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My life as of lately has been completely crazy. Love life has been torn to shreds, leaving me breathless and heartbroken. So now the process of healing has slowly begun, somedays i dont know where to turn, what to do, who to confide in. Other days its easier, i just need to get to the point in life where i can say im happy to be me, and im happy to be alone at least for the time being. Of course someday i want a real love who doesnt? But the focus is in the wrong areas at the moment, and the focus needs to be brought back to me... wish me luck guys this maybe a little tough.

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toxicbite23
05:59 Sep 30 2011

I am sorry to hear that you are having problems with life at the moment, but I know that you can and will pull through.



Yes it will take time.. as all things do and I hope that you find someone worthy of your love and trust.



Toxic

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Dont people realize that there important in others lives? Whether your a son or a daughter, a husband or a wife, you have people that love and care for you. So why go and do things that will leave you in trouble for life? I dont understand people and the actions they make, i never will. I just hope and pray that they learn from their actions and have some sense of peace down this road we call life.

getting back to myself will most likely be the best thing for me right now. My religion like i said before is wiccan and well i plan to dive deep into its murky depths to figure not only it out but myself out as well. As of lately i dont know really who i am anymore, i need some sense of direction. Also some inner peace would be nice too. If you guys have any pointers on how i can do this please feel free to message or let me know, im extending a hand for some help..wont you help me?

As time passes in our society many things change, living habits, styles, ideas, there are advances and of course setbacks. One of the major ideas that comes to mind to me anyway is the simple fact that over the last half decade the simple idea of love has even changed, for better? for worse? As a liberal arts major many of my studies dived deep into sociology, psychology, philosophy, and so on. Statistics show that the divorce rate is nearly 50% half of all marriages will end within the first 3-5 years...what happened to the idea of till death do us part? Apparentlly were all dying alot quicker nowadays because it seems many couples make these vowels and yet do not follow them .. In my personal opinion marriage is a sacrement that is shared between two people and is special, i myself have nothing against marriages between any type of couple whether straight or gay, what i am against is the idea of love simply for the sake or some type of benefit. So in the end what really is love? is love a physical connection? An emotional connection? Both? Or is love just two people occupying the same space at the same time? In my opinion and ive seen many marriages fail including both my parents who have been married several times and yet still dont appear to be happy. Can one actually be happier without this extra baggage? maybe individuals should start focusing on theirselves maybe then love will just find its way to sneak in, and for all the right reasons be a love that lasts for a lifetime. I myself have been through a few relationships thought they were the real deal, only to realize people are gonna say anything to benefit themselves, whether its at the expense of your health, or happiness. Love is such a strong word, so strong most individuals cant even define it. Yet the concept is so simple, love to me is a physical and emotional bond one forms for another after spending time developing a relationship together. It usually starts as just aquaintances that may pass through eachothers lives every once in awhile. Usually some attention whether physical or emotional is present. One or both of the individuals acts on these feelings and the other becomes aware right away, they may go for it, or see the train crash that lies ahead if they take that one step in the direction being opened up to them. If a foundation is laid with respect, loyalty, trust, caring, then surely a love will blossom, but if any of these pieces are missing the whole apsect of love once again becomes complicated. By this point the individual is in the relationship for all the wrong reasons. The reason most relationships, marriages, end is due to infidelity, lack of communication, or just plain ignorance. Love is a beautiful concept yet so many individuals make love seem like a curse thats just waiting to sink its venomous fangs into your skin. I myself look for all these pieces of the puzzle before i even consider getting myself involved with someone, i have to know if there truly there for the right reasons, and of course what their ideas of love are. So many times during my life i have tried to walk the path of "love" only to see the lights flashing before me, and witness the crash that follows afterwards. By that point im numb, all emotions hitting me at the same time, eyes focused on the wreckage that stands before me, now i must go about this wreckage in search of anything that maybe salvaged, and many times only a pile of burning slag remains. Im left to wonder the world with a broken heart, a heart that beats to be "loved" but bleeds from the so called "love" it has recieved. By this point in time i might as well be a spirit wondering the earth in search of my killer, or for some type of release from what holds me to the world that floats beneath my feet. Love to me is both a joy, and a burden. At times love seems to be the sweet smell of a rose, at other times love seems to form shackles around my legs and arms keeping my captive, no way out. Love is of course what you make it, so why do so many individuals make love out to be such a horrible concept? This idea will puzzle me until the day i die, the world may confuse me, but people will always baffle me. My eyes watch those who claim there in love, and in disbelief i turn away, the sight is a waste of my precious energy. There is honestly nothing that frustrates me more than this, but once again who am i to judge, ill just continue being the heartless spirit i am whose plain neutral demeanor gives no remorse nor interest in "love affairs" because to me thats all love is nowadays anyway.

Ok so there are many skeptics out there that would mock what i am about to say but hear me out .i am not only affected by moonlight...but i thrive in it . some may say im nocturnal thats debatable seein as half the time i hate gettin up and tend to get up easier after the sun has set. But moonlight although proven to actually raise blood pressure literally does not only that for me, but it actually wakes me up. I can be tired as hell and the minute i step outside (typically full moon) its like an adrenaline shot and im wide awake ...i cant explain it. But anyway try it for yourself go for a stroll under the rays of the moon u never know you may feel something too have fun guys :)

Hey its RomanianBoy90 and i gotta say this site is amazing, so many different styles and tastes that revolve around a central dark theme. Not to mention there is so much you can do to personalize your profile to your liking. I even find this journal interesting i will def keep u all updated on whats goin on in my life the people i meet so on and so forth but hey thanks nat for the add love ya.