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21:35 Oct 31 2010
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Since I don't like cramming up the Master Messages I will put it here. I wish all of you a very safe and Happy Halloween! Hope you all have lots of fun, I'll be taking my son out trick or treating and then we are going to see a scary movie together :D

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atyourwindow
21:40 Oct 31 2010

i only use the master messages during holidays.

PandorasBx
21:46 Oct 31 2010

I know that Cancer has to filter through it all so I just avoid doing that. There are 67 Covens alone so yeah...but its all in good thoughts :D

xxBlueFairyxx
01:11 Nov 01 2010

Happy Halloween Pandora.:-)

KattrinaK
02:31 Nov 01 2010

Happy Halloween!

ImageMaker
04:02 Nov 01 2010

Cute graphic! Happy Halloween!

07:03 Oct 29 2010
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I just had a terrible fight with my daughter who has declared that I will never hear from her again. But of course I'm thinking, "yeah until you want something". I had a whole thing written out about it but really it doesn't matter to most of you so I deleted it. But basically I had forgotten to take her to an appointment, first time ever, apologized profusely, offered to pay for the charges. She goes off on me and won't let it go, ending in screaming at me that I have never been there for her her entire life. Now that hurt. Really hurt. This girl has had everything from me she has ever needed both materially and mentally. Anything she has ever asked for I have given. From money, my car, food, clothes, my time and love. Despite the fact that she has stolen from me on more than one occasion, the last time it happened I kicked her out of my house and we didn't talk for over a year. She never even apologized or showed any remorse and it was A LOT of money. But I forgave her. If anything I spoiled her, I can't tell you how many people her brothers included that told me I gave her too much. And now this. She is an ungrateful, selfish, self entitled little girl that thinks she knows it all. And that the world owes her. I am tired of hearing her talk about how hard her life has been and her incessant pity parties. The choices she has made have taken her to where she is now. But its never her fault, its always something somebody else did, she has no accountability. Even when she stole my atm card and cleaned out my account and got herself kicked out of my house somehow it was my fault that she was homeless. She had places to go but she would rather feel sorry for herself and try to make me out to be the bad guy. I'm just so done with it.

You know you do your best as a parent to teach them right from wrong, give them what you believe to be good morals and values in which to guide their life by but that does not guarantee that they will stay on that path. So once again we are estranged, heh, bet I save a lot of money :)

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PAGAN
11:16 Oct 29 2010

kids eh. Sometimes you just gotta let them make it on their own. Hope things work out for you :)

birra
14:47 Oct 29 2010

It doesn't matter how well you raise them, most people have trouble putting themselves in other people's shoes. When stress builds up, the respond in a very egocentric way, considering only their own stress and situation.

Was this the daughter that just had the incident with the fire at her apartment?

ladySnowStrixx
16:23 Oct 29 2010

Sweetie, Kids are never going to take responsibility for anything they can blame you for My Daughter hasn't stole form me But Her life and her kids lives are Shit too because of HER choices , We tried to help her but She always is finding another reason to need help , sometimes you have to just Stop and say no more and let them go it alone to learn something from it. It hurts and you want to help , thats natural but they,ll never learn anything form it if you do.

MyArmyLife
19:35 Oct 29 2010

Not all kids are that way. I was never that way. I was severely abused and put in the hospital countless times but I always thought it was my fault and so I strived to be the perfect daughter never mind the fact that it could never happen since my parents were alcoholics and drugs addicts.

Even when I was homeless, I didn't blame anyone. I just worked harder to try and make myself better.

You can try to teach them what you can and try to make sure they know right from wrong but in the end, they all have their own minds so they're going to do what they want. You gave her everything she wanted and needed and she took it for granted. Honestly, I hate kids like that. If my parents were EVER even a QUARTER of the parent you are, I'd have been one happy fucking camper.

You did you best, Love. She's grown and out now. It hurts, I know, but the best you can do is try to block out and forget the bad. She'll always be your little girl and you'll always love her but there's nothing that says you have to put up with her or that crap anymore.

PandorasBx
19:56 Oct 29 2010

Thanks everyone for your thoughts. And Birra, yes, that is the same daughter, I have only 1 daughter and 4 sons.

16:32 Oct 24 2010
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Late last night my daughter headed home to find out her apartment building was on fire from a car that had somehow caught on fire in the buildings covered carport. Breezy lives on the 2nd floor and the carport was partially under her window. Her window shattered from the heat, flames licking up the sides and her apartment was filled with smoke. Her car was totaled along with all the others, tires melted to the ground.

All I can say is thank God she decided to stay late at my place last night and didn't get home earlier. She is 8 months pregnant, it wouldn't of been good. Thankfully no one was hurt.

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spookshow
16:34 Oct 24 2010

OMG!!!

so glad she was not hurt wow how awful

very shocking thoughts are with you...

Oceanne
17:06 Oct 24 2010

wow!WOW.

Im really glad to hear she did hang with you longer than anticipated.

LadyKrystalynDarkstar
17:15 Oct 24 2010

I've seen a car catch on fire in a carport once when I lived in Phoenix. It was really scary. I am really glad your daughter is ok and no one else was hurt.

xxEmaeraldxx
17:37 Oct 24 2010

OMG darling, first thing that comes to mind.. Is thank God she is okay! What stroke of good fate was it she stayed with you! The rest can all be replaced.

PAGAN
20:13 Oct 24 2010

Real glad she is ok, still, its a shock for you both :)

ImageMaker
06:14 Oct 25 2010

I'm so glad she was safe with you and not at home! Did she lose any of her stuff?

PandorasBx
02:38 Oct 26 2010

Thanks everyone. Just her car...

KattrinaK
22:22 Oct 28 2010

possessions never add up to a life's cost.

as much as it will hurt her to have lost a car (hopefully temporarily) what luck, to have herself and baby intact...

PRIVATE ENTRY
07:11 Oct 24 2010
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03:34 Oct 22 2010
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Feasting on the dinner Pinja made me last night, blackened salmon on a bed of capellini noodles in Alfredo sauce, sauce made from scratch, yummy! This man can cook let me tell you, what a bonus :D Could of only been better if he was cooking in nothing other than an apron hehehe ;) Deeeeeelicious

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meeper
03:40 Oct 22 2010

Glad it sounds like you're having a good time. Try not to get into too much trouble :P

PandorasBx
05:28 Oct 22 2010

Too late for that meeps ;)

KattrinaK
06:30 Oct 22 2010

and why not?

am i the only one that demands only 1 Item of Clothing per *&^%-Partner in the House at All Times???

O.o

ThePinja
08:58 Oct 22 2010

Oh wait Till I add some veggies ;)

19:21 Oct 16 2010
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Nothing like being woken up early on a day I don't have to get up for once by freaking bible thumpers. And of course its a cute little old man and an even cuter little girl. Thankfully I am grumpy in the morning and did not mince words. I don't think they'll be back heh...

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xRobin3x
19:36 Oct 16 2010

lol.... yeah, its annoying.... sadly no matter what you do, there be back.

WildChild
19:55 Oct 16 2010

Hahaha I have a tale that is close to that one. Only I had been to a slayer concert the night before. Ahhh the memories this has brought back.

PandorasBx
19:59 Oct 16 2010

Oh my I can just imagine lol

04:14 Oct 16 2010
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When I was married to my 2nd husband Jason, he was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. All of this and what I went through with him came rushing back to me today while watching a show on PBS about someone whose father had it most of their life and the pain and struggle their family went through trying to deal with it.

When he went through his first major episode it marked the beginning of the end for us. I can't even begin to tell you the havoc it reaped onto my family. The calls he made to the FBI saying our phones were tapped, setting up a video camera in front of the computer because it was spying on us, the list is endless and some were extremely frightening but upsetting to divulge so I'm not going there.

One day he called me at work sobbing and panicked saying he didn't know what was real and what wasn't anymore begging for help. He was hospitalized. I tried to be there for him every step of the way, I kept reminding myself that he is accusations were just part of his psychosis. The hospital can't keep them unless they threaten others lives or their own so he left. He wouldn't stay on his meds. His episodes would come and go, he could be fine for months and then it would start again perhaps in lesser degrees but still bad.

Ultimately there came a time when I needed him. When all of his issues compounded mine and it was more than I could take. But he wasn't there for me when I needed him most, my pain was never acknowledged but ignored and ridiculed. 3 months later I left him.

Schizophrenia effects 1 in 100 people. Think about that.

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ladySnowStrixx
15:30 Oct 16 2010

I understand how you feel , and My heart goes out to you .in a way I know how you feel it can be very irritating at times especially when its every day even when you might have wanted to do something you couldn't because of him.

Bellanova333
17:05 Oct 16 2010

I understand this all too well I have people in my family affected by various mental illnesses and I was married once upon a time to a man who was bi-polar and had a huge love affair with meth ): It was a very hard and lonely road and yes very very scary sometimes....heh a lot of the time actually. I am glad we are both not in those situations anymore. ~hugs~

xRobin3x
19:40 Oct 16 2010

I have a brother like that. idk if not seeing him is a good thing, probley is. I do miss my brother. But not dealing with that is a blessing. My parents dealt with it more so. And i guess not knowing where he is, is i guess the upside.

PandorasBx
20:02 Oct 16 2010

Well the show was about how the daughter pushed him out of her life and how that effected him. While it is hard to deal with I still did, I didn't love him any less for it.

chrysanthemia
20:18 Oct 16 2010

It affects my mom. Along with a cocktail of myriad other imbalances and disorders. And I'm so glad to have left.

19:43 Oct 14 2010
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Ack! Had a message from someone on Facebook today asking me if I remember them. Ok, looking at his name and picture I'm thinking, "I might have spoken to you in a drunken haze a few years ago" . Not sure how well that statement would go over *grins*.

Seriously though, I hate it when I can't remember people and it happens a lot these days. I'll just fake it heh..

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ladySnowStrixx
20:34 Oct 14 2010

why? just tell him you meet so many people you can't possibly remember them all

PandorasBx
20:47 Oct 14 2010

This is true...a mans ego is so fragile though lol

Indulgence
23:00 Oct 14 2010

"Sure I remember you! You had the HUGE penis, right? The awesome hunk of wood? It's so big it scares me. Please don't contact me again. Thank you! Have a great day!" :P

PandorasBx
23:11 Oct 14 2010

LOL! I have a feeling you've used that before :P

04:49 Oct 13 2010
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Going past Polar Bear today their sign outside read "New! Baked Potatoes". Mmmmkay, thats just not right, seriously, Polar Bear is a frozen yogurt shop. Apparently not anymore....

I must be getting old.....ER.

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xxEmaeraldxx
21:02 Oct 14 2010

Hmm.. Maybe they are selling frozen potatoe flavoured yogurt? Damn, I am glad to hear its new though! >>

PandorasBx
22:41 Oct 14 2010

Gross..

17:28 Oct 12 2010
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I have a lot of things to think about. I just am not sure about much of anything anymore. I just want a simple life and I'm tired of the fighting and arguing with all of the ones in mine. I need to step back and reassess what I am doing and where I am going I have been too stressed out lately. Why can't things be easier?

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PAGAN
18:21 Oct 12 2010

Time for a little 'you' time maybe? difficult I know to find that time but sometimes you do just need to take a step back and think about you :)

KattrinaK
05:12 Oct 13 2010

mm, life's not easy hun.

13:05 Oct 05 2010
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The ex husband and his wifey have been pressuring me to have Justin change schools. Their reasoning is because they say his teacher is mean to him. Now if I felt his teacher was being out of line I would be the first one down there scratching her eyes out at the very least heh. It most likely stems from the fact that they don't like her as she supposedly was very rude to Jason one day, he was butt hurt. Sure she has reprimanded Justin a few times but I don't kid myself into thinking my son is a complete angel. He is MY son after all lol.

Ok. The real reasons for the change. Katy (wifey) has had to call me to ask me to start taking Justin to and fro from school even when they have him as she says its inconvenient for her due to many reasons, hell they have a LIVE-IN NANNY let her do it for heavens sakes, thats what she gets paid for. The school they want him to go to is just a few blocks from THEIR house, its a Blue Ribbon School not easy to get into and say I have a month to get him in BUT his address would have to be theirs (insert child custody ammo here). They are now complaining about his tutoring, the hours "could" take up time away from after school activities and the other school is so great he wouldn't need it anymore pffft. Another inconvenience? They try telling me they would drive Justin to my place after school when its my days and how nice that would be for me, I currently drive him back and forth, the truth of the matter is that Jason is constantly having to call me on his days to ask me to pick him up due to his work load heh.

Anyways the list goes on...Now my simple solution that nobody wants to listen to is this: Simply put him in another class at the same school. SHAZAM! Now was that so hard?

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DarkCrystal
14:16 Oct 05 2010

You "could" upset your ex husband and his wifey, by giving Justin "home schooling". And/Or if you have a enough $? You could pay a private schooling company, so they would come around to your place for teaching Justin at home.

xRobin3x
15:06 Oct 05 2010

I was homed schoold for some years, and read better then most the graduate from a public school, not that i am the best reader mind ya, ;)

MissxGhost
04:17 Oct 06 2010

Sounds like them trying to get some more custody ground...

xxEmaeraldxx
19:28 Oct 06 2010

What does Justin want? It seems unjust that custody could be given away because of a schooling address issue and well after all custody of the child has already been granted to you.

KattrinaK
19:24 Oct 10 2010

Just home school him....bastards.

Theban
14:04 Oct 12 2010

Simple ask Justin what he wants.

@!%*
03:16 Oct 05 2010
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Have I mentioned how much I wholeheartedly detest people as a general rule? I almost said hate but people just aren't worth even that most of the time.

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Theban
09:39 Oct 05 2010

I find some people horrible, but never the less still quiet fascinating.

Oh My Eyes!
17:10 Oct 03 2010
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Wonders of all wonders I had never seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show and now I know why. When I went to see Pinja it was on our list of things to do, he was so excited for me to see it and admittedly I was too, eager to see what all the fuss was about. And of course its a cult film.

Why is it a cult film I beg you to tell me? I fell asleep watching it. It was one of the most boring and stupid movies I have ever seen. Is this film just an excuse for the audience to get drunk and act like fools? Because they could never look as idiotic as the characters in the movie I assure you.

*Le Sigh*

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TheArtistRose
17:14 Oct 03 2010

But yet its one of those things that you have to see for some reason. LOL

xxEmaeraldxx
17:15 Oct 03 2010

I went to the stage production of the show in London.. believe me, I freaked! The show became alive and before you knew it.. you were a target! hah.. scary stuff ;) Sorry, your impression of it wasn't so good.. but then I can understand that if it was just on a cinema screen.

ThePinja
17:43 Oct 03 2010

Don't worry hun, well see a stage production one of these days ;)

CarnelianMyst
17:44 Oct 03 2010

I heart Tim Curry in fishnet stockings. :D

PandorasBx
17:45 Oct 03 2010

Oh no we won't lol *slaps your booty*

LadyKrystalynDarkstar
17:56 Oct 03 2010

HOW funny this is............. I just saw this movie last night. We rented it actually. We hadn't seen it for a LONG time and I wanted to relive some of the funnier moments. DAMNIT JANET!!

Any how...... I am sorry you didn't like it. It's something you have to "get" and be a part of to really enjoy it. There used to be a place in San Diego where they played it every weekend at midnight and the locals would come in their costumes and act it out. It was great.

As years passed, I saw an interview with Tim Curry and he said he regrets doing that part for various reasons, but the main one was because he's NOT gay or transexual. None the less, it was a hit for its time.

ladySnowStrixx
18:05 Oct 03 2010

but... but.... it a great movie to watch on Halloween , I didn't see it till I was in my 30's and I loved it.

Indulgence
18:13 Oct 03 2010

It's one of those movies that, if you go someplace dressed as one of the characters, most people will know who you are. I love it.

PAGAN
18:52 Oct 03 2010

I really didn't get it when folk raved about it at first, I thought it was a complete waste of my time. I've watched it recently and realised I quite like it but I'd love to see it on stage. I guess its just one of those things, you love it or hate it, most cult films are pants.

KattrinaK
19:03 Oct 03 2010

I experienced that movie for the first time with friends and got to do the Time Warp in the theater with about 300 people when I was barely 18. I own the Movie...it's amazing; you just need to "dig" that type of subject matter.

: P

Kyriele
21:15 Oct 21 2010

Oddly enough...I credit a lot of my life to Frank N Furter. I saw this at 16 when I was in a private boarding school. There he was...the epitomy of NOT being a sheeple...and he said:

Give yourself over

To absolute pleasure

Swim the warm waters

Of Sins of the Flesh...

Can't you just see it?

Don't dream it.

Be it.

I've lived my entire life by that creed: don't dream it, fantasize it, etc....just be it..do it. Why live your life with a pile of regrets?? We never regret that which we have done near so much as the things we FAILED to do.

PandorasBx
21:21 Oct 21 2010

Wise words Barb :)

Good morning to you too
19:47 Oct 02 2010
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I seriously think men need a new covert method of staring at your breasts/cleavage. There was a knock on my door early this morning, I hastily threw on a short silk robe I own, answered to a guy most likely in his early twenties. It was comical I kid you not. I swear to God he forgot what he was there for LOL! When he could tear his eyes away long enough to tell me, it was for donations for a food drive, I was thinking he should be paying me instead heh.....

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spookshow
19:55 Oct 02 2010

lol i love this show em what ya got girl!

i'm sure you will get more at your door now

after he goes and tell's all his friends ~giggles~

PandorasBx
19:58 Oct 02 2010

Oh God no lol

TheDarkWolfman
20:00 Oct 02 2010

Remember...the head below the belt thinks for the one on the shoulders in the 20s.

and the teens and the 30s...oh you get my meaning...

Isis101
20:46 Oct 02 2010

LOL!

Indulgence
22:29 Oct 02 2010

When they stare at my ta-tas....I just stare at their crotch. Sometimes I ask "is that a sock in there or is that all you?" Because you KNOW they want to ask if your tits are real, if you have nice ones.

chrysanthemia
22:52 Oct 02 2010

Seinfeld comes to mind. "You just glance and look away, you don't stare--it's like the sun!"

I really don't care anymore though, if someone stares at my breasts. I know guys are going to. I could say "My face is up here," but I know they're thinking "Yeah, but your gigantic boobs are right here."

ladySnowStrixx
03:17 Oct 03 2010

you should have just opened the robe and said " get a good look cause it will be the last."