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For many like me we seem to be drawn towards the darker side of nature. I have come to accept it as part of me. Where I also stand is in order to fully appreciate what the darkness can offer you, you must also fully understand light and its role, for without light there can be no dark and vice versa. Kind of a heaven and hell thing. Bad and good. You get the point. What it boils down to is I'm peaceful and one with the light, but by learning and self-discovery I'm more in-tune with the darkness. This is my calling and this is where I will stay. Anyone who knows what I'm talking about, you can relate. We all are beautiful and we all have the darkness in us, the question is which one are you?

This is kind of a confession so bare with me. For those of you who want to know exactly who Zane is, this is the best place to come to. For starters I'm the same as everybody else with some minor/major differences. I'm easy to get along with but there are times where I can't stand people. I just want to be away from them and not have anything to do with them. Very few people have seen this first hand. I try not to let many people in to my head for the simple fact is that once they are inside then they can destroy you without even touching you. So I tend to keep a lot of thoughts in where they belong. My inner demons are partially the reason for making me the person I am today. Without the struggles and inner fighting amongst myself I do not think I would be as strong as I am now. I wish I could tell you everything but you would need a notebook to even start to figure me out. I'm just one of those kinds of people.

Ever since I was a kid I remember people all around me telling me that being nice no matter what was always the best thing to do. Best way to go about things, but the thing is, with so much shit going on how can one be nice and not get pissed? Really? People do you wrong, take advantage of you and the like. So how can you be nice about it? Especially if you have a habit of bottling things up then something comes along and you can't control it any longer. I find it easier to use words without threatening anyone, that way you can let some out without anyone getting hurt physically. Mentally they will but if they deserve it, then why should you care? But that's just me. Maybe there is another way but one thing is for sure, I can't be nice all the time.