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02:57 Oct 30 2010
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13:21 Oct 26 2010
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Parting is such sweet sorrow...
20:53 Oct 21 2010
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ThePinja just left. I feel like a huge part of me is missing now. It was a wonderful 3 days together but its terribly heart wrenching when we have to part. I'm sitting here in his poncho, yes my Mexican has a poncho lol, its soft, warm and smells like him and now its mine hehe...

I can't even begin to tell you just what an amazing man he is, I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

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xxEmaeraldxx
21:13 Oct 21 2010

Aw, why darn it! wish there was something you two could do.. like stay together!!

spookshow
21:18 Oct 21 2010

Aww just aww ok bless you both :)

PandorasBx
21:18 Oct 21 2010

Me too....we are looking at next February for him to move over here with me, keep your fingers crossed. :)

ThePinja
08:41 Oct 22 2010

Hun, I love you dearly. I think I'm the lucKiest girl in the world..... Wait that isn't right. Hehe enjoy that poncho don'tind the blood stains. Lol

KattrinaK
04:19 Oct 28 2010

luckiest girl?

well hey now....

*runs off to stare at strapons lovingly*

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21:14 Oct 20 2010
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Damn I love sex with ThePinja!
22:43 Oct 19 2010
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No! It's not his bungholio that I am sticking my finger in you pervs LOL....jeebus can't a girl be a lil' kinky? Tee hee....and for the record WC, he can stick whatever he wants wherever he wants to hehe ;)

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untrusting
02:59 Oct 20 2010

holy hell girl! Entries like this will make any reader have to take a cold shower after lol.

Celestialdragon
23:50 Oct 20 2010

*heads off to the shower lol

19:19 Oct 17 2010
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*trembles with excitement* Pinja will be on my doorstep in 16 hours or so, not that I'm counting *grins*....OMG I can't freaking wait, this last month has felt like forever. I just love being in his company he is the most amazing man, he makes me feel alive.

Needless to say I'm going to be awol a few days ;)

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TheDarkWolfman
19:23 Oct 17 2010

You go girl

xxEmaeraldxx
19:43 Oct 17 2010

Oh, wow! that is freeking ACE girl! yea ^5. You two rock x

PAGAN
20:26 Oct 17 2010

ladySnowStrixx
22:04 Oct 17 2010

ok cross your legs you ,ll be alright . or do we need to tie you down till he gets there?

Seeker2112
23:54 Oct 17 2010

Sounds awesome girl! Deep breaths lol

PandorasBx
01:12 Oct 18 2010

Cross my legs? Hell no! LOL...more like....well you know ;)

MyBloodyKisses
09:41 Oct 18 2010

Aah, I love that feeling! :)

KattrinaK
07:25 Oct 20 2010

go get IT gurrrlllll

20:48 Oct 13 2010
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Been running around like crazy trying to get ready for Pinjas visit to my place on Monday, I'm so excited, it's been almost a month since we saw each other and I can't believe how much I have missed him. He can stay for 3 days and then has to get back home to work on Thursday. I want to make each moment memorable, it will have to last us until the next time and its hard saying when that will be with the holidays almost upon us.

It's kinda funny but I have butterflies again, I would of thought I was past that after our first visit lol, I feel like a teenager geesh.

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MooniePie
20:51 Oct 13 2010

Awww YAY! I am so glad things are goin' good. You both deserve it. I'm ecstatic for you guys!

PAGAN
21:05 Oct 13 2010

hehe have fun! heh as if I even need to say that hehe

MyBloodyKisses
21:05 Oct 13 2010

Ahh that's lovely, have fun you two! :)

Bellanova333
21:27 Oct 13 2010

Oh cool have FUN! and lots of it ; )

PandorasBx
00:16 Oct 14 2010

Thanks everyone, we will ;)

Vampirewitch39
01:35 Oct 14 2010

Have fun! :)

spookshow
12:18 Oct 14 2010

~smiles~

ThePinja
22:26 Oct 14 2010

Don't stress it too much. So long as we spend our time together I can't complain.

Seeker2112
22:50 Oct 15 2010

That is wonderful! I hope all three days are exquisite!

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17:51 Oct 13 2010
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04:16 Oct 12 2010
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Heh. So I signed into YM tonight to having messages from Frank and Cody. Imagine that. Apparently Cody just broke up with his gf a few days ago and who does he contact but me, then he asks to call me. It's the same old song and dance. It wasn't too long ago that Cody was sending messages to me through Lee on FB telling me he loved me while he still had a gf. .

Well guess what? Men are on my shit list tonight, I don't play these childish games and I have my hands full with the guy I am with now. I am remembering why I was single for so long.

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18:57 Oct 11 2010
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Men can be so damned insensitive. News flash: I am not one of your guy friends. I do not want to hear about all the girls you wanted to fuck. I do not want to hear about all of the girls you wanted to date. I do not want to hear about all the girls you think are hot or pretty. I think you get the idea. If not then you will.

The next time this happens and it happens all the fucking time I'm not going to say a word, instead I will be giving you a taste of your own medicine and lets see you swallow that pill.

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xxEmaeraldxx
20:46 Oct 11 2010

I see you know the difference between the men and the boys.. it's a pity he doesn't whoever he is!

Theban
13:54 Oct 12 2010

Men can be insensitive because of their upbringing and enviroment....I know I can.

ladySnowStrixx
15:51 Oct 12 2010

Is he Blind? stupid? any of the above ? no way in hell do you ever tell your girl that crap unless you like walking funny.

09:20 Oct 11 2010
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I know we are only 5 hours apart but this long distance sucks ass lol. I miss him something terrible, just his presence and the feel of his arms around me, waking up next to him in the morning, his touch. It feels like an eternity since I was there. I'm just so lucky to have you and grateful that you are in my life.

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xxEmaeraldxx
20:47 Oct 11 2010

Aaw, if I could I would make time travel work for you both!

Serpentis
16:24 Oct 13 2010

weird, i tried putting a heart as a comment...please delete the one above.

*hugs*

19:33 Oct 06 2010
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Oh this has just been a lovely fucking day. Shitty night last night just kept right on going. I guess that's what ABSOLUTISTS get huh?! Well you aren't the only one that writes when they get pissed. And uhhh jealous of those things you call exes uhmmm no, they don't hold a candle to me in any way shape or form I'm just sick and tired of the fucking games they play with your head and the manipulation and the never ending phone calls. You can have them and their calls, maybe they will keep you warm at night.

Besides the fact that I just kicked my son out of my house after a huge fight seems he thinks this is a motel for his friends. Oh and then they barrage of insults and name calling, I took my house key, made him get off my property then all by my little self hauled all of his shit, including his bed and dresser out onto my yard!!

I am done with being disrespected!!!! Fuck you people.

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ladySnowStrixx
19:46 Oct 06 2010

WOW! mental note: Do not make Pan mad!

TheDarkWolfman
20:18 Oct 06 2010

Hopefully things will get better for you doll.

ThePinja
20:42 Oct 06 2010

I disrespected you? By feeling how I feel? By being hurt that you just won't trust me? When I don't even know if really you've told Alex to leave you alone period. For good! When you may or may not still have a file folder of every indecent picture a guy has sent you an more. When all the guys who have girlfriends still flirt with you so shamelessly. I trust you. Because I have to hope you would never do anything. I know in my heart you wouldn't. This is on US, not everybody else. My past is part of who I am. Ive been keeping and tossing what works and what doesn't. You say it's the mind games.... It bugs me immensely that they call. I make it quick, tell them things they didn't want to hear. You want all of me, I want all of you. I'm a realist and know that means good and bad. That progress and betterment will be had. I don't think you're jealous of them. Merely that I still have memories.

A man destroyed your world, devastated you, and who knows how many others. I'm paying the price for that, and all your others. And tell me to leave the past where it is? Fine. I won't do a favor and hand out a few Mary Kay business cards to my servers for an ex, and friend. Everyone else, is the past. Other than to whine about their lives, they don't contact me, and for that I have told them to leave me alone. But you wouldn't believe me if I did it in front of you.

And I still love you, because I hope you can let me in without those walls. No knights, no manipulations, no dilusions. Just Rodney, a complicated, simple, changing oxymoron, who is in love with hopefully that last woman he'll ever want to love.

ThePinja
20:46 Oct 06 2010

Because, you are everything I've dreamed, I know no one can beat you. You are once in a lifetime, so why would I want another?

KattrinaK
03:35 Oct 10 2010

I'm glad you guys are talking, even if it's here, and attempting to work it out.

you guys are meant for each other...yes, you are, simply put.

you both come with plenty of Samsonite, however, and it's making one Party VERY insecure (probably from a History of bein' cheated on in the Past) and the other Party is laying down their Heart and opening it up to you but yet, needs to stop doing things with some people that are pushing your buttons and opening up a can of worms...both Parties together are causing shit to fly, stuff needs to stop on BOTH ends (and yes...once again, i fucking SAID it).

walking into unfamiliar Territory isn't easy for anyone, but the Rewards are so fucking amazing.

i believe in you two, communication and baby steps will heal this Rift.

my Love to you both.

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19:18 Oct 06 2010
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17:48 Oct 02 2010
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22:44 Oct 01 2010
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21:01 Oct 01 2010
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Time to do what I do best ...
18:12 Oct 01 2010
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I meant to search for just one thing and got caught up in reading everything in your journal again, why do I torture myself so. You throw that word out so easily and to so, so many, they are countless in numbers, and in such a short amount of time. I feel sick to my stomach once again. Don't you know it cheapens your words? It gives them less meaning, so that they don't amount to much when spoken to me.

It gives me great pause.

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spookshow
18:35 Oct 01 2010

:( this does not sound good :(