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Today was a good day. I only felt minimal burst of anger towards the people surrounding me who love me. I am finally finding a direction for myself. For a while there it was a little touch a go. Go far away from me. I got punched in the stomach by one of my friends today because I was bugging her. I sat down feeling like i was going to spontaneously puke a burst into sobs for no apperant reason. I dont know what to do. I will be sitting there fine for one moment, but the next I may feel like crying so long and so hard the my body would no longer be 75% water. Just the left over 25% that one really talks about because its deemed unimportant. Strip away my clothes. I'm still me. Strip away my skin. Oh look, still me. Leave my clothes and my skin and my actions and my words. Still me? Wrong! Its the me you want me to be. You see what you like and say you wont judge, but you lie. I know when you lie. I could say I know as just a fact of life but then I would be lieing too. Which would leave me to be no better than you. Better you than me I guess. Getting out of bed in the morning and looking in the mirror ans actually liking what you see there. Or do you? Thats okay if you say no, because just being someone else makes everything else okay for a while. Then rises the bile. You have to keep switching bodies to keep your soul happy. Or at least to the point that it can look at you without disgust. I had a "no worry" moment today with my friens. When I could just laugh and paint and noy try to be anything more than me. Then I thought how fragile life truly is, and that you gotta make the best of whatever your reality may be. Like I said before, today was a good day.



-Night.



(And for those of you who read all the way through, tell me by either leaving a comment below or sending me a message about what you thought. [If you would like to.])

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wolfblade
22:29 Dec 22 2015

really good

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