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Sick :(
06:48 May 13 2006
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well lastnight kicked ass, i had a blast, met so many new amazing people, they all thought i was some sort of mistress, (locks her corsets away)

havent sleep since, but im gonna head and pass out after this has been added. im still pretty pastered so dont know how this is gonna turn out or if im making any scene oh well, i sooooooooooo gotta stop alco and drugs dont like the feeling in my tummy, nest friday is gonna hit the roof, an all nighter goth thang, i dont think i danced as much as i did last night in a while bt hey i needed it, as for me still not feeling on the upper i just gotta fix the scews in my head and hope for better days



off to sleep nite nite





kisses drews forehead

down-hill
22:55 May 11 2006
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Its a new day, but im still feeling like shit, my head is pounding, im angry and im hurting, i could kill someone....



but good news is im getting my new corset today, and im going to go out and party till i drop, i thank Drew for caring about me, adds one good thing in my life, one thing for sure is i wouldnt want to hurt you in any way, and i hope that i can stay sane till were together, but i cant promise that i will, as they say promises were made for breaking, but it doesnt change the way i feel about you. i feel like i have fallen in love with you and hope you are feeling the same as in your heart

Feeling down
22:40 May 10 2006
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You know when everything is just pissing you off, you annoyed and just endup getting depressed, that what i feel like now, started from last night my bitch of a room-mate who happens to be my best friend, she is so fucking lazy, she comes home goes straight to the net them moves to the phone, its like dickhead get up and move, thats not the only thing i'm feeling like shit all together, something inside me is borthering me but i dont know what it is, i feel like the whole world is agaisnt me and what i do, my mates, Mates? do they even exsit anymore only there when they need your or have something that they can benift from, my parents i'm missing them and feel like were drifting away, i hate the fact that im not with Drew its fucking killing me and there is nothing i can do, i think the best thing is to fucking shoot a bullet into the my head and end this misery, i hate everyone, i hate the world and i hate my fucking life, come to think of it i am doomed i am a cursed soul.

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05:49 May 10 2006
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At work nothing much happening except for the fact that my bosses have no clue in what there doing "lay of the drugs dude" :P



as for me im sweet happier these days, and actually wanting to be alive,

my lovely bf Drew sent me an amazing email which draw a tear to my eye, as he knew it would. :) mwa (licks your cheek) u stated that you would do anything to make me happy, but hey wait...... i dont need any more or anything less, your the best thing to happen to me right now. You have the effect of a drug, a spell that would make the world happy, knowing that your mine and always will be is all i want, the rest is just a bonus....

knowing that in time, i will be able to fall alseep next to, wake up to you and be able to look you in the eyes and tell you that being with you was the greatest gift i could have ever gotten.....



holding you always in my heart Drew mwa

Blah!
01:01 May 09 2006
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Well apart from it being frezzing cold down here in AUstralia, and hating the fact that im at work, god my bosse's son is such a nob, dieeeeeeee



I'm pretty good getting excited for the weekend, club blink is gonna go off, oh i get my new corset sometime this week or next woOt,wOot



living out of home rocks, i do what i want when i want and have no rules to follow :)



"drew stop running around in my head" your driving me crazy but its all good, i dont think i could ever get enough of you, your just to good to be truth, i thank god for giving me the chance to meet someone that i can see m yself being with till death do us part, i feel like we really connect, there is this amazing chemistry between us, even though you are on the otherside of the world, im still drawn to you, knowing that i have never felt like this before towards someone espcially in the situation, but baby you all worth the wait and while

mwas kisses you from head to toes, and bites you lips letting you know how much i want you.

Luck
06:46 May 01 2006
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Well it was actually yesterday that i had a good old chat with someone, in which im sure he knows who it is, that i realized that i truley feel something in my heart for him, the pressure of not talking to him has been taken away and has given me the chance to let nothing get in the way, baby i might not be with you now, but i will be , just lilke you said you can see us making it, so do i



mwa