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14 entries this month
Hellz yea!
22:06 Apr 29 2006
Times Read: 744
Omg I seen the best news ever today! I feel so relieved and now I have a most definet answer. I found out that I shouldn't give up yet, because I still have a chance! :) Now I know what I've got to do, I've been given a second chance...I won't screw it up this time! I have grown up and become a better person. I know things I didn't before, I've discoverd things within myself I couldn't then...Now I can and I will I have to give it what I've got, and hope for the best. I have no control over what will happen, but I can control how I have an impact on it! I can only hope for the best, but like I've said...my dreams never lie to me.
I am so glad I didn't give up before anything could begin. I've never been any good at being patient this time I have to. If it all works out I know it will be worth it...if not well I'm gunna be pissed! I just might have some not so nice things to say, and maybe have to kick his ass! >:0
Yea so I hope it doesn't come to that, but stressin' over it won't do any good. I am just gunna be patient, and hope. I would be so happy if something could just go right for once. That's not a lot to ask, but my luck isn't too lucky. I'll keep my head up thought, I have to this is my second chance...♥
Some day his heart will be mine ♥
Rating and being rated...
13:16 Apr 26 2006
Times Read: 757
I finally feel well enough to return here. I am disappointed however, I'm not online too much for the past few days and my profile is forgotten. I haven't got any new ratings since the day I decided to take a break, a few days ago. Same with my portfolio I didn't put a bunch of my time into both of them, so that they could be unrecgonzied and ignored. Is it like an epidemic of do not rate Pinky or something?! I don't know but either way it's not kool, no one stops by and looks at my work anymore...it makes me sad. I just put up new pics, and I'm about to put up a few more. I doubt anyone will check it out, but I'm gunna update anyway. If no one else will take a look, at least I get the pleasure of viewing my work whenever I want to. Who knows maybe this time around people will rate my work instead of just browsing and leaving. If you've already made the effort to look at my profile/portfolio why not rate me while you're there and do myself and yourself a favor! Show me some love, my profile/portfolio are lonesome and unloved...
You know you want to! :D
420
20:14 Apr 20 2006
Times Read: 771
Happy 420 stoners of VR!
Everybody get high :D
I already am...
Breaking throught...
06:45 Apr 19 2006
Times Read: 783
I think I've made a big mistake. I can't do this yet, I realized that I can not settle for anything less! I WON'T! I can't give up now I still feel, and I'm not pissed off I overreacted (in previous entry). Even if it was true doesn't mean I still won't succeed. There is only one thing that could get in my way, and I don't see it anywhere!
I'm still in love, and I was about to give up before I ever really found out...If ever had a chance. I can't be with anybody , when I close my eyes and wish it was someone else! There is no inevitable way for no one to get hurt in this situation. Someone will, and if it isn't me the first time...then it might be the second...
If it does happen to me, then I deserve it then! However if it does not that would mean, everything that happend to get there...would be worth it all. Then one way or another I can finally rest my tormented soul. Then either be happy with what I gained, or feel some pain and only learn, and become stronger then I was before. I'll be happy just to be truly free, from a prison I cannot yet break....because I can't until I know, if I do or don't have a chance.
Sometimes lesson's are better to be tought the hard way...
♥
06:23 Apr 17 2006
Times Read: 794
3 days left till my favorite holiday, and I just got the most horrible news ever! I am totally crushed, I don't know if it's true or not. Until I know thought this pain will reside inside of me. I may not be well for the next few days, I can barely type this...all I can say is that I wished I never loved him, I don't deserve this...or maybe I do, for being such a fool? But then again I'm not even sure, the only thing I can do is wait...
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¿ ♥ ?
My boots!23:41 Apr 16 2006
Times Read: 798
These are the boots I just ordered yesterday...sooo hott! Only smaller and cutier, because I wear a size 6! ^.^
Coven stats13:54 Apr 16 2006
Times Read: 808
It's almsot been 2 weeks, and look where we are! I am very proud of how well my coven is doing. I am so glad I decided to do this! :)
Members:16
House Favor: 2305
Ratings Score: 2.70639
Status Score: 1.4722
Favor Score: 0.0669
Total Score: 4.24549
Average Rating of Members: 8.201
Average Status Level of Members: 12.938
Strange vision...
21:07 Apr 15 2006
Times Read: 815
Last night while I slept, another one of those vivid dreams happend again. My dreams that seem so real to me are a tiny glimps into my future! Yea you heard me I have dreams that allow me to see into my life at a later time. Not by a lot maybe between a few days, to a month or so ahead. Every vivid dream I've dreamt before came true in my life eventually. I have gifted dreams, and I had another last night! ^.^
I've been pondering a lot lately about the way I feel, and hoping how the person I feel for reacts to mine. Last time I spilled a lot of myself out, some of it I went a little overboard with. Err but I was a bit tipsy, I never realize how much alochol my little self can consume! So anyhoo I said a little more then I wanted to, and now I've had to to sit hear and wonder how he took it. Sex never means anything...does it?
Everything went perfectly in my dream, the emotions of it the feelings physically and my thoughts mentally as it was all happening! Now when I get laid in my dream and it's vivid, that means I will be shortly in reality. Especially if it's a vivid dream with this specific person I feel for. All I can say is I sense a fear that can, and will be overcome. I know that summer 2006 is going to be full of a lot of huge stuff going down! I also know it's going to be awesome, my dreams never lie to me, and I can't lie to myself....I am really in love and know we all know I do to, especially him...
5 more days till 420!
♥
Yum09:33 Apr 15 2006
Times Read: 827
Which one is more delicous?!
or
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Mmm mmm either way he looks tasty, I love bad boys! >:D
More drama o.O
09:10 Apr 15 2006
Times Read: 829
You know over the internet hidden safe behind a fucking computer screen people like to think they're big and tough. They talk shit but I'd dare them to talk half that nonsense to my face. I don't tolerate immature petty whiny little "I think I'm so smart and grown up, but I'm only 17" bitches. Here in cleveland you open up your mouth and talk shit, you'll learn a thing or two about why you shut it. God people are dumb and ignorant, thus is life and so I must deal.
Vampire Rave is becoming like some online hig school bullshit now. Lieing manipulating, onspiring, cheating, grouping up into "cliques", trash talking, and all that other drama I so dispised about school. I love this site to death, but I've been here for over a year and it just isn't the same. They joy of signing on everyday isn't the same, I'm ending up disliking more and more people as they join. Then just some members period are just plan dumb. Why does everyone take it all so seriously, this isn't real we don't see eachother, it's not our life!
I'm glad I started my own coven. Ever since the whole house stuff came along I thought about it I've been a sire for a while now). Being under control of someone who rarely shows up to guide the house was a waste of my time. I should have left earlier and made my coven. It's been so much fun so far. My members are great, and we are all doing good starting off on our 2nd week now.
We get along the members participate, plus the administers in my coven are also great people too.! ^.^ I've had all these ideas for so long, and now they're finally happening since I began Hidden Moon. As time passes by I know things will improve, that's why I'm still holding on here today.
Oh! I also forgot to mention that Dope is going to start touring in the early summer, so hooray I get to see Edsel's sexy ass again! ♥
15:00 Apr 10 2006
Times Read: 841
Despite how late I went to bed last night, I am awake early as hell this morning. I have not been able to wake up this early in a long time! It actually feels kinda good to get an early start. This monday actually might not suck so much, like it does every other week. I just wish there was something to do... :: sighs ::
April the glorious month of smoke
05:09 Apr 08 2006
Times Read: 851
Yes yes yes!!! It is my 2nd favorite month in the whole entire year...you know why?
420!!!!
The best holiday ever, I'm going to smoke up like never before! I've been having a really tough year so far, and I haven't been able to just relax and think about me for some time now. So for the glorious occasion, I am buying some very fine herbal suppliments. I'm going to take the day off from everything buisness, and Vampire Rave, and anyone other thing that may disturb my highness! :P
I can't wait to just relax and CHILLLLLLLL OUT
12 more days left!!!
I have spread my wings03:12 Apr 01 2006
Times Read: 752
I've spread my wings and taken flight. I have finally left House Lunazure, and started up my own coven! I am so excited about this new project, starting my own family and watching it grow. I plan to be a great Master and one who will appreciate each member who participates. If anyone wants to join please contact me! :D
The Coven of Hidden Moon
I find this funny00:59 Apr 01 2006
Times Read: 748
I found this pretty fun. I honestly rated this person with a 9, they came back and gave me a fucking 7! So much for returning kindness. I would have figured they'd at least give me the same rating back. I am so fed up with rating people and them downrating me, I think I'm just going to quit rating people all together. It's a pain in the ass, it's not about honesty anymore. It's all about making it to the stupid ass top page, and immaturity over a damn number! If only rating was really about the quality and the effort put into profiles and portfolio's. *sighs*
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