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I am just a failure,

at the thing i want to do.

i just cant get my shit striaght,

look wht i did to you.



I am just a failure,

as your friend and so much more,

I am just the loser,

stuck just outside your door.



I am just a failure.

I lost the friends i had.

I thought i could be normal,

but thats not where i stand.



I am just a failure,

a freek who lost his friends.

samantha and dozens more,

i guess its just the end.

cute my throat

the blade willl slip

the salvations key

a gore covered grip

the sound of rushing

the blood it flows

soon to slumber

no debts to owe

alwasy screaming

lifes the same

the pains all over

as my blood does drain/

the devil danced upon a hill,

and judge mans value.

he called me close and grbbed my sruff

he demanded what he was due

But i laughed at the devil

and grbbed his throat..

and said fool...I am really you

the spliting sound is the key,

the last sound in the beggining of a new life...

a new life

found on the shores of a crimsion river.....

the one that starts at my wrist and ends in a bathtub drain

checkers, chess games of chance,

none are worse then those,

people play with one another.

formed into nothing by rage,

true pain takes physical shape..

when you threw me away..

unwanted

disgusted

abandoned

One:

The pebbles underfoot,

are the one thing i feel,

the path that guides me --

when my sense of direction is gone,

and all roads lead back to you.



Two:

Signs of progress are all around me,

concrete on steel

my foosteps act as book makrs to a history,

that noone wants to rember.



Three:

There are times i long for

simplicity

a return to a time

when the stars were our guides.

Where faith held its own convictions.

But I know

I am the last person to talk

my ipod ran out of juice and I inspiration.



Four:

I love nature

I buy a life thats biodegradeable,

and lead an emissions free life.

I love nature

So much so I killed it

justifiable homicide

to halt the murder of my organic tomatoes.

I love nature

So I poisioned it



Five

The world i live

is a perfect place -

where the destitue,

and the offspring of affluence share the same park bench.

Myspace driven toys and the search for home,

both clinging to the only life they know.



Six

I live in a city of order

lines of us for like pilgrems to worship.

We stand before the Gods of consumerism

side by side people

the homeless and the ordered

lineing up in a sequence,

of who gets to sleep closest to the back door of Starbucks.



Seven



A man should be able to see refuge

inside his own head.

The space defined by this

benevolent God king's desires -

but what does one do when your subjects revolt?