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So... Do I bring joy into peoples' lives?
05:30 May 29 2008
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I dunno, I was just thinkin' about it.
I remember when me and Kaycee got hyper in french, and she was sick. She told me that I just brighten up her day. That made me feel good. =]
And when I hang out with Kylee sometimes, she tells me about how she's glad to know me. I'm glad I know her too!
Sure, a couple of people have told me that I make them happy and all that jazz, but, What about everyone else?
Maybe that's why I striveto make people laugh. Laughter is a sign of happiness, and that's all I want to bring to people. But is that enough?
I loooooooooove giving people hugs. And I tell a lot of people they give great hugs all the time, sometimes, I don't hear the same back. Do my hugs comfort people?
My humor is.... unique. I mean sure, it's a lot like all my other friends. People don't believe me when I say I have a LOT of inside jokes to myself. How could they ever get it??
People think that I'm drama free, which is far from true. Maybe that's why peple come to me when they need a smile. Or rather, I go to them. I do it for myself just as much as they (might) need it. Has anyone noticed?
I feel like that one person who does good upon good upon good, and it doesn't go recognzed. But but but, sometimes it's nice it goes unrecognized. That way people don't make a big deal out of nothing. Maybe it's reconized, but not said?
I dunno... words make me think.
(woot! 100th entry!)
LAGOON!!!
06:55 May 28 2008
Times Read: 587
It was sooooo much fun! but I'm in so much pain! WHEEEEEEE!!!!!
I don't even know where to start!
If you're flat chested, the White Roller Coaster is better for you, I'm sure.
Wait till all the other schools go home, then go on Wicked.
SPIDER STALLED ON US. And Maddie was freaking out. lol. Brian just got waaaayy mad.
My forehead got sunburned.
Check out all the guys.
And wear your most outrageous shirt you can find. People WILL ask what your shirt with a rainbow on it and saying "recruiter" means. And they will point and laugh. And I will point and laugh at their ugliness. Been there, done that, still wearing that shirt ^_^.
Screaming is fuuuun. but your throat hurts afterwards.
Hold onto a guys hand as much as possible. You won't die. Or your best friends. lol.
Ohhh, what will tomorrow bring?
Random Journal Entry, because I want one.
06:56 May 27 2008
Times Read: 592
All righty now. Where to start?
If penguins had pink feathers, would global warming still be happening?
If the internet would be ad-free, would the super bowl be that big of a deal?
If the big earthquake is coming soon, why isn't anyone prepared? I know I shouldn't be saying anything, cuz I'm not either... but whatever.
If iPods came in brown, do you think trees would change to purple?
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My dogs get scared for the weirdest reasons...
I'm terrified of roller coasters. I can't help it. I know I'm not living life to the fullest, but then again, who said I had to?
I made my very own pajamas. ^___^
To my left, idiots, to my right, idiots, In front of me, my future, behind me, Bonnie, bent over. LOL! jk.
oooohhh well.
=]
ohh the slideshow! Ohh, the tears!
03:22 May 22 2008
Times Read: 604
For starters, I can't believe that you got to go, Maddie.
All right, so for the end of the year there was this slideshow of all the ninth graders when they were younger. It was really weird to see everyone like that again.
I knew a picture of me was coming up, so I was waiting for the "awwww"'s and stuff. But not like what I got.
So maybe a little after halfway through it, my picture of me from second grade pops up.
Now, let me paint a picture for you. Where we were sitting, I was SURROUNDED by my people. Shani to my left, Maddie to my right, Paola in front of me, Natalie in the back, same with Kaycee, Lanie, Jessica, and Bonnie. Gabby was on the other side of Maddie, and Michelle was on the other side of her. Kylee sat in front of Michelle, and Randi sat in front of Gabby.
That probably made nooooo sense, but my point is, my friends were everywhere, and what was funny is that I told them all where to sit. lol. Okay, not all, but I mean I chose where we sat and shit. Anywayyy,
With an auditorium full of about 100-150 people (Half our grade didn't go. lmao) you could hear the "OOOHHH! HOW CUTE!"'s from every direction it felt like.
It's true, everyone was very cute.
Back to the story, my picture popped up from when i was in second grade. The caption said "Abbey ----" And I swear to god the room screamed all at once. lmao. That's how it felt anyway.
Maddie grabbed my arm, Shani grabbed my leg (lol. don't ask), Kaycee grabbed my shoulder, Randi just screamed "Abbey I love you!" And everyone just looked over at me.
And the tears just CAME. I mean I couldn't help it. I felt sooo loved. I've never felt that loved... ever... haha. Just everyone... I mean, sure, half the people there probably didn't care, but for the people who did, OH MAN!
I can't explain how I felt. I can't explain what I saw. lol.
I dunno. It just made me way happy.
Maddie, that's why I cried.
00:54 May 14 2008
Times Read: 650
Why do people capitalize the word "me" when they are talking about themselves?
For example;
"Don't fuck with Me or My friends."
Kay, so, who made you God?
It just bugs me like no other! (That's weird to say. lol.)
If you are so for "anti txt-tlk", then you're a supporter good grammar, no?
THEN USE IT.
Hot Topic.
00:37 May 14 2008
Times Read: 659
I hate people who say "I love Hot Topic!!" when they have only one or two things from there, and it ESPECIALLY when they go in there and just browse.
Seriously, I love Hot Topic. I have a lot of clothes from there. Mostly just shirts, but I have like 10 shirts from there. And bracelets, two jackets, and nail polish. A couple other things too, I'm sure.
And what has Stevie, or Karissa, or Jamie bought from there? A pin, or gloves, MAYBE. Just some random something or other, you know?
It just grinds my gears because they act like that's the only place they shop, when if fact, they don't. And when I say don't, I mean they don't shop at all.
It gives Hot Topic a bad name.
And it hurts me personally.
Honestly.
*bangs head on table* Humans bug me.
05:23 May 13 2008
Times Read: 665
Get it?
Humans?
Bugs?
Table?
ha.
I am so funny.
Anyway, to the point.
There is none.
My brother's phone has over 400 minutes. You know how many people from out-of-state I shouldn't be talking to I would call? That's a lot. He never uses it anyway.
My phone is better, and has long distance anyway.
"Freedom ain't get no closer, no matter how far I go.."
I love Akon.
I love Lanie. haha. We are so in tune with life.
Me and Bonnie are always on the same page, if not paragraph.
And Maddie and I are always on the same brainwave.
Yes, singular. Brainwave. We share a brainwave between the two of us.
Bump AND grind.
I wanna say "Crank that monkey", i stop myself only cuz I think of that organ grinder guy-thing on the streets or whatever. Did that make sense?
I want my new computer hooked up. It has Vista. It's pretty.
Hello. :)
Motivation, And How I Have None.
23:18 May 01 2008
Times Read: 677
If anyone knows me, they should know I don't try hard, at all. For basically anything.
I don't try too hard at school, but I do put in effort.
I don't try at sports. They don't get me anywhere, so.... Logically, they are a waste of time. (So is the computer... but ssshhh.)
I don't try to solve my friends problems anymore.
They're big kids now. High school students. They need a backbone now. I mean sure, I'll lend them a hand to stand up, but I'm not going to push their legs so they can walk.
(Except Bonnie, that would be a fun thing to do at lunch.)
If I get bored, I go somewhere else, or do something else. To get away from the boredom.
BUT NO. IT FOLLOWS ME.
Anyway,
Believe it or not, this lil' jounal is about a shirt. A creation of my own. That I really don't care about anymore. Ha.
Yesterday, I was just sitting there at my work table in sewing. Then, it hit me. I. Don't. Care. I just stopped. It happens time and time again. That's just how I get over stuff. It doesn't gradually happen, it just... goes away.
That's what happened with Jamie. I just don't care about her anymore. (Many months ago. I think a little over a year.)
Anyway, what did I stop caring about? Everything.
I've forgiven everyone who has hurt me.
I've forgotten why they hurt me too.
I've relaxed. I'm 14, soon to be 15. Summer is almost here!! I don't want to be crying myself to sleep when sun is almost here!!
Does this Journal even make sense? haha.
I say "haha" way too much...
Random Journal Entry. Because I want one.
23:05 May 01 2008
Times Read: 679
Chase better not hurt my Kelsie.
Lanie better stop talking about Kyle.
Paola better stop talking about Tim.
Shani better stop talking about me.
Jessica should just stop talking.
Dana too.
And Brian.
Human beings bug me.
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