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I had quite an interesting dream last night, as I didn't plan on dreaming at all-- I rarely do.



It was of my ex, and oddly enough it was a showdown type of thing.



...I'd go into more detail if I could-- I feel I should not.

Tonight, against Niles' flesh I lay in thought.



So much to do before it's too late, and very little time to truly do it in. I've a long, long way to go.



Work, school, FAFSA supprot, medical/life insurence, etc. Has 22 years gone so quickly?



I almost feel swallowed up in it all.

Though ThyLordDracula apparently removed himself(?) from the site, I find it interesting how on high he speaks of me.



It's horribly flattering I'll give it that, but I personally don't feel I'm the epitomy of vampiric style.



" shes very imaginative , bright and straight up front with her opinions -nonetheless a lady with a lot of bite ...

shes also very romantic in a way that is very appealing as she is very creative and finds ways to keep a man on his toes ....

shes a writer with expression her pics are sexy and very erotic ...

and needless to say - she also has the devout love for one that shows loyalty and vamps like me - find that a very definitive attribute ...."



Belly dancing this evening was fantastic. I admit I got caught up in it a bit too much-- I must not get so bored and excited about dance that I screw myself by exercising the same day, mere hours before I go. I get tired too easily then!



I think I'll be working with a burgandy and royal blue for my outfit officially. We've a recital (if we -want- to be in it) come April, so it'll be nice to have something together by then.

Things are changing once more-- I know it, I.

There is something deep to the side where no one cares to go, and yet I think of it, and yet at times I dream of it.



As of late it's been hard to breathe, and yet in 15 minutes I can make a mile.



I exercise, I think-- and yet it seem at times there is no thought in my head except the feeling that something is amiss... that there is something which needs be found.



I don't know if it it more of a person, a place or simply an object, but it calls to me and I know soon I must find it, and keep it close.



I take up my favorite necklace of labradorite adn rub it against my flesh. I feel soothed by it, and yet I feel... aloft.



Perhaps if I sleep with it on instead of my usual pearl as of late, what I seek will come to me in dream.

Migraines seem to come in droves as of late. What a way to start a new year, hmm?



Niles will be getting his van for work hopefully thursday, and thus have the old job back. I'm horribly proud of him-- so much has gone on, and yet he's never fully given up.



As for myself I need rest, relaxation. A thick, foamy bubble bath and some wine sounds like a good idea.