Single...wanna mingle? ;)
01:40 Nov 21 2006
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So as you might have guessed I am single once again! I'm not heart broken or distressed over it. I couldn't live in that small town any longer I couldn't do what I wanted to, nor be who I wanted to be. I'm supposed to wait for 4 months for John's stupid ass to get out of debt, while I'm strugglin over here and get a job so I can save up and go back to school! He works and is getting his shit taken care of, while I do nothing to benifit my future and it's security...fuck that! I also desperetly missed my family and friends, plus the whole city life I missed it all so much. I just couldn't stay there any longer. I love him and I didn't want to leave him, but ever since the middle of October I was beginning to question why I was with him. He always took his anger out on me and only me, he didn't treat me like he should have. I was so good to him I was sweet and kind, I tried to help in whatever way I could whenever I could. I always gave his dumb ass a shoulder to cry on, but when there was clearly something wrong with me he never even bothered to ask and see what was wrong! Not to mention he accused me of cheating, lieing, and he invaded my privacy by reading my diary, because he was convinced I was so stupid that I would cheat and write about in my diary...asshole! He tried to break up with me over his suspision and his distrust in me, when he lied to me and told me he trusted me that bastard he never believed in me!!! After all this bullshit I just began to question why I still remained to stay with him, he didn't deserve me or my love that he didn't equally return.
I moved back here to Cleveland so I could secure my future. I want to go to College to become a nurse, I also want a degree in buisness, graphic design, and computer engeeiring. I also want to take a autobody or collison repair class too! I couldn't do all that in Mount Vernon, plus I could not get a job for the life of me. So now I'm back but me and John were supposed to reamain together. He was going to come up this weekend to visit me, and bring me the rest of my stuff I left behind. Well he never called me the day he was supposed to come, so I called him to see wtf was up. He says he's at my house asks me how long I'll take to get back, then by the time I get back is already gone?! After that he wouldn't answer my phone calls or return my messeges, he's acting like a little boy and won't even tell me what the hell is wrong. I guess that means it's over which is alright with me, if he's going to act like that forget it! I was thinking about leaving him anyway so it's not that big of a deal for me, I just wish I knew why the fuck he's acting so childish...
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