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thoughts race
deeds need done
feelings subdue
nothingness envelopes
desires echo
another moment of utter emptiness
always the drone
nothing concluded
forever delayed

I need to know you love me.
I need to know you care.
I don't need it every day.
I don't need it every breath.
I see one thing, one action, non-action
and i see everything that means
meant or not.
my mind makes so many scenes
none need be true, but it's me
I hate my needs, run so deep
I need to know you love me.
I need to know you care.
I don't need it every day.
I don't need it every breath.
I want to love you
til the end of days
I couldn't see, but it's me
I hate my thoughts, they run away
I don't need meaningless gestures
I don't need forced happiness
I hope you can see
I just need to know
you love me
I need to know you love me.
I need to know you care.
I don't need it every day.
I don't need it every breath.
I see one thing, one action, non-action
and i see everything that means
meant or not.
my mind makes so many scenes
none need be true, but it's me
i hate my needs, run so deep
i want to love you
til the end of days
i couldn't see, but it's me
i hate my thoughts, they run away
i don't need meaningless gestures
I don't need forced happiness
i hope you can see
i just need to know
you love me

I've many thoughts I want, I need you to see.
1st and foremost, you cheated on me.
You destroyed us, you left long before I could ever try to help us.
I thought that it was my fault.
I thought I was the reason you couldn't love me.
I thought I was destroying you from within.
I didnt know, you left me for him.
I didn't know, you were falling for him
I didn't know, you wanted him to help you, not me.
We both needed love from one another.
While I reached to you, you ran to him, all the while, judging me for my weaknesses.
Now you laugh in my face for being blind, for trusting.
My life's nothing but a joke to everyone now thanks to you, and I am the punchline.

For once in my life, I'm not at fault.
I was at the absolute worst time in my life.
You pulled away.
My life had no reason to be.
I begged for you.
You went to him to hold your thoughts.
Yet claimed I was your dreams.
Life within yourself, your own light began to dim.
Our stars within were fading.
I tried to use my own dim light to brighten yours, but I was too weak.
Little did I know, you both were laying kindling for the fires to come.
I blamed myself, my whole life, everything was my fault.
I knew you were pulling away, but again, I thought it was me, thought it was my paranoia.
I was partially right, except, it was my paranoia that was spot on.
The moment you 'end' it with me,
you did what you've wanted for years.
Laid in his arms.
You blamed me, for your leaving.
You blamed me, for your thoughts.
You blamed me, for your actions.
For once in my life, I'm not at fault.
I'm not the one who ruined this.
You and him, cheated on me years before your lips ever touched.