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20:38 Nov 15 2010
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Bitter Sweet Memories
17:24 Nov 03 2010
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Even though my profile says I have been here for 1 year now..it's kind of a funny story..because I have been on this site for about 3 years now..and this used to be a HUGE part of my life for about a solid year..but things happened.. You know life takes a hold of you sometimes and this site became one of those things that wasn't important to me as it had been the first time around.
I originally discovered Vampirerave.com after a friend showed me back in 2006..and I wasn't into it at first so I left and came back the following summer 2007..and I really got addicted fast and I met some amazing people who really changed my life. I was going through some hard times and I was pretty much walking through life not really doing anything..just living day by day..no goals no faith in anything..
The Rave litterly became the only thing I really had..my family was a mess..my mother was a heavy alcoholic at the time and my younger brother is autistic and my job was to take care of him (which I never minded I love my brother and I would do anything for him) and my dad really had no power over anything..So the people I met here were my family...
I mean it was great truly was. I met some awesome people and had some great memories..
There were a select few though that I felt closer to then anything. I mean I felt for the first time in my life that I was understood..and that I had found people who would be in my life..and these were people I also had met outside of the rave as well..so it wasn't all online..
But unfortunately nothing lasts forever and things started to fall apart...the coven who I had made my new family with had closed and we all were scattered to new places..some of us together..and we tried to pick up the pieces again, but it never was the same..
I still held on tight to some of the friendships, but something happened and those friends let go..and it litterly killed me..I mean it still hurts today because they totally just stopped and it was so sudden..and it was like being dumped by someone you had total faith in and you never saw it coming...
So I again tried to make new friendships on the rave, but it didn't work..didn't feel the same..so I deleted my profile..
I still have one close friend here today who has been by my side and never walked out..she is the true friend..the one everyone wants and needs..it just took me a while to fully understand that..and I couldn't have asked for more..
I cam across one of my old friends profiles and I read the old journal posts and the good times we used to have..and it left a sting on my heart..I mean you never know how things are going to end up..and I don't regret anything, I love who I am today and all those memories and experiences are all a product of who I have become..and I have found my true friends..who won't walk out
It's just a bitter sweet feeling..I am happy the way things have come around but the pain I suffered after and during those times are something I will never forget..
Movin' on Up!
17:21 Nov 02 2010
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Your Status: Irritater (Level 16)
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One change I really do enjoy is the new levels and names :p
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