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There are an endless possibility of things that a human being can be . I'm wildly confused by those that choose to be full of shit. ....just saying.

Uncle of my mother is died this afternoon.He never been married and he didn't have kids so my mother need to take care of his funeral. So we need to go tomorrow in embassy and take visa and I hope we will catch flight for Frankfurt and then we going to New Jersey .We don't have direct flight for USA from Belgrade. Ugh I hate because I must go with mom . I am currently very busy with my work anyways I can't stay in USA more than 7 or 10 days I must back on work.I can't let my mom to go there alone because she still didn't recovered from dad's funeral and her health isn't good. My brother should go there with her but he has some scheduled surgerys so he can't cancel that -_- so if he come earlier I'll back to Serbia. .......fml dammit. ....this will fuck up all my plans.....

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ProjectAlice
19:57 Mar 20 2016

I'm really sorry for your loss :(

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Asgardareid
21:36 Mar 20 2016

Sorry to hear this, honey ~hugs you~

Let me know if i can do something for you...

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QueenZombiee
22:09 Mar 20 2016

Thank you ♡

I'm ok.I feel sorry because mom's uncle died.But honestly i really don't remember him at all. Mom says that we used to go and visit him in Jersey City every time we were in USA and that he also was with us in San Francisco few times. ...but I can't remember him.Mom says he was good man .

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colemack13
23:35 Mar 20 2016

sorry for your loss.i'm here for you anytime,hugs to an awesome sister.

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Come here!

Go Away!

FUCK,

where you going? ???!!!!!



Bi-polar love. ..

So good night vr.Thiz zombie need to go to sleep because tomorrow I'm going on skiing YAY! .....just I absolutely hate to drive 6 hours to arrive at the Kopaonik (mountain) but it's totally worth it :D

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Asgardareid
20:19 Mar 19 2016

Wish you sooooo much fun, zombie snow bunny!!!

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QueenZombiee
21:49 Mar 19 2016

Thanks sweetie ♡ it was really great. I just back home I'm soooooo tired lol love you xxx

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You know. ..when you care for someone more than they deserve you will definitely get hurt more than you deserve. But can you control that!?! Nope..... meh good night VR.

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shynne
01:41 Mar 18 2016

Too true :(

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colemack13
10:17 Mar 18 2016

true,but i think you can have some control over it.

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QueenZombiee
21:50 Mar 18 2016

No I can't that is stronger than me . it's not that I didn't try. ...million times. ....no ...won't work no matter what.

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So...yesterday after work my friends Mima I Black come at my house so we talked and remembering about great past times together. ..so we ended up drinking Vodka lol We drinked until 2 after midnight and I am going on work at 6:30 in the morning so...yeah I didn't have time to get sober and of course I needed to show up at work because we had inportant meeting what can not be canceled x.x So I was like ok Dani don't panic you will be alright .I took shower and I was hoping that will make me sober lol no didn't work. ...somehow I drove myself to the office and was trying to prepare for session of council. X.x And thanks good president of council got some kind of virus so he couldn't come so we postponed for next week. I back at office hoping that no one won't disturb me.i remove my laptop and put my stupid head on desk until I wait for coffee but DAMMIT ! mom called me to beck home fast as I can because Odin my stupid Husky swallow my NEWEST Swarovski earrings and he isn't good.That get me right away sober I thought he is really in bad condition because mom reacted like Odin was about to die. so mom didn't wanna explain from the phone in what condition Odin is so I drove home. ...should I mention that I saw everything duble and everything was spinning still but I survived I didn't kill anyone with car lol so I run into house my mom freaking out and Odin bleeding. So she started to yelling at me how I am never careful where I put my things and how i good know that Odin is forever hungry lol that is true Odin eats everything lol my make up, my books, he even eat vegetables lol so I took my dog and we go to the vet.I was thinking he is dying but vet said he just hurt meat around teeth.He did also ultrasound and saw nothing to worry about and my earrings didn't make other damage to him.We back to home and I couldn't back in office because I had really bad hungover rest of day I spent in my bathroom lol ........oh I don't think I will drink soon again -_- ouch head still hurts.

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StrangeWings
22:32 Mar 15 2016

Wow, sounds like a really rough time of it - so sorry about that. Glad to hear Odin is OK and I hope you are recovering and feeling better!

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Before few weeks father of my good friend died. Today after work we go at lunch together and she asked me do I mind if she tells me about her pain because she is really hardly deal with his death. I told her that is ok I am here to listen if that will make her feel little better. So she was remembering of her childhood and how she was proud of her dad and how she misses everything about him etc she talked about it good 3 hours and on the end she told I hope one day I will feel better and I wish that I can be cold like you Dani.Your dad died recently and you are fine about that. ......

WAIT THE MINUTE how do you mean you wish that you are cold like me? So she told me how I look like I don't care.she never saw me to cry or talk about my father. ...

Well first of all every person deal with pain on different ways. Maybe I look cold outside but in fucking same time I dying in myself. Death of my dad is worst thing what ever happened to me and I really wish that anyone ever don't feel such pain like I felt that day when I found out that my dad is dead. And yes I don't talk about my dad because that really hurts me so much so I can't. I deal with my pain with other ways. You know someone cry, someone talk about person you know everyone deal with pain on their ways.And me.....I trying to make myself busy I work a lot I trying to distract myself because I'm not strong enough to face it with my loss. But if you don't see me crying that doesn't mean that I don't care -_- and actually I cry i cry a lot. ...every day after work I'm going to visit his grave. I sit there and cry and still can't believe he is gone. ........just I'm not that kind of person who would bother anyone about my problems. I don't like to show feelings to other people. ...well is not that I don't like to show other people how i feel. ...I just don't know how. ......... ......................

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Asgardareid
00:04 Mar 12 2016

Hugs you



You doing great, dear....

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StrangeWings
03:18 Mar 12 2016

I totally agree with you - I've always chosen to keep my pain and sorrow to myself instead of burdening other people with it. I can tell how much you miss your father throughout your journal entries and it is heartbreaking, but I think you handle it in a very noble way. I lost my father to a rare bone marrow disease years ago and it still haunts me every day. We just have to go on stronger than ever, keeping their memory alive and presenting a brave face to the world. I think that is what fathers would want their children to do.

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Scorpion
20:21 Mar 12 2016

Volim te.

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QueenZombiee
21:23 Mar 12 2016

I always choose to not talk about things what really hurt me. Because you know people always enjoy in your sorrow.I really have hard time to talk about things what bothering me. I keeping my pain for myself ....it's hard . you feel like your heart going to explode every minute but at the time you learn to live with it. ....

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colemack13
19:12 Mar 13 2016

sometimes its good to talk to someone...so far it seems your doing a great job going from one day to the next...hugs

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Today I back from work so tired and pretty much stressed so I already was planning to go to bed earlier. ...but like always never happen how you are planning lol My mom asked me to go with her on damn yoga class she said that will help me to get rid of stress.I said that yoga is not definitely for me and yoga is pretty much stupid if you ask me -_- but you just can't say no to my annoying mom so I go there with mom ....in that effing room full of weird people lol I KNEW that this will be definitely wasted night lol



Instructor of yoga: please sit in bound angle pose



Zombrain: wtf is that ....Dani watch what other weird people do so do the effing same -_- ouch i think I just broke my legs.



Instructor of yoga: now just relax and think about green meadow and hear the sound of waterfall .....



Zombrain:wrf are you talking about weird lady how I'm supposed to relax in such pose.my legs hurts ....oh wait I think that my spine is broken too ....



Instructor of yoga: dani you look like you are in pain. Just clear your mind and smell fresh air who comes from waterfall.



Zombrain: gfys lady I only can smell someone's dirty feet here.......



Instructor of yoga:now put your hands up and ketch that red apple from the tree above you



Zombrain ....huh



Instructor of yoga: now relax....blah blah blah



Zombrain:Dani get up and run from here fast as you can! Run!!!! Now!!!!!



So I get out for smoke lol omfz no help for me I'm telling ya xD just never again lol

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colemack13
17:13 Mar 08 2016

sounds like your busy not having fun..

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QueenZombiee
22:18 Mar 09 2016

Haha seems so lol

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My guardian Angel be like OH SHIT I'M GONNA LOSE MY JOB AND END UP IN HELL WITH THIS MOTHERFUCKER!

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colemack13
11:02 Mar 04 2016

LOL :) good one.

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