I miss people. ='(
So I had eggs last night for dinner. Today, I am attempting to eat breakfast. Umm. Grilled chicken breast, anyone?
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Which came first the chicken or the egg? I guess you answered that one, dincha?
It could be worse.. if you had of visited Sweden recently it could of been raw herring for breakfast!
... raw herring? *huuurp* Nowhere near raw tuna sushi. Herring .... *shudder*
So I called LordWolf while driving today, and left a completely socially awkward voice mail.
Go me! Hahahahahah! I hope he was not drinking a beverage while listening to his voice mail.
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you must start forwarding on these messages to me, I need to spit more too o_0
I do have your number. *plots weirdness in PD's direction*
>.o That's right the funeral is today. *goes and changes clothes*
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:(
I'm sorry for your loss, sugar- I wubs joo.
Changes clothes?
You didn't have on the yellow corduroy did you?
*hugs* ♥ the you Req.
Heard a group named Circa Paleo at the Sherwood Renn Faire yesterday, and I HAD to buy their CD. They fucking rock. In a medieval sort of way. ;-)
I am on the fourth run through of the CD and I cannot stop moving to these evocative tunes.
I ended up being shanghaied to the Sherwood rennaissance faire today. It was a damned good time, and a much needed diversion.
Even if Todd and Jenny's 5 year old daughter Isabel kept groping my tits and patting my ass repeatedly.
o.O
I didn't feel special. She patted lots of asses.
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If you had brought me, I would have only patted yours... And thought about groping your tits! ;)
Touchey feeley tyke?
Wait, you let her touch yours, but wouldn't let me?
I think I need to go grope someone to make up for that hole in my heart.
;)
I heart you
It's also kind of awkward when they stick their hands in your back pockets... o.O
Here is where I ask if guilt comes into it.
A few hours before Joyce died - she still hadn't regained any kind of consciousness and was only responding to noxious stimuli (ie if something hurt she would thrash or if something was uncomfortable, she'd move what she could away from it) - people in comas can hear you. I told her I loved her and she should do whatever she needed to do. Whatever choice she made, I'd support her in it. She was horribly burned. Her torso, her arms, her hands were ... just gone. Her face.
She crashed a few hours later and left this world. =/
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Guilt will probably come into it for some time. That's human. You're asking questions and reflecting. It's actually a healthy and normal response. But what you did for her was a gift. Letting someone know that they don't have to stay for you...that they can choose to go; that frees them. Have your tears and self-reflection. You will eventually get to the questions, "Would I want someone to offer me that freedom? Would that be a loving and selfless act?"
Don't feel guilty.
Sometimes we need to be told it's okay to let go and move on. I'm sure it's much better than the pain and suffering she was experiencing. Being burned has to be horribly painful. I wouldn't want to endure that any longer than necessary.
You're a wonderful person for being there for her, and to speak those words for her. You did the right thing lady. ♥
*hug*
Hearing what is needed from someone you love and trust?
Never feel bad for that. That is a gift that allows a person to choose without pain which path. Saying that truth is far harder an much more needed.
I am exceedingly dissatisfied with where I am in my life right now, physically.
I want to move.
I know where I want to move. I know WHY I want to move.
I am trying to discover whether I also have deeper dis-satisfactions in my mind that are contributing, or if it is solely venue. I think there is more to it.
*sigh*
Thinking of selling the ranch.
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Can Ducky and baby Ducky move with you?
I promise to cook (although I can not promise not to under or over cook the foods. I can, however, attempt to cook a good meal.)
:o)
Honey, we'll continue your cooking education, and I'll blow bubbles on the baby ducky-belly. =)
You coming my way?
Greece.
:P Virginia foo' Virginia. =)
:o)
I'm game.
Well fuck. Joyce died last night.
Time to make arrangements with her church.
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Aaaw :(
Sorry to hear that,
Sorry to hear that. :(
The good news? She didn't really die totally alone. She had you.
OK. One more try.
I spent almost a week in Oslo to visit CTyler. We've talked about 6 years, and I had the distinct honor of being the first person from online he met in person. =)
I met several other nifty folk over there; among them were his sister - it was fun giggling with her and making Tyler roll his eyes and say, "Women!", Quentin of Art & Soul Tattoo in Oslo (he worked on my skin - yay ink!) and who has, definitely, the softest touch of anyone who has put needle to my skin, Vilde, Trine and Kaia (also artists there at Art & Soul).
TYler and I walked so much (sorry Tyler!) - the architecture was greatly varied and very interesting - seeing the buildings with Masonic symbols on them from ages before when the Masons were very big there was neat. We went to the Munch museum, the Historical museum, and had planned to go to a few other places, but time ran out. Oh! One day walking about, in one of the big squares there, there was a man who was carving HUGE blocks of wood with a chain saw - neat!
There was a Scottish pub we went to (heh if it's not Scottish, it's CRAP!), and one of his haunts Rock In. It was a neat bar, rather mellow at the time we went for the place. Good metal music - I loved the variety of sources of the metal - you just don't get that over here.
Spending time with Tyler was probably the most fun I have had in a very long time. I'd love to go back. Oh! It snowed only once while there - on my trip to the airport to leave for home. The flakes were fat and huge and slow and heavy, like Santa was going to come along any minute on a sleigh.
I think he may be heading stateside with Q come May, and if so, I'll try to head out to NOLA to say heydie - it's only a 9 1/2 hour drive, or possibly October for a tattoo convention.
I wish I could put this in better with pictures, but I only took two - from the museum - a standing stone covered with runescript, and a picture Tyler took for me and sent, the scuba divers in the sky - that's a neat one.
I still want to get to the sculpture garden, the Viking museum and the cultural museum - and so many more places.
GODDAMNIT! I just spent twenty minutes typing out the motherfucking journal entry on my visit to Norway ... and accidentally backed out of the screen. =/ Fuck.
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I do that at least three times, every fuckin' day. Heh you should see me when it happens, I have to get up and walk away from the computer or I might end up throwing it on the side walk from my second floor bedroom window... Explaining that to the fix it man would be a death sentence, me thinks.
We should revolt against that backing out of the screen and yell, dance, and throw our panties at those we revolt against.
:)
I'll save my panties for throwing at someone who would like them. Hehahahah
Again, I'll stand by with the Chloroform...
I only seem to lose my entries when they're actually witty. Shit sucks. :/
Here's a question I doubt Miss Manners has EVER addressed ...
When you tickle one off and the thought of a certain someone is what pushes you over that crystalline edge ... Is it GOOD etiquette or BAD Etiquette to inform that certain someone?
Discuss.
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Groucho Marx is dead. I can't tell him. Ssshh.
Uhh.. I had a thought, but the comment above clusterfucked my brain.
I would say that it depends on the person. But for the mostpart I would keep the diddle fantasies to yourself. Because what if they say something stupid about it and ruin it for you?
Oh. My. GAWD.....GROUCHO???
wow.
And yes, I have told him when it is him. I have also told him about others when it seemed apprpriate, or when I thought he would appreciate it.
But yeah- why wouldn't you? I would take it as a compliment if someone did that with me.
Just let it all hang out ;)
So. A former coworker of mine, I found out, was badly burned in a house fire.
3rd degree burns over 35 % of her body. She has ... no one.
No family, few friends at all, and no social network. I found out via the news.
"Hey ... that's JOYCE'S House!"
I am going to lie to the hospital people and say we're sisters. We look enough alike. Short, chunky, blonde.
Hell, It could have been me. I am reclusive. I don't speak via phone often to people. I think Preacher is the one I talk with most often.
Just ... fucking wow. =/ She's at the best trauma/burn center here in San Antonio, though, so there IS that.
Please, Lady, let her have the wherewithal to want to come up from the ashes. Thank you, and thank you.
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I hope she recovers fast and I will keep her in my thoughts and my prayers. That is such a tragic thing. Hold her hand for me, will ya?
*hugs*
You both are in my thoughts and prayers
♥
Rise, beautiful phoenix.
NO, I've not written the Norway journal! I shall soon.
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Well why the hell not? And pictures.... get to work badger... we want to know about it.
:)
Umm. I took two pictures.
TWO.
>.o Both were at the museum of a standing stone covered in rune script.
S took one. o.o
@Ms.Vampirewitch = I DID tell her to take pictures. She said she don't have a camera. :(
And yay JOURNAL SOOONNN!!!
You know, I'd kinda want to read that myself... ;)
Oh, yeah! Ok. Doc's visit yesterday. We've decided on Laser Ablation, to be done on a Friday morning soon. Should only take about a half hour, but he's doping me to the gills so I don't punch him in the face again.
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You punched your doctor?
I punched a nurse.
My defense, I was coming to after being knocked out to some random woman standing over me. I was scared and frightened. I believe warrants a good clock to the head.
:P
Huh.... I came to with no one in the room after having all 4 wisdom tooths taken out. The sound of me hitting the floor at a dead weight got them into the room fast. ;)
Hope it all goes well.
How was your trip? Did you have fun?
*goes to read your journal*
I elbowed my dentist in the nuts once. Completely accidental. *snark* lol
Know what's going through my head?
Pachelbel's Canon, only done with the word "Meat."
Click the below link ... and listen to the animal flesh sing.
meat meat meat ...
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I swear that was Harry Potter sitting in the very back. LOL.
I adore Pachelbel's Canon.
That. Is. All.
♥
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How awesome is that? Hahhh.
*no comment about missing the plane on this..*
Cool!
♥
It puts the lotion on its skin, or else its paws get SMACKED for scratching new tattoo! Argh!
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OOOOO new tats
(or it gets the hose again)
Where are the pics of the new tat? :o
Oh, do we get to see more of your behind? ;)
I want to see! :)
Mouth like a fallen angel, I tell you what. Definitely.
Benign adenoma! Thank you swet baby Jebus! I am crying with relief. :)
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Yayness!
mm hmm. Who called it?! :)
YAY- *does happy puppy dance...lol*
:D Never so happy about a little fat pocket. Damn... now I want a hot pocket.
I guzzle coffee! I go to airport! I pee on plane! Well, I'll do my best to avoid that last. I have visions of snakes biting bad areas thanks to that Motherfuckin' Movie.
Hehe.
Ok. Slightly elevated white count. "Nothing to worry about. Let's wait until we get the results of the biopsy and the rest. Now, hush up, get on the plane, have a vacation, and stop glowering at me for stabbing you in the breast."
So. There. We shall see.
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If we don't talk before you go- have fun, be safe. And don't you dare worry about anything, nothing.
*hugs*
See you and your boobs when you get back. ;)
You have a GREAT time, have fun, take lots of pics, see you when you get back!
Yunh hunh....what they said!
Drive it like a rental, sugar- we're rooting fer ya...lol
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Could it be the caveman that's singing?
... It could very well be.
Muppets ROCK!!!
I love that song...lol
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ToiletDuc
19:29 Mar 30 2011
Cows and pigs are so much tastier though!
Requiem
00:00 Mar 31 2011
Mmmmmm cow and pig ....