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Here are some really random things that I think most people don't know about me. And there are some things that A LOT of people know about me. It's how I kinda interpret things in my mind. Like... uhh... I say things, and everything I say, has an explanation... and... I'm just ready to explain some things. Or something. Maybe just make more questions or something. (And sorry if I repeat anything, it's hard to keep tract of over 100000000000000000 little facts ya know.) There are also some things that don't need an explanation. They are just little thoughts I think about. Like AIDS, and STDS. (just read on haha)



-I love to doodle little shapes of all kinds.

-I’m addicted to typing. I know the whole key board letters by heart. And yet I have to look at the keys to type.

-I’m so addicted to typing that I mess up spelling by switching up letters… when writing. (“the” turns into “teh.”)

-I know I’m actually very smart. I just project myself as a retard.

-I’m more complex than a rubrics cube. (ouch)

-I’ve changed more than I could ever imagine since 6th grade.

-I knew I wanted to be an x-ray tech… I don’t know for sure anymore.

-I’ve wanted to cut a few times. I literally slapped myself after thinking that.

-I fear seeing the sunrise.

-I know next to nothing about my mom and dad combined. I want to know their past. I doubt it’s ever gonna happen for some reason.

-I’d take a bullet for a dog. Three dogs actually.

-Sometimes I wish I was black. I have no idea why.

-Just because I have fat, doesn’t mean I am fat. I know this.

-I know most my poems kick-ass, but I hate saying it.

-Compliments are my weakness.

-I fear losing too many people and I know that they are never gonna leave me. I refuse to let them go.

-I’m a damn-good speller, I just write/type too fast.

-I over-analyze 600000 things a day.

-I over-exaggerate 600000 times a day.

-I would rather flip off a camera than smile.

-I’m sooo loved.

-I’m loveable as hell. And I know It.

-I use my powers for myself.

-I’m a paranoid freak.

-I wanna get married. And not have kids.

-I believe that you can have two soul mates. A guy and girl.

-I dream big. Sometimes too big.

-I support basically everyone in basically anything.

-I hardly ever base my poetry off my life.

-Drama is yucky.

-Aliens are SO out there. I wanna be dead when they pay us a visit.

-Sometimes, clothes are SO overrated. Shoes too.

-I hate my handwriting. Except when I write it. (try to figure that out)

-I’m seriously immature.

-Snoop dogg is downright sexy to me…

-Same with steve-o.

-I’m afraid of my mom.

-Frowning is overrated.

-So is smiling.

-I’m okay with being overrated. :P

-I would like to think I’m “unpredictable”.

-I’m really sarcastic.

-“Axel F” has meaning to me.

-I laugh at pain. My pain.

-I think I’m hyperactive 24/7.

-I don’t like the smell of flowers that much.

-I hate all sports. Except chess. :P

-I hate foreign languages.

-My brother needs to shave.

-I don’t like Mormons.

-I almost never feel back for laughing at people.

-I didn’t really care when hurricane Katrina hit.

-Stupid AIDS.

-Stupid STDS. FIND A DAMN CURE ALREADY.

-Green eyes tickle my fancy the most.

-Light blue is a very close second.

-I wanted to be an artist, ballerina, x-ray tech, and vet all together when I was eight.

-I’m just the girl next door.

-I love smiley faces ^_^

-I hate anime shows, but I love their games.

-I wish I was 10 at least once a day.

-Horny bastards are fun to lead on.

-I’m true to the 72% evil. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^

-I’ll take personality over looks any day.

-It’s funny to hear stoners laugh.

-When I’m older, I WANT laugh lines, it just means I’m happy. :P

-I don’t care for Emo, Screamo, or Metal at all. It’s just not me.

-Abortion is okay to me… so what does that say?

-I fear getting in trouble.

-I HATE my wall paper.

-I love black nail polish.

-I don’t get what’s so great about dinosaurs, but okay…

-Braces SUCKED.

-I hAtE iT wHeN pEoPlE tYpE lIkE tHiS.

-I love how I think.

-I wish I could remember Billy.

-I love debating things. So should I be a lawyer?

-Purses are really stupid to me.

-Glue is so cool.

-I love writing stuff that leaves people thinking.

-Leaves remind on the ground remind me of death. But it’s the newly fallen ones only.

-When people are happy. I’m happy. Many people say it, but I mean it.

-Beauty marks are just weird.

-Most people that cut have no reason to… retards.

-I love salsa. Mild only.

-I love being a lefty. ^_^

-I wonder what people think of me… it would be nice to know… but I really don’t care.

-Barbie’s a warm-up for SIMS!

-I understand what death is. Don’t think I don’t.

-I wish my brother was normal.

-I love meeting new people. Unless they are stupid.

-I have sooo many things that annoy me.

-But I’m very annoying myself.

-I like my room just the way it is. Including the mess.

-I seriously DO NOT want to grow up.

-I don’t fear death.

-I don’t get how people chew on their nails…

-Revving engines is SO. HOT.

-I hate wearing pants… so much… so, so, much…

-A lot of people don’t get rap at all. And it's so simple.

-The word “lavender” reminds me of carpet.

-Hey There Delilah makes me want to cry.

-I doubt everyone in anything sometime in our friendship/relationship. It' think it's because I doubt myself so much.

-Music is not just a "thing".

-I believe in ghosts, (or paranormal thingies) and I really wish I didn't.

-I envy many people in many things. I know they are better than me in many things, and I know that somewhere out there someone envies me, I wouldn't know for what.... or who... But I'm sure of it.

-Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if Hitler succeeded....

-I LOVE color.

-Flamingos are really cute.

-You are who you are. And if you change that, you're still you, but forever different.

-I hate roller coasters.

-I love swimming. ^_^

-Sometimes I don't understand my own thoughts.

-I'm so laid-back one of my friends acutally hated me for it a little.

-Whenever someone says "kinda" I think "fingers", but it doesn't work the other way around.

-I'm too outspoken sometimes.

-You want the truth? You got it. Now shut up, sit down, and listen.

- I love Akon ^_^ for many reasons.

-Whenever I, or my friends has to go home I'm depressed for the rest of the day.

-Whenever I'm sad, Conan O' Brien can make me happy....

-Many other people can too, but Conan doesn't know me.

-I hate it when people worry about me. I really do have everything under control.

-Whenever I'm thinking about that "special someone", I chew my gum at the front of my mouth.

-I like to chip off my nail polish.

-I like to walk around. Not alone though.

-Desks at school are WAY too small.

-I HATE STUPID PEOPLE SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!

-I want to pull the fire alarm. All to cause chaos.

-I want to rollar blade through the halls.

-Everyday is the anniversary of something else.

-I'm not afraid to start things up again if needed. Anything.

-When I get too emotional I cry. With any emotion.

-Anger for me is just like drinking soda... I drink it up, keep it in for a couple hours, but then just let go.... LMAO!!!

-I do not fear looking into a mirror.

-I cry over lost poems.

-I do not hope for the best, I do not hope for the worst.. I hope for the most realistic outcome there is.

-I like to know the rules before I play the game. But unfortunalty, I don't get that privelge sometimes.

-I like barbeques in the rain.



Do you get me now?

EMO

~if you are really "emo", you don't say that you are emo.~

That is what i think anyway.

You make LOOK emo, does NOT mean are ARE. HUGE DIFFERENCE, ok?

It comes with the "I'M ALONE ALONE IN THE FUCKING WORLD AND EVERYONE HATES ME AND I SHOULD JUST DIE" attitude. Most people do not understand that.

If you cut, then congrats! YOU ARE LOSING BLOOD AND GETTING NO WHERE IN YOUR LIFE.

wanna cookie? -_-

If you are an ex-cutter, yes, you could still be emo, but you would seriously have to be... uh... sad. or something. But most ex-cutters AREN'T SAD ANYMORE. SO HOW THE HELL ARE YOU FUCKING EMO IF YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING ACT LIKE ONE? FUCK!!!

Although emo's are sexy, my yesh indeed! But the cut marks on their wrists isn't exactly really sexy. If you ask me. But I geuss whatever tickles their fancy. Or whatever.

*sigh* So much to be said. But not enough time to say it. :P I have though about this for a very long time, and alot. It can go on forever. Are you emo? How are you emo? Why are you emo? Why emo??? you know?

*sigh*

End rant.

(Sorry if this is long, but it has to be said)

Something that has been bugging me WAY bad, and A LOT lately, is people who hate rap. Rap is what I listen to, and I love it. (same with Hip-hop, and r&b) They say they that rap has no meaning. Well true, most of it doesn't. Like the rappers are talking about getting a chick wasted and having their way with her, or they brag about their 12,000,000 dollar house. Or whatever. I KNOW THEY DO THIS. And this is the EXACT reason I listen. It has a beat that I can just relax to. BUT: not ALL rap has this vibe. I'm sure that you know of Akon, yes? (If you don't, you're gonna be lost) Well he's starting to become big in the life of music. More people know him, and being this big is hard for someone that has no prior experience. He's done things that were wrong. BUT HE KNOWS IT. In his latest song "Sorry, Blame It On Me", he says sorry to the important people in his life. His girl, his mother, and he also says sorry for messing up. I love Akon, no matter what happens to him. He gets life. He just does.

Now, for your type of music. (I assume) You know, Emo, Screamo, and Metal. (all sorts of metal) And along the lines of those. I have no problem with them at all. They are sterotyped as a genre that is all about sadness, and death, and stuff like that. I know for a fact, that that is not true. They too, get life. Which, getting life, means that you sing about a bunch of different types of topics. I'm not gonna name them, cause that'd take too long. But that kinda music is just not me. When I say ME, I mean ME. (If you read the farther down my page, you will see how I love being happy.) With the beat of emo, screamo, and metal, it's just too sad for me. And slow in some cases, I can can't get into da groove. (jk) But with rap, it's totally different. It's something that is light. And it doesn't have lots of stuff to make it remind me of something sad. You know? Being happy means being around the things you like. (and many other things) And rap is what I like. I'm happy.

Incase you didn't notice, but all types of music have their ups and downs. Things that some people love, and some people hate.

Again, sorry for having this sooo long. But it did have to be said. I have tons more to say on this topic. My feelings, thoughts, and what I've noticed.

Sterotypes are SO yesterday (:P) Grow the fuck up and notice that not everything is gonna stop when you say. Gonna start when you say. It's not gonna go the way you want, and you're gonna hate it. And to that, I say, welcome to reality. ^_^

You have different thoughts as mine? Message me. I can take on any side of anything. SO BRING IT.

Seriously. I was just thinking aobut it, and, wow.

they are! like all of them! maddie, shani, bonnie jen, shontel, joshlyn, anna, gabby, kylee, poala... dear lord. And so many more. God... it's so weird... i'm like... friends with the sexy people or something, but they aren't the sexy people. they are jsut... people.

I LOVE MY LIFE. AND MY FRIENDS! GOD!

and don't take this the wrong way. but i geuss it's like i tlak to them, or see them so much that its just... like... I see their inner beauty... and in turn, it comes out as me seeing their outer beauty?

WTF? does that make sense? *sigh*