drowning in the pain.

The agony I placed upon you.

I'm screaming out.

You fail to hear me.



I can't apologize anymore.

There's nothing to apologize for.

I know you don't hate me.

Yet I fear you don't like me.



It tears me apart.

That I hurt you so bad.

Now I'm reaping what I've sown.



So, I sit and wallow in my pain.

The pain I drew up alone.

And hope one day.

Maybe things will get better.



Just until then.

I gasp for air.

In the misery I rained down.

These tears they fall.

With no reason.

Confusion stumbles through my head.

Trying desperately.

To make sense of it all.



I don't know why.

My eyes are raining.

I feel emptiness inside.

A big hole.

A huge noticable void.



I feel scared.

For unknown things.

Keep asking myself questions.

But receive no answers.



I'll sit here and cry.

Hoping some kind of info springs about.



Get the feeling.

Of something or someone.

Crushing my heart.

But no who? or why?



Maybe my longing.

Has become too much.

Maybe it's eating me up inside.

I don't know.



So, I'll continue to cry.

And maybe I'll have an answer.

In the end.

I've tried so hard.

Not to fuck up again.

Let the past be gone.

But it doesn't seem good enough.



I feel as though.

I'm hanging off the ledge.

Falling, about to slip.

Reaching for your hand and help.

And your stepping on my fingers.



I cry out.

But you just drown me out.

Don't know what else to do.

So, I'm giving up.



I'm sorry for the past.

It was selfish and wrong of me

And I thought we let it go.

But I guess I was wrong.



I'm cursed because of her.

And it hurts like fucking hell.

I miss you.

I miss the fun we used to have.



I'd give anything in the world.

To be back to the way we were before.

But I know it can't ever be.

So, I'm letting go.



This is my good-bye.

I'm letting you go.