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I am quite upset (big surprise, I know). Yesterday I went through thousands of my photos I have taken over the years and submitted them to this photography site. I had to narrow the choices down to 10... I picked 10 of my best work and my submissions were denied... I am beyond pissed... Looks like I can't do anything right.. I was sure those 10 were good... One they said it was out of focus... It was NOT out of focus. Then another they said was poor lighting... That one I was sure was going to make it... I am beyond crushed.... *sigh*



added 2/23/09

in response to the comments left, I will not give up, I can resubmit in 30 days which I will... just a blow to the self esteem is all... :)

Just another rant and rave...



"They" say it's up to people themselves to make life how they want it, and there is no such thing as fate...



If anyone has some insight on this please indulge me...



What do you do when you are just on this side of 30, want to move out get your own home, but your ******* father leaves your mother who can not fend for herself and is in bad physical shape.. She does not (nor I think can she) move somewhere else at this point and you are an only child... Over your dead body will you put her in a home at the age of 61 where she is mentally sound and there is no one else in the family...

Sure as hell looks like I am the only one who is loyal enough to stay.. I don't want anything to happen to her but it looks like I will never have my own life or get married... I am the end of the blood line... Me and her were talking about the burial plot at the cemetery and it looks like as I walk alone in life, so I will be buried alone as well... On one side it was to be my mom's 2 sisters her and my "father" On the other side it was to be me and my family. Funny how some people really are meant to be alone...



Actually I am going to use that one line in here as my new quote... Not saying this for pity, and I repeat I do NOT want anything to happen to my mom ever but life sucks and if my father would die tomorrow no tear shall I shed...



I think I will put my old quote in here in case I want to use it in the future...



"My brain realizes I am meant to be alone; wish my heart and soul would come to the same conclusion" - Me

I generally use blogs to gripe and get things off my chest, but I guess I can write a halfway decent happy one...



One of my dearest friends on here, shes like a mom to me and a sis rolled up into one... She came back from a trip where she went to this really cool sanctuary. Well me being the wolf lover that I am, was completely in awe from what she told me. So after bugging the poor woman she told me what it was called and where it was. I looked it up online and HAVE TO GO THERE! Then she put pictures in her portfolio which were the most amazing pictures ever. I am going there no matter what. I have to figure out where to put a reminder so far enough in advance I can make a reservation (only thing that sucks is I am not sure if I will be in that area on day number 2 or 3 of vacation. I don't want to reserve for day 2 and have something come up, but if I can make it on day 2 I don't want to waste an extra day cause there is a lot to do on this vacation.. We have major points of interest, but if there is something cool along the way we will stop... Vacations for us are really flexible, but this is a must! UGH I HATE DECISIONS!!)... This is the first thing I have really been looking forward to for a long time... I looked forward to the movie Twilight (which kinda disappointed me), but this is different... I really believe during the time I will be with the wolves I will be truly happy.. This seldom happens (maybe 2 times a year at most).. I would say when I will be there, but d/t my previous post I don't need spiteful people ruining it for me... They probably wouldn't but you never know... TRUST NO ONE! lol...

Yes this entry is strictly a whine... Don't read further if you don't wanna hear complaining... I swear more often then not the people here just piss me off to no end... Just cause I ask for those who rate lower then a 10 to leave a response, more people have been leaving NO responses and lower ratings on purpose.. I am so tempted to give all those people a 1...



Go ahead tell me to not make a big deal out of rating... If it wasn't important there wouldn't be 'The Top' to the left and yes I am competitive... People here are so spiteful.. Though, then again I am a revenge rater... I would say they started it, but that sounds awfully petty... well too friggen bad....



*pulls hair out*