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Somewhere,a little piece of me is lost and

crying. Someplace,deep in the shadows of

my subconscious,a piece of my soul has

sat down and anchored itself in defeat and

is trying to pull me down into the darkness

with it.This might sound strange to some-

one who is not familiar with the inner

conflicts that can tear and pull at a

person’s soul until he begins to stop and

sink in his own deep-hollow depths.But

sinking doesn’t take much.It takes only

one little flaw which,left unattended,will

grow and grow ...until,like cancer,it

consumes the soul.

I know now,and I have always known,

that help comes first from within.I know

that if one doesn ’ t come to one ’ s own

rescue,then all is lost.I know it is time for

me to look at myself,which I would rather

avoid.But in order to break free of my own

chains,I must look at myself.



I know now,and I have always known,

that help comes first from within.I know

that if one doesn ’ t come to one ’ s own

rescue,then all is lost.I know it is time for

me to look at myself,which I would rather

avoid.But in order to break free of my own

chains,I must look at myself.

But

I think I ’ ve spent too much of my life

just waiting for good things to come.I ’ ve

waited for a magic rainbow to appear in

the sky and to drop a pot of gold into my

lap.I ’ ve been hurt so much in life and now

I just want it handed to me.

But it ’ s time for me to stop chasing

rainbows.It ’ s time to stop looking into the

sky waiting for help to arrive.It ’ s time for

me to start scraping the rot out of my

mind,to stop dreaming and not acting,

before I have nothing left to hope for.I can

see now that I ’ ve never given it the total

effort,that I ’ ve always been afraid I would

fail or not measure up.So I ’ ve quit early.

Instead of acting on my dreams,I ’ ve laid

back and just floated along.I ’ ve lived too

much time in this world unfulfilled.I ’ ve

got to make my dreams work.I ’ ve suffered

enough in this world.I must do this now,

and what it takes is the doing.Somehow I

must learn to succeed at success rather

than at failure,and the time to start is now