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in the darkness, there is an underline fear.. and for more reasons than i know.. as i layed there it was cleared away.. i felt more , more than ever . the word complete. could only start to explain it. iknew i knew him . forever. almost as if we never left the time we shared. , never died, never aged..never departed..like our love never ended.. as if no matter what it continues on . and on . over the time . time does nothing to the connection its always same strong. for when we meet i would never of known that he could b like this to me. the first moments shared i wanted to go. go away but something called me near. so i sat . he never left me i never left him after that one day , when we meet again i knew him .. the more time that we share , the more we are able to relize whats there.. . ... ..... ..... i wish i could remember more.. . ... ... .....

i tryed to say up ... so that way in the end i would be soo tired i could pass out and have the ability to dream .. my day was stressing.. i thought i grew out of my old childhood habits .. but i was rong.. i use to kick who ever slept with me so make sure they were always there .. than i started to sleep alone .. and i just beat my self up .. but i have not done such for a long time a few years towards anyone else . ok . so i had a day like anyother i spent time with the love of my life .. well for the moment . hope he stays who knows anyway . moveing on . so he just grabed me today and put his face in my chest so i held on to him and played with is long , soft , amazeing hair and so that happened arround 12 . my friend spent the night and in the middle of the night i dident kick her but i grabed her head put it in my chest . and i played with her hair and i gave her all those cute kisses i gave him .. ect. and i really was dreaming over what happened with him that day .. so than i wake up with her arround 11 and she says hi .. lol im like hello . . . did i rape ur head last night ? lol so im bringing my reality in to my dreams but acting it out again in real life.. what happens if next time i try to kill him lol and so i dream it again . and i kill whos sleeping with me .. lol o well .its just odd. its the first time i have dreamed in a while ..