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Well, another day has passed. Still nothing. I'm typing on this stupid comp, and the space button barely works. =/ Anyway, I see all this drama that goes on here as stupid. You talked to my girl, I'm gonna beat you up type thing. Ya know? But yet again, I have nobody to vent to, so here I sit. Its all stupid. I think I"m going back into a depressive state. I want to cut more, but can't. They'll make me talk to that retarded doctor. UGh, I hate life. Fuck.Life.

So this whole thing called life, it gets pretty boring. Mainly because I'm stuck at effing job corps. Why? Because I messed up. Yeah, I messed up, but I'm trying to fix it. I see all these couples around, they look so happy, and it really makes me feel alone. But then I think, I do have the most amazing woman ever! But I don't have her here with me. So hopefully soon. I figured now would be a good time to write. Stuck in the day room, effing football all the way up on the tv. (I EFFING HATE JOCKS! FOOTBALL! ALL OF IT!) But whatever. I was trying to watch a movie, but like I said, football, all the way up! I have a few good friends here, key word being a few. But honestly, I don't know how many are true friends. Honestly I don't know how many true friends I have at all. I'm not sure who to trust. It's really hard to trust anymore, because I have been effed over so bad. But what ya gonna do? Right? Just ignore it. I'm really missing my love right now. Apparently she's grounded! (shouldn't do naughty things) but I guess I understand at the same time. Okay, well I think I'm done. Football and noise, and all of it is annoying. If you read this far, thanks for listening. Buh-bye!

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xneedyoux
15:49 Dec 14 2009

and who was that amazing woman??

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I don't know anymore. All people do is wanna talk shit, and fight. N I think to myself, we are all adults, I can understand getting angry, or wanting to hurt someone. But the difference between being a grown vampire, or a lil kid human, is the ability to recognize and resolve conflict without fighting. Sometimes, yes it is necessary, but rarely. Can anyone explain to me why that is always what everyone wants to fight? If you can, please, let me know.