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Music Playing, bass guitar strumming.

In my hand the blade cold and stained.

My eyes are fixed on this beautiful thing. As i braze my thumb tearing into skin.

I can feel a tear as it slides across my thigh, tight and deep the crimson flows.

The corner catches on my skin and bobbles of red appear on my cloths.

Feel that feeling that jumps, and i'm proud. Not ashamed anymore, but it still hurts deep down.

The pain is like a pushing itch, burrowing.

But I HAVE CONTROL. I can push or release.

I can watch the beautiful paint of the body colour my skin.

The potent smell of iron, seeping but welcome.

Welcome for my eyes, stunned and addicted.

Itchy and sore.

But needed.

lying awake in the middle of the night

when the world is almost dead

with the rain drops dripping one by one

it feels as if the sky is raining my tears;



fear, that’s what keeping me awake,

as i close my eyes and try to slam it shut,

it begins to creep and crawl all over my senses,

starting with the most obvious and

branching out to all corners of the mind;



why? what? how? so many questions,

yet very few answers, as the mind

spins its intricate web over my confidence,

leaving me high and dry, gasping for breath

and keeping me wide awake;



as i lay on my back with my

hands under my head,

staring at the darkened ceiling,

uncertain and confused;



it was not supposed to be like this,

no one mentioned a word about this,

staring vacantly at the darkened ceiling,

i could not sleep;



trying not to lose myself,

my mind keeps thinking about

the if’s and the probabilities,

without a care about the present;



and in the end, it was all a little too much to take,

as the fear of the unknown surround me from all sides,

and darkness creeping its way up slowly and steadily,

the nightmares loom larger and bigger,

blurring everything else before i collapsed into a restless sleep;

Getting up from my corner



i embark on my pink beauty



listen to my favorite music



keep driving



smiling at the kids



on the way



enjoying the pleasure



of riding alone



with the soulful breeze



flowing through my hair



gently brushing my face



i drive towards home



a pleasure ride!







I get an eerie feel



i look back



only in time



to see the darkness



unfold and chase me



this dark feeling



always chases me



wherever I go



no matter whatever I do



I can’t get it



out of my mind







I ride on



and it rides with me



slowly overtaking me



and penetrates me -



all the while whispering



strange words into my ears



i get that fear – a fear of this unknown



fear of losing my grip



fear of losing myself to it



i ride faster and faster



to reach home



before it grasps me



and takes me over completely!







But this darkness



shrewd as it is



outdoes me



and spreads before my eyes



blanking out the lights



and the blaring honks



until I see nothing but darkness



and silence folds in



with no music



to my ears



i give in to this darkness



i give in to this silence



without putting up a fight



i surrender myself!

Because I Love You



The pleasure that I find

when you take me in your arms

and hold my naked body close

as we become one

can not be described with words

for there are none



You say this is what the attraction is...

like a junkie needing the next fix

and you are right....only

theres so much more



Theres sitting across the table from you

watching you enjoy your dinner...

green leaf salad with purple onions and

mushrooms and black olives and bleu cheese,

and grilled salmon

or

a messy, sloppy, lotsa gravy roast beef po-boy

with a dill pickle

it makes no difference as long as its you across the table



Theres the way the corners of your eyes crinkle when you really laugh

the very distinctive sound of your voice

the familiar gestures that only I see

the way your glasses sit on your nose

and the look of mischief in your eye



The way you carefully tend your plants

and the poetry you write

your unfinished paintings

the special love you have for your girls

and the way your hand holds mine



The dancing in the kitchen on Saturday night

with a wine glass in one hand

and a wooden spoon in the other

watching your face as you sleep in the early morning light

the way you walk...so sure of yourself



The list goes on and on

The love continues to flow

Theres so very much more

Just wanted you to know

That's the reason I love you so much ! ..............

***** ALWAYS REMEMBER IN YOUR HEART *****



AWAKE IN YOUR HEART, REJOICE IN YOUR SOUL,

LET YOUR ESSENCE DISCOVER THE WONDERMENT THAT IS ALL AROUND!

WITH THE EYES OF A CHILD, LOOK TO THE BEAUTY THAT SURROUNDS YOU,

REVEL IN THE JOY THAT IS SLEEPING WITHIN YOU.

RECEIVE THE BLESSINGS THAT ARE YOURS FOR THE TAKING,

FOR IT IS IN LOVE THAT YOU WALK THIS PATH TODAY !!!!!!!!!



WITH LOVE , FAITH & SMILES,



Rashmi

I am your's

and you are mine,

together we'll stand

far longer than the end of time



Inseparable by death, by power or pain,

We two, together ever shall remain.

Untouchable by and possible form of harm,

this love will effortlessly keep our souls warm



Just like the Lady and her Lord,

We're tied together with an Astral Cord

And like them our souls move as one

from now till long after time is done.



Such power I have never known,

not when I was young,

not now that I am grown.



All wants, all needs

are satisfied,

by this love

no one else can provide.



For us awaits no true death,

no pain, and definately no sorrow.

For in eternity there is only now,

no yesterday or tomorrow.



Onto each other we will hold.

All our secrets shall be told.

And love shall grow, immense and enfold

Our two passionate hearts, our unstoppable souls.



Gods we will be! Gods of love,

The great StarDragon, and the graceful MoonDove.

As hot, as powerful as our passion, the Dragon shall be.

The Dove, smooth, elegant, and eternally sweet.



Separate parts intertwined,

together whole.

Unbeatable love,

Unconquerable Souls.

Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let me avow-

You are not wrong, who deem

That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away

In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone?

All that we see or seem

Is but a dream within a dream.



I stand amid the roar

Of a surf-tormented shore,

And I hold within my hand

Grains of the golden sand-

How few! yet how they creep

Through my fingers to the deep,

While I weep- while I weep!

O God! can I not grasp

Them with a tighter clasp?

O God! can I not save

One from the pitiless wave?

Is all that we see or seem

But my dream of a dreamwithin a dream?

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin

Dance me through the panic 'til I'm gathered safely in

Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the end of love

Oh let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone

Let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon

Show me slowly what I only know the limits of

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the wedding now, dance me on and on

Dance me very tenderly and dance me very long

We're both of us beneath our love, we're both of us above

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the children who are asking to be born

Dance me through the curtains that our kisses have outworn

Raise a tent of shelter now, though every thread is torn

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin

Dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in

Touch me with your naked hand or touch me with your glove

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the end of love