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So, right now, I'm at my mom's house, babysitting my cats. How can I babysit my own cats, you ask? Well, they're not REALLY my cats. Basically, I live with my dad and "go to college" (in the process of dropping out), and the household cats that I grew up with, live with my mom. My brother and I had each picked out a kitten when I was about 9, and the cat I picked out stuck to me like glue. We used to be soooo close, but then when my parents got divorced, we drifted further away emotionally, as well as our spiritual connection.



I suppose, in the end, that's a good thing, because I was waaaaaay too dependent on her. One of my angels told me that if I had stayed that way, she would have never been fully able to pass on when she died.



Anyways, last night was...interesting, but painful. xD Let's go with the interesting part first.



The beginner psychic class I went to WAS ALL WOMEN! xD My friend's step-bro was suppose to come, and he opted out due to car issues. The class itself had 17 people, and my friend and I were the only "young" people there. We're in our early 20's, and everyone else was mid-middle aged and older.



I'm not going to write what went down the whole time, but just the main things. It was just the first day of class, so basically we went over basic knowledge and terms, that pretty much everyone knew anyways. Very boring, but mandatory. Kind of like how all classes are. Basics come first. The class itself is only suppose to be 2 hrs long, and we got a break in the middle. It was very laid-back, and tons of laughing and humor.



The thing worth most notice was the ending though, when we did meditation. Like I stated before, I'm not far advanced, and I only recently found a meditation that works for me. However, this went beyond basic meditation, but into looking into the soul, similar to a type of hypnosis. Many people were able to talk to their spirit guides, loved ones, protectors/angels, etc. Even if they didn't talk, there was a sense of them being there.



I, however, was not even able to picture things, or have images come to me. Think of it as trying to be hypnotized, and people around you are able to, but you're not, even though you're trying to imagine the things the hypnotist is telling you to.



In the beginning, there was suppose to be a door to a garden, and a sign on the door. lol, While I couldn't picture anything, immediately I got words in my head of what the sign was suppose to say.



Later on, when the group was sharing experiences, one person at a time, the presenter told us not to share the symbol we saw on the door. The door was actually the door to our heart chakra, and the symbol is something we should never tell anyone else. I laughed, because I had already told my friend what I saw on my sign, but I know it wasn't the symbol to my heart chakra. I even shared it to everyone later, when it was my turn to present.



Basically, when she told us to picture a sign on the door, I thought (maybe intuition speaking, seeing as I couldn't picture anything) the sign would probably say, "Do Not Enter." LAWLS Most likely my brain speaking. She's telling us to go into a garden. I do not know this garden, I do not own a garden. If there's a sign there, it's probably gonna say, DO NOT ENTER or something. xDDDD



Anyways, even if that was intuition (I am not ready to do that kind of thing yet?), that would not be my actual symbol or key to my heart chakra. xD



I'm sure the future classes will be more interesting. It turned out that the class duration was actually 2 hrs and 45 minutes, including the 15 minute break. xD Meditation took about an hour and a half. Maybe the lady will do better next time in regards to time management, since the class was only suppose to be 2 hrs, and people may have had other plans.



I'm glad I went. My friend had a lot of fun. ^_^ I will try to my basic, BASIC, meditations so that I will open up more, and perhaps be to really participate in those other kinds of deeper meditations in the future.



Now about how I was in pain. xD I'll just copy and paste what I had written on another website.



So after the class, my friend and I went out to get Chinese for dinner. I didn't eat all of my Chinese, and drank a can of soda. Before the class, I had less than a can of soda.



Here's my copy pasta. xD



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So like, last night...SO MUCH PAIN! Kept praying to God, "I promise to eat at least one meal everyday!" and saying, "I'm never drinking soda again!"



Basically drank less than 2 cans worth of soda, ate some chinese, and BANG! Woke up in the middle of the night with stomach pain, and hobble over to the bathroom. On the way there, noticed that my stomach was rather big.



Now, I found this out a few weeks ago, and that's basically the only reason I didn't wake my dad up and go to the hospital. Basically, carbonation in the soda (it's what gives it the fizz) can expand your stomach. So when I finally sat down on the toilet, and really took a gander at my stomach. Oh. My. Fucking. GOD!



My stomach had basically doubled in size. And when I mean doubled in size, I mean, measuring from my stomach, to all the way to my back, that amount had basically been put on my stomach. In other words, my stomach had grown outwards by about 4-5 inches. And I wasn't even fully relaxing my stomach, so that you could see how big it REALLY could get. (I even tried fully relaxing it - Couldn't. Hurt too damn much.)



Now, I know I have friends that are overweight, and I'd still be smaller than them. They might not understand why I was freaking out, so here's another way to think of it.



Think of it ratio wise, like how I said before about doubling. And, keep in reminder, it's not your actual stomach that's doubling, but basically the whole widthe from your stomach to spine.



In a span of a few hours, my stomach was huge. I looked fucking pregnant. It hurt. Totally unhealthy, and I did NOT look like me. So, nonetheless, you can understand if I was scared/frightened. I think when your body goes apeshit like that, it's pretty normal for you to be alarmed.



I've drank soda before too (even more than 2 cans), so I think it was a combination of soda and finally getting food, because I have HORRIBLE eating habits.



I weighed myself AFTER I took a crap on the toilet. From before the time I'd eaten, I was 114. Now I was 118. Now, usually, when I eat, I gain a lb or 2 and that's before I crap. S'normal for me. Keep in mind, most of the weight you gain from eating is water content. However, thinking of myself of gaining two extra lb or 2 lbs (other 2 is food/water content/going into your body to make fat, etc)...Which is basically stretching of organs and AIR! How heavy is fucking air? Yeah...I'm thinking you guys should be finally getting the picture on how bad it was...



So, not knowing if I should take tums medicine or not (it's for gas, bloating, pressure, etc.), I just go back to bed. I'm no scientist or pharmacist. I know a lot of crazy chemical shit is going on in my body right now, but I figure, knowing what I know, my body should take care of it fine. Tums, if it would have worked, would have just sped up the process and gotten me outta pain quicker, but I didn't know if it was the smartest choice.



So, it turns out I couldn't sleep on my back and stomach without hurting more, so I slept on my side after remembering what one of my friends told me, how she couldn't sleep on her back or stomach because of her weight.



Man, never want to go through that AGAIN. D:



Oh, and yeah. My stomach had gone down to normal size by the time I woke up next (around 10am). I'm not as skinny as I usually am (because I did eat food, and because I have horrible eating habits, thus metabolism, most of it turned to fat, etc.), and weighed myself. Before the whole ordeal, I was 114. Now I'm 116. xD So, that's why I figured the organ and air stuff was about 1-2 lbs.



http://youtu.be/M957dACQyfU



^This is the video that taught me about the effects of carbonation...



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So, yeah. A lot of stuff happened yesterday. xD Ghosts in my house were pretty active yesterday too. I think one of the angels or non physical beings that followed me to my mom's house today, closed one of the open windows while I was sleeping. I had opened them because it was nice outside, but then it got dark and cold, and I was still sleeping. It surprised me when I woke up, and went to close all the windows. xD Too bad I can't ask, since I'm not open enough to hear their responses when I talk to them. Only happens once and a while, when I'm in the inbetween state when I'm not quite asleep.



Anyways, who knows when I'll post another journal, but I'll definitely do one next Wednesday or Tuesday night, after I have my psychic class. ^_^ Ciao!

Wow.



So I just joined VR. Can't say much about it, seeing as I just joined, but I hope it will be worth it. Later today, I'm going to a beginner psychic class at my local metaphysical store, so I'll probably make a more interesting journal entry about that later.



For me, it's probably a waste of money, but I don't know exactly what will happen, so who knows. Maybe I'll like it. I do know that they'll be doing some meditation, but I don't really meditate the conventional way. I FINALLY found a meditation technique that kinda works for me (at least it works a little!) a few days ago. If anything, I'll be around other psychics, and that'll boost my powers just a little. I need to work on breaking down this brick wall of mine that's hindering me.



Mostly, I'm going there to support a friend. We're both into this kinda stuff, and growing together. She's much more advanced than I am naturally, but it's still nice to have someone there. She probably doesn't need the class, but it's easier on the mind sometimes, when there are other people there to do it with, and you have a scheduled time to do something. Plus, this is a good way for her to make connections, whether she knows that or not. (She wants to open her own metaphysical store in the future.)



I'm so excited/nervous for it, that I don't think I can sleep. I should sleep soon. It's after 6am, and the class starts at 6pm. Plus, I'm "naturally" nocturnal, lol.



Anyways, I'll write more later. Hope I have fun!



-Fridge