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I'm absolutely loving the new database system and of course the database over at scifi section ;]



i've been excited and gone a little crazy over it all, so i just want to say a thank you to Fizbop, Artemka and Morrigon for taking the time to coach me a little to make my entries that much better!

you guys rock and are doing a fantastic job :D



it's been so much fun, researching, finding images and adding items... i've always enjoyed the database and now i'm enjoying it more than ever

yay!



SciFi Database!

recently things have... changed for me.

i am currently doing an experiment with another profile to force myself out of the silence and the comfort i always seem to make for myself.

it's a cocoon of solitude.



ArcaneConcept was aimed to challenge that safety i found for myself, to branch out to others... possibly.



i must say that recently, that challenge along with the friendships of some very wonder people, i feel more comfortable making a comment on a journal or replying to a forum post..

while i still don't feel comfortable messaging people to start a conversation, i am more likely to respond to messages and find myself enjoying my time here.



someone recommended reading journals

and that really helped because of the honesty i found in many of them and i felt compelled to make a comment. some of those comments have led to wonderful conversations and friendships.



i must say i've probably grown a lot since ArcaneConcepts creation. i've taken to turning off lurking, and having conversations, reading and commenting on journals and i've taken on a position of responsibility in my house.



it's been good



i know i haven't done it all myself

i thank those who have supported me and who have responded to me

thank your gods for the new status system



i so much more enjoy the database than the forum

and now it will be even more enjoyable to browse there



cancer rocks

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Oceanne
15:25 Oct 30 2008

Doesnt he though!

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MysticalChild
16:56 Oct 30 2008

totally!

the database is beautiful and now it's even more comprehensive and enjoyable

plus making it part of the status system brings it back into focus and ensures i have many things to look at :D



i can't wait for the database at the sci-fi section!

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never has not sleeping felt so good.



Fable II is not a disappointment, not in the very least.

sweet.



the years of waiting was definitely worth it.



i'm so freaking tired :)

sometimes i wish i fostered more relationships

i get a lot out of friendships and i like to give in return



having more like that would be beneficial to my on going struggle with my disease and social hang ups



but then i remember how i am and i realize that many relationships are not for me, sure that's probably the social anxiety talking, but i don't think i could handle it



i don't even message people here much

sure it keeps me in a state of solitude, but i'm comfortable here.

i browse the database, read a journal now and then and generally enjoy the quietness

and it keeps me out of a lot of drama



but every now and then i wish it were a little different

and i wonder at the things i am missing, the stimulation i do not receive



but it passes fairly quickly

come on midnight

i want to immerse myself in albion once more





i

cannot

wait

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the lab screwed up some photos for me

i had thirteen girls nominated for homecoming queen who needed 11x14 size portraits mounted on foam core board.



all i needed the lab to do is mount them on the foam core board

out of the thirteen photographs,five have what appears to be glue residue on the image.



one is not very obvious, and two have smaller identical blobs off to the left of the subject so i can put those down to misses, but two have very large splotches on the face of the subject.





are these people quality checking at all?





the biggest issue is that i printed these photos myself with my ink and paper, all they were doing was mounting them. i feel like they should have to pay for that, since i'm going to have to reprint five photographs.



i should have done it myself.

now i get to go fight with people tomorrow

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Fizbop
13:00 Oct 20 2008

I would have written it down for them. Labs always mess up pictures. I had a roll of film that needed to be fully developed and 3 came back cuz of the exposers being glitchy. I said I wanted them all developed. Even a glitchy photo is something I'd like to see what came out of it.

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MysticalChild
16:06 Oct 20 2008

they did the project right, they just got glue residue on the front of some of them, so they just didn't do it very well



it makes me angry

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my house smells good.



those things happen when you clean it.

amazing innit?





i actually went out and walked today in the race for the cure, i thank my friend for that though, she knows how to motivate me.



i'm doing a lot of thinking about life the universe and everything, since my sense of balance has been thrown off quite expertly, and indeed the answer is 42



now i, like the pan-dimensional, hyper-intelligent race of beings, just need to figure out the ultimate question.

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Fizbop
00:35 Oct 20 2008

The answer is always 47 :P

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MysticalChild
06:05 Oct 20 2008

it's the question that leaves me guessing ;]

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i bought my Fable II book today!

it's plastic wrapped and i'm trying so hard not to open it.

although i caress it often



i've done very well not researching this game so far... i want to be surprised

although facts and rumors have reached my ears ;]



i've waited so long, and now the waiting is almost over...

four more days and i can immerse myself in Albion once again.



"isn't it great

it's my birthday gift to me!

i'm so happy."

i was lying in bed tonight thinking

sometimes i do that, think.



tonight i was thinking about my time in college

i didn't go for long as there was nothing it could offer me. it couldn't offer me anything because i wasn't interested in taking all the same boring classes that were required to get such and such a degree.

i'm not going to take classes i took in high school because they wanted me to have 'general education'

that was what high school was, i graduated. now i want interesting. i want to choose.



so i did. and screw the degree.



i took all the classes i wanted to, i took film classes and i took english classes... oh i loved my english 1A professor.

he made writing in essay enjoyable. i remember he said 'just because it's essay writing doesn't mean you can't make it interesting.'

he was the first that really made me feel like my writing was decent. previous teachers had complimented me, but i never thought about it.... i mean what does a 13 year old care what her 8th grade english teacher says? i was much more interested in what's-his-name across the aisle...



nathan, that was his name

anyway,

in college i had my hormones much more under control and became less interested in the people around me and focused more on the deeper interests that were coming to the surface.



i remember one exercise, when were split up into groups and i said i didn't understand what we were doing to the students i was working with. our professor over heard me and said 'i find it hard to believe you don't understand when you write the way you do.' and while he clarified the project and i understood, i was a little astounded that he noticed my work.



i remember every paper i wrote for that class

but i don't think i have copies anymore. i wish i did

i don't even remember the professors name, but i definitely remember what he brought out in me.



i've always felt i've kinda let him down, not ever finishing my book and losing interest in journalism



but there's still time for Avin ;]

and i'd like to think i'm using those skills in articles for my house.

'alot' is not a word



'a lot' is a phrase used to describe an amount



'please bare with me' is essentially asking someone to get naked with you.



'please bear with me' is asking someone to be patient



i don't want to get naked with you while i wait for you to add to your profile.

thanks though.

one week



it's taking too damn long



it better be as good as they say

i cringe to think i resembled some of the people half my age when i was them.

i'm sure i was writing my tortured soul out in permanent ink.

i'm sure i was just as full of teenage angst and despair



now i laugh at myself and who i thought i would be then.

i haven't changed THAT much, i just found i could survive being me, that the real me was the best version of myself, that who you say you are when you are 15 is not really who you are, that there was life outside the depressing music and that love actually gets easier as you grow up... that who you become is so much more than what you are in high school.



it gets better. much better.

i've always said i liked people who confused me

made me uncertain

people who naturally challenge everything i thought i knew about myself

who absolutely turn my instincts inside out



explosively overwhelming

but it feels so good..





then i ponder new ideas and wonder about a different way of seeing everything

including myself









i want some apple pie

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dabbler
23:42 Oct 10 2008

Just because we learn how a magician saws a woman in half, doesn't mean we can no longer enjoy a good performance.

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MysticalChild
23:49 Oct 10 2008

i've noticed you say a lot of things that are very true and put things in perspective :)



this is definitely one of those!

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Insomnia

you are the only thing i can depend on

at least i'm hilarious when overly tired.



yeah.

i crack me up